My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

Micmel

I am am sitting here with no voice. It's has officially gone....I have never screamed so much. What a great game. Those patriots just never give up! Kudos to them. I am happy of course that the eagles 🦅 won. It was a nail biter for sure. Hope everyone is warm and cozy.

Today something so incredibly special happened to me and my DD. We had been talking about her dress that she wanted to wear to her reception. So she was going for the $99 bridal dress type of purchase, (which is ok with me, but if I could help I wanted too) They are trying to save money....so I knew that when I got married I had taken my wedding dress and had it preserved for perhaps one day, maybe she would like to just see it and have it as a remembrance item.(so I got to thinking, and went and got the box and handed it to her) She asked me if I had veil in the box, we ended up opening the box and next thing I knew she had the dress on and it fit her like a glove!

IT is magnificent it went right on her and she fell in love with it immediately. I was so flattered and honored. She was so happy and her smile was so amazing and she was glowing. I was so touched that she actually liked it. It needs one little alteration in the sleeves, she wants the poof out of the sleeve a little and they can pretty much do whatever they would like with it. She's gonna keep the length of the gown. It is really an amazing gown and back then it was expensive. I can't imagine what it would be now. So now she has her gown. We are thrilled. It's going to be really special seeing her in that dress. I'm deeply touched, a wedding for my daughter was a huge surprise. Now her choosing to wear my dress, is blowing my mind. It fits her like a glove and I'm not kidding we were shocked. She started to cry I started to cry it was touching. I never thought I was that tiny. What happened to me? Lol.

She looked like a princess in that dress. She's even wearing the veil. I am going to buy her shoes. I put the deposit down for the venue today, so I am trying to help wherever we can. DH is a photographer and he's going to take care of the photos, which saves a lot of money, gotta wrangle the DJ. She wants real flowers for her bouquet. I was hoping for silk flowers. That way she would always have them, and they can be very real looking and last forever. We are now working on figuring out the Center pieces. So fun. So happy. Feel so glad for this chance. My today was perfect...Saw the beautful train station venue, and booked it for her, the date is saved ... my daughter tried on my wedding dress and loved it and looked amazing it. Will barely need any alterations....and the Eagles finally won the super bowl.!! 🏈 🍾 It's been a pretty darn good day! I'm going to bed without a voice. Lol. AGood day indeed. Be safe everyone. Much love ~M~

JFL

Micmel, wow, it must feel beyond special that your daughter (1) fits in the dress, (2) likes the dress and (3) finds it within her own style and taste so much that she wants wear it. Such a dream to have one's daughter wear one's wedding dress. And it is truly helping her out since she won't have to worry about buying a dress now. Congrats on the Super Bowl win. I watched the entire game. One can never rest with the Patriots until the last second has counted down and the whistle has blown. Amazing game. The trick play where QB Foles caught the ball for a touchdown? That is a classic and will be shown on rerun reels for a long time. I didn't have a stake in the game - I am a Seahaws fan - but am happy the city finally won a Super Bowl and happy for the team.

Micmel

JFL~ I know I was absolutely shocked when she tried it on and it was so sweet and looked like it was made for her. She jumped right in it. I told her that I saved it for her and she could do whatever she wanted to it. But she said the sleeves, she would want a little less puffy, but she honestly was glowing in it. I am beyond amazed. That it still looks that fantastic after being in that preserve box for 24 years. It still looks brand new. Bright beautiful and the neck line and back line are so amazingly nice beautiful, I knew she would really love it. It really is something to behold. I wasn't pushy at all..I just let her try it on and look at how Perfect it was on her own. And she did. I don't think she wanted to even take it off actually. It looked that nice. I don't think she wanted sleeves too much puffy , they aren't that bad, This does have sleeves, but there are beautiful sequins and netting all along the arms allows you to see her skin, but it under some netting and some beautful sequins and pearls. When she put it on her jaw dropped and so did mine. It really like beyond amazing.

