Strange Dreams

Elizabeth9

I have always been a vivid dreamer. I am having the weirdest dreams now. I one dream, my grandson was looking for his toy truck. I reached into my boob, rummaged around and pulled it out.

I have had this dream twice, whereby I am draining noodles, but meaning to keep the water, but accidentally pour the water down the drain and am standing there, staring at puffy white spaghetti noodles, feeling very mad at myself.

I also cannot stop yawning...big, open mouth yawns. I have only been diagnosed for 2 weeks, surgery on July 30. It must be the shock and processing of it all.

Very strange reactions...anybody else have odd, innermost things happening to them?

Jelson

Elizabeth, I don't know anything about interpreting dreams but I know someone who does - Wanda Burch - musician, historian, writer, active dreamer and all around lovely person, who I was fortunate to meet through a breast cancer survivor dragon boat team. Here is her website http://www.wandaburch.com/ - check out She Who Dreams and good luck with your surgery and recovery!

LoriCA

I've never been the type to remember my dreams (if you asked me I'd probably say I don't dream haha), but after my DX I began having extremely vivid weird nightmares that always ended with a wolf attacking me They were bad enough to wake me up screaming in the middle of the night. I'm not really into dream interpretation but I think it's pretty clear that the wolf was the cancer that is killing me. I think it's just our brain's way of working through things when we're mentally and emotionally overloaded. It only lasted a month or so and I haven't had anything since.

couragement

Dear Elizabeth9,

I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I hope you are feeling well enough and getting and staying strong for your upcoming surgery. I like your grandkid's initiative! You must have a special relationship. And if at all possible try and stay kind to yourself with this process, as that can leak over into your dreams.

I have very intense dreams and always have, but they really went into high definition upon my diagnosis. There was no need for me to have them interpreted at all. They were quite lucid. When they were doing the Mamaprint I had one dream two nights in a row where I got an envelope in the mail and when I opened it up it said "high risk" and another letter had a big plus sign on it, meaning the test was positive for high risk. When the nurse called me to make an appointment to see the MO about the results I said "oh just tell me over the phone because I know for sure it is positive." The next night I had a dream where my husband and I (and our little dog) were in our living room looking out the window at the biggest storm I have ever seen on a horizon. We just watched it in awe together in the dream, and frankly that is pretty much how we went through treatment, watching in awe.

When I started chemo I had a dream that my husband and I were on a boat (which we often have been) and it was beautiful out and my husband said "okay, now you need to swim underwater for that island." I was scared, even though I am a great swimmer and I could see the island was about 20 miles away. I went underwater and it was pitch black and I came up in panic. My husband said "you can swim this easily, one stroke in front of the next, and I will be on the boat right next to you." So down I went and began swimming.

Finally, I had one of my most spectacular dreams ever, that has stayed with me ever since. A once in a lifetime dream of clear understanding. Just because I loved it so much I will write it here... but it is a little long...

In real life I had just had my first Neulasta shot and wasn't sure if it would give me pain. I took my Claritin and went to bed, and the shot went off on my arm at the designated time. In my dream I was sitting on a chair looking out some big windows that are in front of the kitchen sink. My husband was making food or doing the dishes and in the distance I saw a nuclear explosion. I recognized it immediately, as in real life my dad has home movies of atomic bombs since he was at the testing sites. I knew that the pressure waves would hit in moments so I got up with our little dog in my arms to move toward my husband so we would be together/touching when we died. In that moment of rising I had a total understanding of the universe and some inaudible voice said "Love is everywhere." I saw and recognized that this was so and relaxed back into the chair I had been in. At that moment the blast came through our kitchen windows, and doors, dust and dirt like a tidal wave. Then I woke up with a headache that was so strong I could barely move. So I just lay there in awe (once again!) and relaxed.

Thanks for letting me share. Also, one other thing... often in times of stress or when we need to release anger or any energy we will yawn. It is pretty common to see in trauma therapy and is talked about in psychology some. It is a very good thing to many observers, as it can mean you are letting energy that needs to move, move... up and out. It can also mean your body wants more oxygen, as we are want to do when we are stressed. I am sure there are other things too, but if you feel comfortable I would just allow all this to flow and let your body speak.

Sending you much love and hope.

Gussy

I think that I have had some vivid bizarre dreams since going through chemo. Sometimes I have to remind myself that it was only a dream. Very weird.

Denise-G

I've kept a dream journal for years and have also been an avid dreamer. One dream I had a few days past diagnosis which is over 7 years ago remains with me it was so vivid and predictive of the future.

In the dream I was in an older building. The ceiling started to fall on me. There was plaster everywhere and I was hurt from the ceiling falling.

But underneath the fallen ceiling, was a gorgeous hand painted ceiling full of paintings (like the Sistine Chapel).

The dream proved to be true. The ceiling felt like it was falling for many years post cancer. But now that I am 7 years out, in looking back I can see many blessings beyond the broken, cracked and fallen ceiling.