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Micmel

Patty~Haven't seen you. Hope you're with your sweet sister. I am thinking of you and hoping you're doing ok. I have been checking for you all day. I hope you're wrapped in family love knowing that we love you like family here too.. I hope spending time with your family gives you the strength you need to get back on the healing train! My two words for tonight are miss you. 🌹❤️! Love you Patty! ~M~

PattyPeppermint

thanks sweet sisters.

Today’s has been a long day but good. My sister made it in and I have had a room full of company all day. About 15 people total. Was great to feel the love but just too much for one day. Very exhausting. Guess People are out visiting on Sundays. Plus everyone made it clear they were saying their final goodbyes. just too emotional.

I have been very clear minded all day. Yea. ! My liver has been feeling pressure but not really pain except to the touch. Today however I have had a lot of liver pain. I am already on diladid pain pump 2 ml every 10 minutes for back pain plus I take my morphine extended and Marinol . So it’s scary I am still having so much liver pain.

Much love and thanks

Hootie hoo

Micmel

Patty~Try to get some good sleep and rest. You need it for your body to fight this. I am so very sorry you felt like you were saying final goodbyes today. But you don't really know any idea when that will really be. Just buckle up and prepare to roll with whatever happens. You're very loved. Stay strong. We love you! ~M~

Artista964

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Mominator

Good morning, Patty,

Holding you very close today, and sending much love and strength.

Madelyn 

Micmel

Good Morning Patty, so glad that your sister arrived safe and sound. I am thrilled that you're wrapped in their glowing love. We love you. No matter the miles. Two words time is::bonded forever. Yes we as sisters! Love you! ~M~

Kaption

Soak in all that love everyone is bringing you. ❤️

50sgirl

Patty. How wonderful it must have been to have so many people surrounding you with love yesterday. I hope today is just a bit quieter for you so you can get some rest. Let that pain medication do its magic. It is always good to hear from you.

Hugs and prayers from, Lynne

sas-schatzi

Patty, lovey the letters are a wonderful idea. Consider sitting with either the boys separately or together. Chat about your feelings and their feelings.Talk openly about what they think and what you think. Seems that one of them is very emotional. Getting him to talk about the emotions might help him. If he can't talk you talk and just hold him. The words will come to you. Might be best separately.

Consider having the pastor available to do a mother son blessing after each talk

A usual thing is we say that we will always be there. There were two Irish things. The Irish were pagans. When St Patrick evangalized to the Irish, they were very receptive b/c the pagans believed in the "thiness" between this world and the after world..The idea was that God, Mary, St Joseph, all the Saints, and family that have gone before were very close to us b/c of the "thiness". They were right there and could be prayed too and talked too. That story came from book on Celtic Christianity. It gave me great comfort and explained the devotions that we were raised with from generation to generation. The point for the kids is you are there when they want to talk to you.

The second story my mom told me. I was curious about the Irish wake. Might not be done in Ireland, but certainly was done in Canada and Michigan. After the funeral there was great joyful celebration. Mom said that the older Irish believed that a birth was to be mourned and a death celebrated b/c with birth they're would be all the trials and tribulations of this earth and with death we would return to God and be freed from all the troubles. Considering all the troubles of the Irish for hundreds of years it made sense that they would view things in that way.

As much as ExDH was an analpore, consider letting him be with you when the time comes if the boys are with you. More for the boys than him. It may allow them to forgive their father, if they can see you forgive him. Even if you have to fake the forgiveness of the idiot. In the long run, it's the boys that will benefit.

Love you baby

Kjones13

analpore!! 😂😂

MinusTwo

Oh - I just got it when I highlighted the word to look it up in google. Great description. And yes - I certainly agree about your ex Patty. I'm afraid having him around would be too much negative energy for you to deal with. I think you'll be better with the boys on their own or with one of your sisters.

Sending hugs and strength to do whatever works for you.

Micmel

Hello Sweet Patty~Haven't seen you today. Hope the sister bonding is continuing and you're deciding what's best for you in your heart. I am here for my nightly visit and to sit with you even if we say nothing. Which brings to me to my two words for you. : I'm here: much love ~M~ 🌹🌹❤️

sas-schatzi

KJones, dear nursing school mate couldn't swear. First time, I heard her say analpore and asked what it meant, I knew, but wanted to hear her explanation. She still couldn't say asshole. I use the word often when needed as it get's the message across. Somehow, it's not as indelicate and no need of asterisks.

melmcbee

Hi Patty. I hope they have controlled your pain. Enjoy your sisters. Its so good to hear from you.

JWoo

Glad your sisters were there to wrap you in love

Hootie hoo!

PattyPeppermint

thanks so much to everyone. Wish I could post to each.

My sister went and picked up dss after school and grabbed pizzas and drinks brought them all here and we had a great visit. They stayed 4 hours. It was great for my soul. Pretty uneventful day other then that.

Mo said biopsy results will be in tomorrow. I am so excited that regardless of results I will go home tomorrow. But on the other hand tomorrow I will have all the info to make the decision to continue the fight or go home with hospice. Kinda feels like waiting on a jury to make a decision re life sentence or not. To be honest I don’t even know what I would want the results to say. As much as I want more time with my dss I am just so very very tired of this fight. The last 5 years have been hard but since Thanksgiving I haven’t had 2 days in a row that I felt good enough to be up and about. THat is not quality life.

Anyway it will be what it will be , right.

Night

ruthbru

Glad you had a good time today with your favorite people. Sending a hug your way!

Micmel

Patty~It's ok to be tired, you fight hard everyday. I'm so happy for you that youre being surrounded by family and having pizza, with those you love. Going home.... excellent. So what you need. Two words tonight are: Home soon: Much love ~M~

70charger

Today was a very special Day! Rest , tomorrow is another day. So happy to hear from you. Hugs

dtad

Patty...please don not feel like going home with Hospice is giving up. There is also Palliative Care if you decide to continue treatment. Both organizations are wonderful and will be a great support system for you and your family. They are also knowledgable professionals who can help you with those big decisions. Hang in there. Hoping for peace and comfort.

babs6287

Patty so glad u had a great time with your loves. They’re why you’ve been fighting all this time! Just keep on loving them as you do and building memories.

As you say. What will be will be!

Bab

Micmel

Good Morning, Patty.....

Just stopping by for my morning hello and to give you hugs and kisses. Hoping for another family filled day full of love. My two words for the afternoon are. Loving you: hugs my dear friend. Love you lots~M~

Mominator

Good morning, Patty,

I am so happy to see you had a wonderful day with your boys! 

Holding you very close today, and sending much love and strength.

Madelyn 

SandiBeach57

Thinking of you today as you await your bone marrow biopsy results and decisions.

Quality of life is a personal decision and each of us will have to decide how to define that.

I like what dtad said above. You are loved by so many that you don't even know..

Maire67

Whatever the results praying for you and your family every day.

Bliss58

Waving hello, Patty. Ditto what dtad said, but only you know when you've had enough. What will be will be, but in the meantime embrace the family and friends who love you as hard and long as you can. Wishing you peace and comfort; sending you strength and hugs.

AmyJM

Hi Patty,

Sending love your way. I'm glad you got to have that time with your sister and boys. Holding you close in my heart and thoughts.

Much love,

Amy

Beatmon

Patty, Pizza and your dear sons! Priceles

Falconer

so happy to read that you had a lovely visit with your boys, Patty. You're in my heart.

Micmel

Patty, let’s take a walk on this beautiful beach! With everyone we love! Thinking of you ! :much love: two words. ~M~