Got call from a cancer care worker re:surgery

Jadedjo

I learned because someone from cancer care called me today (not the PS who I'm still waiting for a week later to even get the darn appt day which at this point is going to be next month meaning a delay in surgery date) that they don't do TE's in this city especially for dti. So if I get direct to implant it's going to actually be an implant the size I have chosen if PS agrees. I want smaller.i want much smaller. Like full B or small C but I'm more inclined for full B. I just want enough to say something is there.  Everybody seems to say I should have no problem with the doctor or getting them but I don't believe them.thats a drastic change on a fat body. My issue is these darn things have been a pain all my life literally and figuratively. They are big and in the way,I've never been comfortable with them thus why I wear sports bras to minimize the size, and now they are trying to kill me. 

Given a choice I will probably go with rounds cause teardrop implants would look wrong on me. My boobs hang because they are so big but it's a full bag hang, not teardrop shaped at all.  just don't know if it will be silicone or saline. Not sure which is safer or best despite reading on it. From what I'm getting it seems to be equal risks for either of them.will probably discuss with PS which is the best choice for me. I was ready to go flat before I found out about the pre pec dti so smaller boobs then my body is right now is not an issue for me. Paraphrasing what ssomeone said I may look like a DDD now but underneath all this fat is a full B girl. I am working on the fat part but unlike the boobs it's not coming off in an instant.

She also told me I should be hospitalized probably 3-5 days  because of my lack of help at home and she will look into seeing if I can get home care to help for the next few weeks until I can handle most things myself.

A surprise today I don't know how to feel about.So I rarely stand in front of the mirror with my clothes on much less in my underclothes but today I had to get something and ended up in front of the mirror. Apparently the roughly almost a month I been working out has built up muscle on my torso but it's almost mostly obscured by the GIANT BEACH BALL BELLY in the middle. Yes I'm building up my obliques but you can only tell in certain areas cause the fat round belly (that seems rounder these days)obscures the rest. It's both inspiring (cause hey I actually do have abs in there...somewhere...) but heartbreaking (I would really like the beach ball to deflate not grow,thank you).i don't know if it will help the surgeon agree with me on size because I'm toning up mostly in the mid waist and rib cage area.But if I have muscles in my torso it probably means I've already built some up in my chest and arms too. 

I hope it helps regarding surgery.

Due to a birthday from hell, a unwanted monthly gift from Mother Nature as a surprise today I didn't get much of a workout..more then I expected due to a lost bus transfer but not as much as I have been doing daily.

Since I only got 6-8 weeks left I need to double down on workouts. ( until today i had built up to 90 min barefoot cardio with strength training and nightly 50 min prenatal yoga cause thanks to boobs,log legs  and belly I don't bend that way for normal yoga dvds)I know the better shape I'm in ( and the lower my blood pressure)the less complications during and after surgery.

Everybody involved in the situation in the city keeps saying "it won't be a problem" has me wary. Has anybody else had dti's done in MB on here?

It's quite possible I'm the only one active on here right now.