My heart is singing. I was so happy she said she really loved it. The dress she was going to get, she is wearing for her bridal shower, it's a t length way more causal dress for a bridal shower, more casual than a wedding dress. She said as she waswalking up to bed, she said now I have a wedding gown! I couldn't be happier! I am honored. She is very thin, built exactly like I was when I was younger. So I am just thrilled she will wear it. It was a great day! Much love and hope all is well in your world. Welcome back!! 🤗💗. Very happy the Eagles won also. Very Happy. It was a great game though. And they do not ever give up(the patriots). That is a fourth quarter team. Scary so. Just glad we broke the streak for now. Much love ~M~

GracieM2007

OH Micmel, makes me tear up just thinking about it!!! She is going to be a beautiful bride in the dress!!!! I am just overjoyed for you!!!!

runor

Micmel, you gave me happy heart smiles. Bless you and Daughter.

Minnie31

Micmel, what a great day!! A lovely happy message board. Xx

Micmel

I just woke literally, was up way to late....celebrating! I am paying for it today. My voice is scraggly and I feel like crap. Somedays I just want to beg him for a dose reduction. I feel like a zombie most days. Julie I am not!! I wouldlike to know what puts that bounce in Julie's step? Doesn't she realize she's dying? In so many words. Sorry. But that commercial bothers me. She's all cheery. And bright in the morning, ready for her day! Me it takes me an hour to prepare to even move, my joints are so stiff and it takes me another hour just to wake up. It's just not realistic, maybe we have some Julie's out there on this medicine. I feel so glad for those Julie's out there. I am really not one of them. Everyday is an effort. Even knowing all the work that has to be done with this wedding. Makes me tired. The wedding makes me want to be Julie. I so wish we never got cancer. So much. Much love ~M~

Lynnwood1960

Micmel, I'm not even close to Julie!!! That commercial irritates the hell out of me! She swings her legs right out of the bed then bends down to get the newspaper. Works at a job then comes home and RUNS up a hill. She is skinny and has lots of hair too. You are not alone.

Tanya_Djamila

micmel the venue looks very peaceful. It looks like a wonderful place to begin a life together. Amazing that she will wear your gown.

We watched the game here. My fathers wife my DD and three grands my eldest son and DH yelled at the tv for four hours. My Dd made a taco salad. I made dirty rice and lamb chops. My grand daughter and I made brownies and chocolate chip cookies.

My DH did the dishes and everyone left as soon as the game was over. It’s my week off ibrance and due to changing to 100mg i’m Happily getting a few extra days off. So I’m not walking around swooning like a Gone With the Wind damsel.

Tanya

Micmel

Lynnwood~I know right!! It really makes me scratch my head. I worry every visit with the doctor that I'll be allowed to stay on ibrance because my hair is really growing back. In no time it would be back to the same length. I don't understand even those nulasta shots. I was bald bald bald when I had those shots. Trust me I wasn't gazing up into the sky after a lovely stroll outside with DH. I was a broken shell of pain cracked beyond recognition in a heap crying in his lap, wondering how on earth I even got this way, or how I ended up there. That woman had hair down her back long long hair. Smiling and leaning her head on her dH's shoulder like it's just another day. Ehhh it's just a possible infection life saving shot. No biggie, let me grab my shawl for our walk. After those shots I was sleeping writhing in bone pain to stop a train. I'll tske the shawl, but only to hang myself with. (Totally. Jk) but it hurts that bad! Grrr those commercials are misleading! I am still worn out from the game last night. I am going to bed early! Much love to all ~ M ~

Gracie ~ thank you darling. I loved my dress and to see her want to wear it warms my heart. I told her today. If you change your mind, I won't be hurt. Not one bit. She said she loved it. So surreal sometimes

Minnie-; my heart was fillled with joy! Seeing her smile and her joy made me feel so happy inside. My daughter. Who I took care of from the day they put her into my arms. Wow time flys!!

