Yes am super anxious

Karmic108

We go through diagnosis, surgeries, unexpected side effects, pain, confusion,next steps, tons of appointments, juggling with work and family, other health issues, dealing with fakeness, constant worry on recurrence and a lot.

We become tough, bold, stubborn, persistent covering the underlying fear, do lot of research and have endless questions.

And the bs office staff were getting impatient when I wanted to know my results sooner.

I might call multiple times. I might worry soo much which is making me to do.

At the post op, the bs doc was asking on the calls and saying other docs staff will not respond.. my husband didnot know all this..

He was surprised when she was saying.

She big time messed up my sanity. I was just watching her not reacting

I was controlling myself and told calmly, I was going through a lot and I was anxious to know. All of your staff is good. I spoke very diplomatically.

And she cooled off from her lecture.

She might be expecting an argument. I didn't give her a chance.

After I came out of the room, the nurse was looking as if her ego was satisfiied and her tattle taling part worked.

Yes we are different after diagnosis. They should not take things personally and worry about other logistics.

They can address in a neutral way than reacting

The whole experience was creepy except the procedures and consultations

My anger was mounting and my rantings were high when the people who treat us do not have empathy

But I did all that when only my husband was present.

Now I made peace with myself finally.

I might look over reactive, may be it is an ok state at this point