Complex Emotions!

etnasgrl

Three weeks ago today, I was diagnosed. It's also Thanksgiving.
I've been looking forward to Thanksgiving. I figured it would be a good day to relax, enjoy time with family, eat some good food, and focus on all the things that I am thankful for.
The day started out just fine. However, for no real reason, after the big meal, when we're all sitting around talking, this dark cloud just seemed to descend on me. I just got so very sad. I wanted to be happy and I had been earlier in the day, but I just can't shake this sadness.
I'm sad for my husband who has to go through this with me, I'm sad for my son who has to worry about his mom, and I'm sad for me that I have to go through this.

I know the mood will lift, it's just a part of the ebb and flow of emotions since learning I have breast cancer, I guess I just wanted to share my feelings with those who will understand.
I can't even try to explain to someone who is not living this, the emotions are just too complex and I don't even understand them sometimes!

It'll get better, I know....but right now, it's hard.

farmerlucy

It is hard. Meds helped me a lot.

We're hanging with you etnasgrl.

Believe it or not I'll be four years out in just a couple months. I was sooo terrified back then. I was convinced I wouldn't be here in a year, let alone four.

Talking to someone helps too.

I honestly believe a child learns great compassion from the struggles they witness at a tender age.

I hope you get some good sleep tonight.

Gentle hug.

Cubbie2015

I'm going through similar feelings right now. I think it is a combination of being off the usual household routine, and the ups and downs that go with the diagnosis. For me, the holidays always seem a time to reflect on what has taken place in the past year, and it's hard to think about the last holiday and what's happened since.

I agree that it is hard to explain to someone who is not living with this, and hard to even sort out your own feelings sometimes. The good news is that the people on this board understand, we are here for each other - even on a holiday night!

etnasgrl

Thank you!

sandilee

This is all so new for some of you. It will get easier! Once you are on a treatment program and you begin to see results, your life will seem like yours again. Hang in there. We are here for you.

CyndiNic

The emotions that come with a cancer diagnosis can be so overwhelming. I have come thru 3 surgeries and physically healed really well - people are so surprised at how healthy I look. What I struggle with is that because outwardly I look perfectly healthy that everyone expects me to be fine on the inside as well. Even with the wonderful prognosis I have I am still scared of what's yet to come.

I have found the gym to be very helpful during my low points as well....it always feels good to do something healthy for myself.