Runor~ it was a happy heart moment. I cried she cried. It was a special moment I'd never even dreamed would happen. The way it fit. The way she looked. I was deeply touched. Still am. Sorry I'm rambling again. Lol

Much love to all. ~M~

Just this second my mother called and said my step father was in for an X-ray of his shoulder, from some pain, I guess in the X-ray they saw a shadow or spot on his lung. So here we go.... the worry begins again. For someone else I love. 💔🤭😱😥 how could I be so happy one moment and scared to death the next. Life is so damn difficult sometimes.

Hang on to those you love ladies. Every single day and second you have is precious.

Tanya~sounds like some yummy food. DD made some delicious food, she’s becoming a little HomeMaker already. She’s so sweet and funny. Beauty is truly inside as well as outside for her. I was happy to see her in my gown. I just pray my step father is ok. He is more to me than my father ever was. Life is so hard. Glad you’re doing ok on your off week. Madam ibrance will leave you tossing in the wind. The fatigue can be so bad! I want to have energy again as well

Much love ~M~

keetmom

Any word from bighome?

Emma is down with a headache again today, it is a chemo week so really hope she doesn't end up needing to go to the hospital, I wont be able to go as her hospital is 2 hours away,Im a bit of a nervous wreck.

Im excited for you Mich, and your dd wedding, hope i can be  around to see my oldest marry.

Lynnwood1960

I was wondering about bigbhome myself. Hope everything is ok

Micmel

Keetmom~ I am also worried about Emma. I want you to be able to relax on your chemo week. That poor beautiful child. Hopefully it will dissipate and she'll be able to avoid anything hospital related. You guys have had enough.

I was wondering about Bigbhome myself today. I am sending thoughts her way and hoping her DH is ok. She's a strong beautiful woman, and her family deserves a break. It always seems like one thing after another. For us all. Sometimes it's just living in the shit stew! Sending Emma hugs. You're a great mom. I hope you're told that enough. Hugs dear sweet woman!

Lynwood~Hopefully she will check in. But in the grand scheme of things here is not a priority, her family Ian her main focus and should be. We will hold the candle burning bright..... waiting for her Return. We love you bigbhome! 💜🕯🕯🕯🕯

Much love ~M~

Micmel

Keetmom~ thank you for the wishes for my DD it was a special weekend with spending time with her like that. Seeing her excitement build. I am sending wishes to you that you indeed will see that day. I had never thought I would either. You're going to be around for a very long time. You're just simply amazing and strong. The biggest part for me is sharing that moment when she put that dress on and I saw the beauty radiating from her. I am in shock that after 24 years.....it's in perfect shape. Bright white and the sequins and appliqués are all perfect. It was so worth spending the $180 to have the gown preserved. If I hadn't done that, it wouldn't have lasted so bright a beautiful, it wouldn't have-been something that Was An option for her to even consider! Not only is seeing her find her Mate in life, but for her to start itin my wedding dress, that I adored so much and never wanted to take it off that evening! It's that magnificent..... so happy....but also worried about my step father. Speaking of fathers how is your father!?? I hope he is healing well. Much love to all.... ~M~

Micmel

Hope everyone else is doing good. I'm going to bed early tonight. I'm starting to feel nocturnal, I can stay up late and enjoy myself, puzzles,coloring,reading. Writing. It's crazy. I even enjoy it. The quiet of the outdoors and everyone is sound asleep. Just stillness. Friday I have bloodwork and XGeva shot a big yuck on that! I want to sleep well and not go back to sleep in the morning. What we have have to go through to live with cancer! But we do it, and on we go........gn much love ~M~

illimae

Goodnight all, I’m out too. I must admit though, I’m a Julie. I’m not on ibrance but I’ve been super lucky with minimal SE’s from my meds. I’d love to spread my luck around or let everyone in on my secret but I don’t have one, so I’ll just have keep doing what I do and hope it continues. Anyway, I wish things were easier for all of us, sorry.

