Update

Pammac47

MRI results are in I have multiple satellite malignancies. I have numerous nodes that are enlarged with abnormal morphology. It is attached to chest wall with enhancement. No surgery on 3/2, I have a lymph biopsy next it will be this week then will come mastectomy which will be scheduled when those results are in. I'm in a lot of pain all over now and wish I could be stronger. I put on a good front when I'm out. I get a strange hot sensation at different times and wonder is that it growing. My stage went up and I'm afraid.

NancyHB

Pammac47 - I'm so sory this is happening for you. It's one thing to be diagnosed; it's another when that diagnosis isn't yet complete with size and stage and node involvement. My thoughts are with you for some more definitive answers and a solid treatment plan soon.

Keeping you in my heart.

hyphencollins

This is a tough time....Passing along good thoughts and encouragement. This is a tough time, hang in there.

Holeinone

Pam,

Sorry you are dealing with this, everyone's nightmare. The above posts are correct, this is the hardest time.

My situation was similar, went into surgery knowing I had one positive node, came out of surgery with a scary diagnosis. It's a difficult thing to accept & to endure. I think most of us put up a brave front, especially around our kids.

BCO is a life saver, we can come here, be honest, rant, whine & know the ladies here get it.

I did not ask for anti anxierty meds until I was done with chemo & 1/2 way through rads. That was a mistake, I needed them sooner.

__asher__

Sending you lots of loving, healing thoughts. ❤️

SoCalGrl

I just wanted to say I'm also sending you healing thoughts. Hopefully you get a better picture of your treatment plan soon. Once that' in place, it'll get a little easier.

Pammac47

Didn't expect the results till Tuesday, but the call came yesterday. There are malignant cells in axillary node biopsied. So Tuesday will be another busy day and am told there will be additional testing hoping they mean after surgery at this point. I don't have much to say right now, just know I do come and read still, but unless I have thoughts that are positive. I don't say anything right now. This is updating what's going on and I so thank everyone for the encouragement and for the caring thoughts. Looks like I'll be for awhile

farmerlucy

Pammac - So sorry for the terrible news. I know you are devastated. We've all been there. Know that we do understand - good or bad - this is a place you can just be. Positivity is overrated in my opinion - one can only stuff the bad thoughts down for so long before one explodes. Here you get to feel whatever you feel, 24/7. We're here for you. PM me if you need someone to talk to one on one. Also remember anti-anxiety meds were made for times like these. Sending you a big empathetic cyber hug.

Pammac47

ok- here we go. Test for mets the 15th. Port install the 18th. My cocktail is adriamycin and cytoxan. All of which will be followed by taxol afterwards. I start the first two on the 22nd. Surgery will wait. I'm in a place of processing or digesting this myself. Love and thanks to all, I will be back when I am stronger mentally. For now I have broke

NancyHB

Pammac47, having a diagnosis is part of the battle, but waiting for all the additional testing (and what they could mean) is so difficult. I hope you can take time to care for yourself right now, and please come back here to read, ask questions, vent, or ask for support - we're here for you when you're ready. And if you start chemo this month, please feel free to join us in the March 2016 group:

https://community.breastcancer.org/forum/69/topics/841234?page=1

Gentle hugs and healing love to you.