Waiting is hard

SunflowerJane

Im realizing waiting is part of this process... In October 2017, my nurse practitioner found a lump in my left breast. After a diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound the radiologist saw some micro calcifications and then recommended that I follow up in 6 months with another mammogram. So, I waited... and then in Feb, I began experiencing some pain in my left breast. So my arnp ordered a mri, which I had last week. The mri results showed there's a "clumped nonmass enhancement" in my left breast, which corresponds to the micro calcifications seen on my mammogram from November. Then I waited some more... I had mri-guided, vacuum-assisted biopsy yesterday. Now, I'm waiting still... the BIG wait- for the biopsy results. I'm not very good at waiting.

What has been helpful for you in the waiting?

Rondeezee

Hi Sunflower Jane,

My wait ended on yesterday when I received the results of my biopsy which is positive for cancer. The last two months of several tests and waiting has been exhausting. I can assure you that once you know what is really going on you will feel better. I am feeling much better today as I know I have cancer and I know I have to do something about it. I’m feeling empowered now to arm myself with enough information to take the drivers seat in developing a treatment plan that will work for me. The wait is exhausting, but as soon as you know what’s going on; you will be better. Hugs!

leeser

Hi RhondaJ,

My thoughts are with you on this journey you have in front of you. I hope you have a support system in place and I wish you all the best.

Take care of yourself,

Lisa

Ozarkgirl

In November 2017 I had surgery to remove a radial scar with atypical dysplasia in my right breast. Last week I had a follow up MRI mammogram and a mass/lesion was found in my left breast. It showed irregular margins and also showed enhancement with the contrast. Today I had an ultrasound to locate the lesion so that a biopsy could be scheduled but they were unable to locate it so I am now scheduled for a MRI guided biopsy. The radiologist indicated that his opinion is it's another lesion with atypia cells and is about 95% sure it's not cancer. I'm actually struggling with the though of not doing the biopsy and waiting it out to see if anything happens. I guess I just don't understand how nothing could show up on an ultrasound that they saw on an MRI -- could it have been an error on the MRI maybe?

SunflowerJane

RhondaJ,

The waiting is exhausting- you said it well. Peace and strength to you on this next chapter in your story. Thank you for sharing.

Hugs to you!

SunflowerJane

Ozarkgirl,

All these tests and waiting can wear you out emotionally and physically. I know that the mri is very sensitive and can be affected by your cycle. I think you should advocate for what you think is best for you. Ask what is your gut telling you.

Peace in the waiting.

Ozarkgirl

Thanks Sunflower ❤ -- unfortunately I don't cycle anymore and haven't since 2004 when I had hysterectomy. The whole past 6 months has just been a whirlwind and I honestly don't know what I feel anymore. I'm just getting over pneumonia and in the course of healing I took 4 rounds of antibiotics and steroids so my whole body is out of whack. I have more praying to do indeed -- sometimes it's easier to pray for others than to pray for yourself LOL My hubby thinks I should do the MRI biopsy because if I don't I'll have to repeat the MRI in 6 months anyway so he thinks I should just get it over with now. I haven't told any friends about the findings from the MRI or even that I had an ultrasound today either -- I don't like for others to worry. LOL