Leapfrog

Minnie and Lynne....it's Tuesday morning here in Australia so it will be around Monday night for you. I hope you coped with the scans. Sending you big hugs as you wait for the results xxx

Minnie31

Leapfrog, thank you, just getting up and ready for it. Results on 14 th. Will report later xx

Micmel

Minnie ~ thinking of you darling. Imagine us in your pocket supporting you every step. You're a precious woman. We hope for good results. We are with you in that sister spirit. Big hugs and love to you sweet woman ! Hugs to you ~M~

Minnie31

Not sure who this Julie is, but if I didn't have a ruined hip, I'd probably be half way there! It's the only thing that really holds me back. Scan done this morning, only five attempts to find a vein for contrast, my lovely nurse Martin used my foot at the end, but it's done, gracias a Dios!! Hope yours was ok Lynne.

X

Micmel

Lynne~ thinking of you as well. Hope you're feeling well and scanxiety blows. We love you! Offering love and support across the miles. Big hugs to you my sister, much love ~M~

Bliss58

Micmel, just popping in to say how wonderful the wedding venue looks. I can truly feel your excitement with the wedding planning. And, how lovely that your DD will wear your wedding dress! I tell you, that touched my heart and brought a tear of joy to my eye. Sorry to find you had the flu and hope you're getting over it.

On privacy, I was not thinking when I chose my screen name, and missed the disclaimer of these threads being found on search engines. I googled my screen name and found lots, so I have deleted my avatar and changed my screen name (was bjsmiller - I've used it in other places and too close to home). You choose a good one Micmel since it doesn't come up in searches.

Going with my DD this morning to apply for passports. Happy Tuesday everyone.

Micmel

Bliss~Hello darling. Welcome!! to our little pub! I am so glad you're here! I don't really worry too much about the privacy thing especially here. No one knows you and it's words said on a thread and photos. Seems like it would be hard to figure out where that person was unless you used real names. But very much better to be safe than sorry. I can't believe my daughter wants to wear my wedding dress, we were just sitting at the table together ten mins ago discussing how much she loved it. I can't believe 24 years later and it will be worn again by such beauty. I am beyond thrilled and honored. I actually can't wait to see her in it. Makes me filled with joy! Once again welcome to our little Home away from home! Much love ~M~

Tanya_Djamila

good afternoon Minnie you are on my mind today. Sending you hugs and please enjoy them.

I scan in a week or so. It’s been 4 months since I scanned.

Pat posted a very good article on the ibrance thread. I’ll try to repost here.

Tanya

Tanya_Djamila

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/01/26/opinion/sunday/cancer-what-to-say.html

I highly recommend this article. I’m going to share it with my friends and family too.

Tanya

Lynnwood1960

Tanya, very powerful article. Life truly now is " before" and " after". Thank you so much for sharing, this really touched me and hits very close to home.

MJHJAN1014

popping into say "Hi" to everyone. Managed a short walk today and happened upon a magnificent Cooper's Hawk dining upon a pigeon. It really helped me to go on the walk, but it was a bit of an effort.

Thinking of everyone awaiting scan/blood test results.

Micmel- it is beyond special that your DD will wear your dress!

Love to each, and may the force be with you. MJH

Minnie31

Thank you Tanya. Hugging you right back. Nearly 4 months since last one and glad it's done. Just going to look at the link you posted. Bed time in Spain. Night all x

Blueshine

MicMel , congratulations for your DD! It warms my heart to hear how happy is she. God bless her to have a wanderful long life and God bless you to be with her ,to watch her for a long time! Please send us a picture from the wedding . I would like to see her in this beautiful dress.

Lynne, Minnie, I hope with all my heart the test results to be more than good! I still don't have a way to control the anxiety before and during the tests.

IMy scan is next week and I don't want to think . Big

Blueshine

Tanya, this article came just on time. I copied and sent to my dear friend who was asking me every day "How are you " It is good that we are not alone, but it is so sad to be in this situation.

God help us