Talk me off the ledge please

VL22

I've been on this ride since April. Turns out my diagnosis, which I need to change, is multifocal and includes a tumor that is triple negative. So two different cancers in the same breast. My head is spinning. It is stage 1, 1 cm, but still totally Unexpected. I went to my appointment today thinking I was going to be told no chemo, to 20 weeks of chemo, followed by rads. It's truly like starting all over again. I'm feeling defeated and like I've been given a death sentence. Sorry for the dramatics, but it's constantly one sstep forward, two back