I want to feel better NOW

justbeatgeno

Hi all. Needed some support. Hoping you all could listen. I had my cancer battle 2 years ago. Did a unilateral mastectomy. Wanted a bmx, but at the time felt I should take things one step at a time. Tuesday I finally had the other removed. Unfortunately, I don't do well with anesthesia. So I'm still feeling super weird and not right. I was able to put up with it when I was "fighting cancer", but now I feel so guilty feeling so bad over something that was "optional". I know this probably all sounds like nonsense, but I just needed to vent it out. I'm ready to feel better NOW. Thanks for listening.

Cpeachymom

Well, I was just a little ahead of you back in 2017, and did delayed recon. I just had my implant exchange at the end of March. Do I feel guilty for waiting? Nope, not even a little. Neither should you. You had the surgery to take care of the cancer, which was the important part; now you’ve had the additional piece that you needed to feel ok.

I hope you feel better soon!

MinusTwo

justbeat - I agree - NO guilt. And no reason to second guess. Glad your 2nd half is done. It won't be long until you're past the worst & on the road to recovery.

justbeatgeno

Thanks all for listening.

Lucy55

I had UMX 5 years ago ...I too wanted BMX ..but my doctor didn't want to remove a healthy breast ..so I finally had it done 4 weeks ago..and feeling good now ..but you have to give yourself time to recover ..I found recovery better than previous one as they didn't take nodes ..but it's still major surgery ..Don't feel guilty ..we certainly didn't have surgery for fun !!! For me I was sick of being uneven...and I always worried that cancer would pop up in the healthy breast one day ..

justbeatgeno

Lucy, thanks for your story. It's so nice to hear someone who has walked the same path. Sure I did it to be even, but secretly in my head, I just wanted it GONE!

Yesterday was rough. I think I'm still coming out of the anesthesia. Plus, they put a scolopomine patch on me, so I was coming off that. Plus, I had to stop tamoxifen before surgery, so I was probably having a hormone adjustment from being back in that. Just a crazy perfect storm and I just wanted to cry all day. So glad these boards were here for me.