My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

illimae

Happy Game of Thrones Sunday. My neighbors just put up a House Stark banner and I love it!

ABeautifulSunset

that's so cool. I want one

illimae

micmel? You missed yesterday, you ok?

Donnabelle, traveling after 3 days in the hospital is quite the display of determination, hope you found enough energy to enjoy it 🙂

skitzblitz

Donna, glad you had a good trip and amazed how Much you did after round one of ac. It does get better as you go on. Keep drinking and drinking and drink some more water. Flush out as much of the lovely red as you can! Make sure to at least get up and move around the house as often as you can. The killer for me was low red blood counts that lead to weak legs and harder breathing. Climbing steps felt like I climbed a mountain. I did lots of transfusions which are a breeze and a couple platelet transfusions. Keep eating to to keep up the strength.

Quiet thread today! Michmel missed roll call, not like her! Hope u are ok girl.

Hoping for halaven tomorrow, such a sad thing to hope for.

Parry - how are u doing? Your sister must be related to my bf. I keep telling him, you have no clue or you just don’t get it or you’ll never understand and I hope you never have to. He thinks bc his two parents died of cancer he gets it. I understand watching people go through cancer but you never understood their fear and sadness and the stupid crying over everything you think about every day. He used to complain that his dad cried all the time over nothing, for no reason. I get it! He had his own reason in his head. Something he would miss, someone he would make miss. Whatever he cried over, it was real to me.

I think our feelings beat up as much as, if not more, than the cancer itself.

I hope everyone is as well as they can be.

Sara

JFL

Skitz, sad indeed when we find ourselves "hoping" for chemo. I have had the same thought when I find myself mentioning my "favorite" chemo and the chemo that "I love" and "wished I could have stayed on forever". We live in a different world here, one that is a bit twisted.

Micmel

Hello Ladies I am here. Exhausted from my Dad. Had a lovely Easter with. My DH making me a precious basket with the sweetest card I have ever seen!! Made me tear up of course. That’s what he does. He is so romantic and loving. I cannot imagine how we all can be so lucky in ways. And unlucky in health. Love to all!

Micmel

Mae~ Stillivin~Dodgers girl ~ skitz~.

Thanks for asking about me. And for the private messages I received after only one day. I appreciate that you care. I honestly do. It means everything to me. 🦋🌈🌹

ABeautifulSunset

Welcome back, Micmel. You are a popular woman here. We all noticed you missing (in just a day!).

Afternoon Tea at a fancy shmancy hotel with best friends #bucketlist

illimae

wow, beautiful pics!

Tanya_Djamila

Hey Ladies

Beautiful picture sunset.

My sister, her two grand kids and my niece drove from North Carolina this weekend to visit. It’s been a beautiful time. They’ll leave in the morning. I had my Pet scan today. I was distracted by company so minimal anxiety.

Glad you’re back Mel and that you had a nice time this weekend.

Tanya

holmes13

I hope that everyone had a wonderful Easter! Here are my granddaughters after their fun Easter. They are my pride and joys. I am so thankful that god has given me another year with them

Micmel

omg such perfect innocence ❤️❤️ Throbbing. Heart filed with love. I pray I get to share such joy. But for now. I’ll live through you wonderful ladies who have that amazing experience! Here is my grand puppy

holmes13

i have a pit bull and pug mix. sorry i don’t know how to shrink the pictures He's adorable!! i have two dogs. A pug mix and a pitbull.

Micmel

lmao is that a bagel in his mouth?? Lol precious puppies

LoveFromPhilly

awwwww beautiful pics of children and puppies!!

I want a puppy soooo badly. My building does not allow pets but my psychologist is happy to write me a letter that says I am allowed to have an emotional support dog.

I could definitely get through the red tape, would take some steps and some $$$.

I worry about the financial costs that a dog would have, as I am really in no position to spend money on an animal as I can barely take care of myself financially at this point.

I’m still trying to negotiate this one in my mind

Micmel

I have had my two for years now, way before my diagnosis. My Deeohgee was 8 weeks old when we got him. He is now 10. Our tag we thought was the same age, but now we are thinking he's older than we thought. He's slowly fading. He's had 3 strokes. They are a lot of work. They wake me up every single Morning and they bark all the time. But they love me good day or bad. Bad mood or. Not. Sliding down my hole of pity, they don't judge or stare At me, not knowing what to say. They do love unconditionally.. that's what makes them so special. But it is a big commitment. They become like children for sure.

illimae

holmes, your pug is adorable but I must say, the white pitty is just stunning! DH and I had a fawn pit and after he passed, we got English and French bulldogs. We’re dogless now but not forever 🙂

Micmel

Deeohgee is saying hello as well!

Miss you Lynne!

skitzblitz

I'm not one to talk about my cancer and I'm not one to call everyone and let them know how my appointments are and my latest news. My bf however seems to call everyone all the time with the latest appointment. To me, it is my choice who and what I tell. I am just this way, keep to myself.

