33 years old Mastectomy/Phyllodes Tumor in need of support!

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Hi Everyone,

I could use some extra Love right now.I just had another one of my late night crying moments. 3 weeks ago on June 27, 2017 I had a Mastectomy of my right breast to remove what was thought to be a benign but large Phyllodes tumor. The surgery went well and I got lots of drugs that made me feel nothing for the first week, and then a week after the surgery I starting crying so much at night and sometimes during the day too. Fast froward to week 2 when I go to my breast surgeon for the pathology results, and she tells me that my 7 inch and 3 pound tumor was not benign but borderline it is not cancer but the cells were changing in the tumor that looked to be malignant like features what the..... And I have a much higher risk of developing breast cancer on top of everything else. I am scared, sad, overwhelmed and mad along with at times just not knowing how to feel at all. One of my worst moments was on my 33rd Birthday back in June when everybody called to make the appointments for my mastectomy surgery and follow ups and pre op within half an hour. i cried so hard afterwards thinking oh no I am really doing this.

I have cried so much in the last two months. I don't know how to start picking up the pieces of my broken world and start living life again. When my whole world has been turned upside down, and I have been rocked to my core. I don't know how I am going to go back to work next month with all these raw feelings I have. I am a preschool teacher, and I don't wanted to be sad all the time around the children.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated I can't talk to my family about this they don't understand what I am going through. But I am glad they are around to be my support system. I am so glad that I have you lovely ladies who have been though what I am going through now.

Thank you for listening and for providing any help/guidance you can give because I feel so lost, and I don't know what to do!

Need Lots of Hugs,

Sara