Biopsy today, also bad news.

Jadedjo

I mentioned in my post a couple days ago I was going for biopsy today.So I went for my biopsy today,the waiting for it was worse then the biopsy itself.didnt  feel a thing except a slight pinch when I think she was tagging it.

Unfortunately it looks like I may be a permanent member on this site.no offence to any here but I was hoping my visit here would be short lived.

They are pretty sure it's breast cancer and are already treating it like it is,they are just waiting for the biopsy results to confirm and figure out what kind and how bad .I have an appt with the surgeon in august to discuss options  which is when the results will be in.pretty much what I got from them cause they are cagey in saying it straight out is that it would take a miracle for it to come back benign.

I'm devastated. And I'm not sure I have any strength left to fight it.i was already running on reserves the past five years and now I'm on fumes.

I'm also seriously pissed off.

But I'm now crying the tears I wasn't crying the past ten days when I was told there was a mass.

Other post was "waiting and worried" in waiting for test results.

hapa

Jade - no offense taken. Nobody wants to be here. But we're all glad we found this place.

I also had a rough run-up to my cancer diagnosis. My dad had passed away after a long battle with two different types of cancer almost a year to the day before my diagnosis. My husband and I had gone through several years of instability after he finished grad school and was having trouble finding a job. Things had just started looking up a few months prior when it all came crashing down.

I'm six days post final chemo now and so far this whole cancer thing hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. I still have surgery to go (BMX is my choice) plus possible radiation and continuing herceptin until March, but it all seems a lot more doable now. You keep going because there really isn't any other choice.

I'm hoping for the best for you. Maybe your biopsy will come back benign and you can forget about this whole awful nightmare, but if it doesn't there's lots of support here on this board.

Jadedjo

Thank you I appreciate it. 

I'm going to need all the help I can get.today just proved how very alone I am.

hapa

I'm sorry you're going through this alone. That must be really hard. Still praying for a benign outcome for you.

Jadedjo

It is. I've been trying to call my Counselor and even the crisis line. She hasn't called back (probably busy) and the crisis line is overloaded and not taking calls right now. I'm trying to figure out what to do after surgery cause I have no help (even if it is benign she says it needs to come out) for groceries and stuff that I won't be able to do on my own.

I'm on EIA disability but had finally gotten my admin assist certificate from the local college beginning of June and was supposed to start looking for work this month. I was hoping to find work even if it was casual by September, October latest  That's pretty much out the window now.

Being in poverty and likely having cancer is as painful as being alone and likely having cancer.i can't afford the "good" foods I can barely afford food period. I can't afford the stuff needed to prepare for treatments no matter what treatments. I would love to go out right now and just do something that takes my mind of this but doing anything I might like takes money and that's something else  I don't got.

My biggest concern is I can barely handle regular medications orally as they aggravate my severe acid reflux to the the point I can't swallow and cancer treatment drugs are harsh. I know I have to wait until the official diagnosis is confirmed for some of these issues but it's all very overwhelming.

Thank you for your prayers. I'm not sure God is listening when it comes to me but I need all the help I can get right now. I deeply appreciate it.

moth

Gosh, why are they telling you it's going to take so long? I think my biopsy pathology results were at my doctor's in 3 days. I can see maybe a week but not much more than that.

Fwiw, I'd agitate hard to get faster results and faster appointment with the surgeon because it's the not knowing that is the hardest. I got my biopsy results on a Monday (from my GP), met my surgeon the following day, had my surgery 7 days later. Waiting around not knowing what the plan is, is really emotionally draining.

Can you get on a cancellation list at the surgeon? Can your GP call around and see if there's a surgeon with quicker appointments?

best wishes ~

Jadedjo

I'm Canadian and live in one of the prairie provinces so we serve a lot of surrounding communities.we have also had cutbacks recently too so that's not helping.too many cancer patients not enough healthcare professionals.

They say results in 7-10 business days. This is actually pretty fast for the local health care system. I have heard of suspected cancer patients waiting MONTHS to get tests done.

i see my GP Thursday next week so confirmation will probably be in by then unless they are really backed up.

This is the first opening for the breast health clinic  surgeon that's available and they won't make another one until the results are in.they need to know how bad it is before they can tell you the options.i would rather someone who specializes in breast health and breast cancer patients help me with future decisions.

Honestly I need the time for it all to sink in. Part of me thinks I'm trapped in some horrible nightmare dream. 

Also my appt with him is seven days before my birthday which is always a difficult time mentally for me more so since I lost my parents it's not a good time and mental space for me to be making a fast decision about something major like that. I know the faster the better when it comes to treatment but for me I need the most information about everything,what is suggested,etc.

Thanks. 

I'm ok with the wait.

moth

That's good you're ok with the wait & are taking the time to process your emotions.

I'm in British Columbia btw

Jadedjo

Thanks,I'm from MB. 

I have a tendency to make bad decisions  when I'm scared so I know I need that time to at least come close to accepting this.then gather everything they give me at the surgical consultation research it until I can't look anymore and then make an informed decision that I feel I can live with. 

I also just looked at my CT scan results that found the mass and I hadn't even looked at since I saw the doc (I thought it was a cyst and wasn't worried.im a fool)and it's actually 1.5 cm not 1.3 so slightly worse then thought and I couldn't get an answer from them today they were so intent on getting the biopsy (but will be asking my GP when I see him next week) if that's the actual size. Apparently that's when your supposed to be able to feel it at that size but I never could.i do know it's 2 cm deep inside cause I asked what the first radiologist meant by deep but by the time I was going to ask the size she was talking about how it was "very concerning" and when I asked if that meant breast cancer I got the usual partyline cause they can't out right say yes: "we need to wait for it to be confirmed but it likely is even it isn't it needs to come out"

And then she set me up with the social worker who talked to me about early stages of cancer are quite treatable. I remember saying "I don't care how treatable it is I just want it not to exist! Haven't I suffered enough?!?"

It appears the answer for that is Nope.

I'm switching between anger and despair right now and it's my cycle week so that intensified by hormones.

Jadedjo

Just got diagnosed. There's a post under the just diagnosed thread called -it's cancer-