Everything Seems The Same, But It Really Isn't

Matryoshka

I am just sitting here at work, doing my stuffs as per normal. But it just hit me that I am forever changed. This sudden realisation amidst the normalcy happens to me a lot since I got my diagnosis. I have a, what is to me, a life changing surgery on the 28th, when I will lose my nipple and have a scar across my breast. I may potentially need to go for more surgery, and also have to look out for a lot of stuffs in my day-to-day life should they remove all my lymph nodes.

I can NEVER say I am in perfect health ever again. Something I was almost proud to te

GraceB1

Yes, this is part of what we call getting used to the new normal. Your vantage point shifts never to return but its not necessary a horrible thing, just different. We reevaluate how we feel about ourselves and it makes us uncomfortable. I'm certainly more mentally settled now that a lot of the immediate "what ifs" and "what nexts" have settled down and most days I can see a path through the forest of concerns. Hang in there, it will get better.