Surgery and radiation was all good, so why aren't you now?

tammyH64

HeHeHe! I want to say.... number one I am crazy. Very crazy. Yes. I have put my faith and life in God's hands. He has given me and my family some pretty awful tests of faith since December. He carried us through. It was difficult at times to put that smile on but HE/GOD got us through.

In the end, I don't know if I hate Tamoxifen or it just hates me. I guess time will tell.

I want to be well, I want to sleep, I want to feel normal and not worry about melting down or crying or peeing a little. Like I was last year.

ChiSandy

Well, the bad news is that things will never be exactly as they were before cancer, especially before anti-hormonal therapy. The good news is that you will adjust to a new normal (which might eventually come close to the old one) and heal some more. You will be well. You will sleep (run that A/C if you need to, even in winter; if you don't have a ceiling fan, install one in the bedroom). You can feel pretty and even get stronger. (I began weight & strength training three months ago). You will find your own image and style and make the most of both. Treat yourself with non-edible rewards (unless they are healthful foods)—pamper yourself, try new experiences, learn a new skill, sharpen an existing one, or revive one you'd previously neglected.

The best thing you can do is to get “out of yourself” as much as possible and interact with the world around you—that will give you a sense of gratitude and wonder.