Last week my bf's

friend called while we were driving to work. He said to the friend “ here I'll let you ask her" I get on the phone and he tells me all about a fund raiser for cancer and how there is a survivor parade Friday night. They ride in their semi tractor and announce your name as a survivor. I said sure I'd love to ride with you.

As time passes, it has been three years now, I'm happy to be a survivor. I'm thankful for three years. I'm proud of myself I held up this long.

It's funny how this has changed my perception of things in life. Some days I have an I don't give a crap attitude. Some days I'm glad I got this far. Some days I want to just give up this whole gig. Some days I wish I could pass this burden off to someone else for awhile. Some days I tell myself if my grandma who is 99 can do it, so can I!

Some days I just wish I didn't talk to myself at all, lol!

I have a lovey suck cat! A few times I thought about getting a little dog I could take to work and the lake and home with me.

The little white place is my summer cabin. It's about that time where I go every weekend and let go of everything thing else in my life. So quiet and relaxing. Once school is out we stay a lot during the week. Gold carts and side by sides are all we use to run around. A simple life!

Tanya- crossing my fingers for you for your scan!

Michmel glad You had a wonderful Easter, very cute card!

Sarah

Micmel

Donna~I have never been to Fenway Park. Wonderful pics, memories to remember .....you look wonderful.... I miss being able to travel so much. Love seeing your smile. Hugs to you beautiful!!

Sunset ~wow some gorgeous ladies at that dining table!! What magnificent food you had. Yummy oh yummy! Looks like a hotel I'd love to go to!! My favorite place ever is Cameron estates.. in mount joy pa . Look up that bad boy. It was the first place my DH took me on an over night. He's romantic! My sweet !

Mae~ Hi honey. Thanks for being there ! 💜 and caring.

Tanya~Hi beautiful one! Hope your weekend was a relaxing one. Hope the family is well! Always love seeing you here. Big hugs.

Holmes~Hello lovely. Those pups are precious and I have to say I love dogs I'm crazy for them, I've even warmed up to pit bulls. Beautiful!!!

Philly~Hello sister. Hope the parents are doing well!

Skitz~Id love a stay at that cabin!! Looks serene and peaceful. Just what I honestly need! My dogs are driving me crazy. My one dog is getting senile and barks if I drop the remote. Running into things including myself. I'm afraid I'm going to fall at some time! Which is scary to feel unstable. When are you going to the cabin? Pictures please ?! Lol

Love to all. Gracie .. Lynne...

much love ~M~

JFL~Waving hello to you! Hope you're well!

marianelizabeth

Donna, the Fenway Park photo made my week!

Micmel

I know we all feel this way at one point or another. But it doesn’t make me feel anymore smart. If anything it makes me want to. Hurl!

JFL

I fall into the ruminating bunch but never associated that with my intellect!

Grannax2

runer You nailed it! That's what I have optimistic depression disorder ( ODO). I have a name, at last. That's why I like to be silly. How enlightening that you just figured this out for me. That's why I'm the grandmother who let's grandchildren throw confetti eggs at me. Even my son and my SIL egg bombed me. They know they can, because I like to be silly. They don't know why. I hope they never do. Just have memories and pictures oh Granna being silly and laughing.

Yes, I had a wonderful peaceful day w my family. I'll post a pic. Such a relief after over two months of strife. But, my DD, informed me it's not over. UGH More counseling she says UGH I'm sick of counseling. Or should I call it Confronting. Same thing I think. When I go alone it's not but when the group came it was.

So, I'm one week out on X. Yucky would describe my week in regard to SE. That's mostly the reason I haven't even posted. The first 3 days was diarrhea and complete misery. My DD thought I was dying, I looked so bad. I told her it was just SE. So I did get better but constant nausea, dizziness, taste changes have stayed with me. And a few surprise SE thrown in. X has way more SE than I realized, just hope it will work.

Tanya_Djamila

Grannax I hope your SE’s subside. Sounds miserable. Also praying that X does the job.

Hello ladies and Daniel!!

Tanya

Lynnwood1960

Grannax, I’m a newbie on X too and took it for 8 days before I had to go off for a non cancer related surgery. Starting back on Saturday. I felt exactly like you described! Very nauseous, weak, tired, no motivation and the diarrhea came on the last day I took it. It took 4 days after my left pill before I started to feel better. Not looking forward to start back. I took Ibrance like a champ with tolerable side effects. X is certainly harsher. Wishing both of us an improvement on the cycles to come

Micmel

ladies. Sorry about the madam X. I was hoping she would be gentle. Maybe a reduction would help you both. They tend to alter that when it's too harsh for you to handle. Looks like this weekend we may be facing putting our Tag down. He's been with us for over 12 years. But this morning he would not go downstairs. I'm really worried. This may just be his last weekend. 💔 s hard, they become my family! As you all well know ! 😞🐾🐾🐾🐾

Grannax2

Grannax2

Family Easter pic. Pretty good for a selfie.

Micmel

Grannax~Loving seeing your clan smiling together. I’m going through some odd things with my father and step mother and this new dynamic. Seeing that pic gives me hope. Things can be civil and good. Thank you for sharing you beautiful woman.