I am having panic attacks

Gic1430

i am the sole caregiver of my husband, he has MS and is in a wheelchair. We have no family whatsoever except for some nosy people who have always only told us how we do everything wrong. My family is dead, all we have is my dogs and my teaching job which I love. I haven’t been diagnosed, but I am waiting on a biopsy and I am crying myself to sleep, my husband is in a worse place. I didn’t know he loved me so much. He will just lay next to me at night and watch me . Cry just a little bit and then keep looking at me. Is this the right place for my pity party? I want to stop this misery, but the only thing coming to mind is not what I want to do

GreenValleyGirl

Hi Gic 1430. I saw your posts on another thread and was moved to reach out to you. I live in the Dallas area. I encourage you to visit your doctor and let him know how you are doing. I thought I had a recurrence in October and it took me 3 months of second guessing myself to confirm that in fact it was benign. But in the mean time I drovemyself crazy about it. Severe anxiety and depression. I finally went to see my pcp who put me on an antidepressant. I’m doing better and have hope now. I’d like to stay in touch with you!

bew66

Gic1430,

Like GreenValleyGirl, I have been following your posts. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate! Maybe a visit or call to your primary care provider would be in order? The last line of your post above has me a little alarmed....what do you mean "the only thing coming to mind is not what I want to do"?

Bonnie

Gic1430

oh I would love that, it is nice to have a friend in my area even if we never meet, it feels nice, thank u

mustlovepoodles

Fear and anxiety is part of the package for most of us. If it seems out of control, talk to your doctor about taking something to help you manage your anxiety. A lot of us have found that a course of Ativan or Xanax helps us endure a bad situation.

Self-talk is important here. Practice saying positive things about yourself. Look in the mirror and say, "My body is strong. My mind is strong. I am capable. I do not give in. I do not give up." Whisper the words. Shout the words. Growl the words. Your mind and body are listening. They will believe what you tell it.

MTwoman

As your support system is non-existent, I would suggest you get connected to an experienced therapist. You have quite a lot on your plate and working with a therapist may allow you to, at least, unburden yourself, and at most learn some additional coping skills to improve your ability to manage what sounds like a very stressful situation.

GenevaC

And reach out to a BC support group! I live in a small town (family all on another continent) but the support group in the larger nearby city paired me with a survivor from a (not too close) village. It is a wonderful support.

moth

Hi hun, I think, you need to see your GP first thing tomorrow, tell them how badly you're suffering psychologically and either get meds or go see a counsellor or both.

If you're feeling in crisis now, call the Lifeline https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/talk-to-some... 1-800-273-8255

"People call to talk about lots of things: substance abuse, economic worries, relationships, sexual identity, getting over abuse, depression, mental and physical illness, and loneliness, to name a few."

Jbird705

Hi Gic1430 - I am so sorry you are feeling this way. The big anxiety comes in waves, doesn't it? I agree with the posts above that there are medications and tools that can help you, and there are lifelines available with very caring people ready to give you support (therapists and support groups, helplines, this message board and hopefully a nurse navigator). I temporarily forgot all of these facts earlier this morning when I was so overwhelmed and feeling that I couldn't possibly make it through this new reality of a diagnosis - it felt WAY too hard. A vigorous walk, some deep breathing and a quarter of a Xanax put everything back in perspective. There IS a strong community at your disposal...even when we are momentarily blinded by fear and can't see it. When you think about 'what if' try to imagine your 'what if' as the most positive outcome. Chances are you'll get very good news. Each minute feels like eternity right now. The minutes will pass, I promise.

GreenValleyGirl

Hi Gic1430! I’m thinking of you and praying for you today!

Michelle