Breaking into tears planning for the future

Gully

Hello Everyone,

I am 2 and a half years out from last treatment and feeling great, or I thought so until my husband started a conversation with me about planning for our retirement....you know.... how much money will we need, how many more years will we work, what we want to do before we get too old to do something.... we are both 48 by the way. Long story short, I lost it. Broke into tears... After all this time I still cannot see past my next 6 month doctors appointment! I hate it. I still feel so vulnerable and angry that I have to live with this "acme anvil" over my head. I know you you guys get me....anyone else?

Fiaranch1

Gully,

I got BC for the 1st time when I was 30. At that time I was in a horrible marriage. 2 years ago I got BC and lymphoma (blood cancer) at the same time. I was 53. My husband (a good one this time) had been planning and building our retirement home for the past 7 years. 2 years ago I retired early at 53. I am convinced I allowed the stress of my first shitty marriage and the constant stress of corporate to give me cancer. I consider every day above ground a good day . While none of us know how many days we have I am not ever wasting 1 more day of my life . Plan for those trips and retire as early as you possible can . Sure I miss the salary I made in corporate america but money can never make up for the time now I get to spend with my husband every day or the smile I get seeing my grown son doing so well in life . My only regret was that I did not retire earlier . While I will never say that I am grateful that I got either type of cancer, both cancers have given me the wake up call I needed to figure out what is really important in life.

Gully

Fiaranch1,

Thank you so much for your reply. I too plan on retiring at 53 the second my twins graduate from college! I too consider this beast a "wake up" call. I do value everyday and the time I get to spend with my family. There is another thread entitled something like "things I wish I did not know about Breast cancer" guess I am in that vein. A moment of weakness on my part I guess I just wish I could forget about it sometimes