Returning to my pre-BC self

Mavericksmom

I am so tired of all things breast cancer. I think this is an awesome site, the members here helped me get through all my horrible issues and I could never thank all of you enough.

But now I truly feel ready to move on. I am not having any more treatment, never had chemo or radiation this time, only surgery and Letrozole. I certainly don’t feel as if I belong here. I wonder if I am alone feeling that I didn’t suffer enough to be called a breast cancer survivor? I am not telling people about it, it doesn’t define me. Women who go through chemo seem to be the ones who are verified. Many get to ring a bell after their treatment to single the end of treatment, even though many have radiation afterwards. I never quite understood that, but if it helps people, it’s a good thing.

As a second time breast cancer patient, healing from reconstruction was the end, but no one said congratulations, no bell to ring, indeed I am only now realizing it’s over! No one said those words to me but I’m done. Only insignificant visits with the medical oncologist. My feelings are mixed. I am happy to get back to my real life, but unhappy about the need to continue to see cancer doctors.

If I am done, and I believe I am, I want to be done with cancer doctors too. If not for the need to get prescriptions for my Letrozole, I wouldn’t keep follow up appointments. I already decided to cancel appointments with my breast surgeon. I wouldn’t go back to him if it came back anyway. I tried to switch to a medical oncologist closer to home, the one I had my chemo with the first time, but was told he wouldn’t see me because I needed to stay with the place I am being treated to have consistently. He is now a Penn Medicine Doctor in the suburbs, so I am pretty sure that has something to do with it since I went to another Philadelphia hospital. Whatever.

I don’t like social media because I think it brings out the worst in people. I tried Facebook but deactivated my account because I hated the garbage and felt it only raised my blood pressure. Same with Twitter. Thankfully this site is an “old fashioned” message board. Glad it was here when I needed it, an that it is here for all who need it, but I need to move on now.

Wishing all the best to everyone here. Hopefully it will still be an active site if my cancer decides that three times is a charm! Doubtful that will happen.

Thanks for all the support and information!

Running, not walking, back to my pre-BC life! 😊🌼🌺🌸♥️

Moderators

Mavericksmom,

We can certainly understand getting to a point where you want to say goodbye to this journey. We wish you the very best, and please know we will ALWAYS be here for you, no matter what.

Sending you big hugs and best wishes for a long, happy, healthy life ahead!

--The Mods

LimnoGal

MavericksMom-congratulations on reaching the end of your treatment road and making the decision to move on with your life. I wish you many happy, cancer-free years