CRAZY TOWN WAITING ROOM - TESTS coming up? All Stages Welcome.

proudtospin

not a bit poppy, you were just being a pal

I just hate surgery and think there is no other solution

octogirl

My heart goes out to Blondie's friends here. Thank you all for being there. She will be missed, so much.

Octogirl

ChiSandy

I never knew Blondie but I had followed her thread after so many had mentioned her. May her memory be for a blessing, as her presence certainly was.

Minus, yay for NED! (May we all be NED’s lifelong pals).

Gma, no offense taken at your .gif. We could all use a great day.

Iris, fingers crossed that your spinal symptoms are non-cancer-related and easily and comfortably cured.

I was SO sure I’d fail my followup diagnostic mammo--had twinges in both breasts, cats showing a disturbingly disporportionate affinity for my bc breast (which that quack Dr. Google--as well as a friend of a friend--suggested could be an indicator of cancer due to pets’ superior sense of smell). When I got the “all clear” ("go directly to BS’ NP’s consult room, do not stop at ultrasound, do not pass Go, do not collect $200”), I asked the NP about the cats and she said “that breast is big and squishy because of the seroma; the left one’s droopy and floppy.” She said that ordinarily she’d call for a routine mammo a year from now, but she and the radiologist want to see how much smaller the seroma will get in 6 months and also discuss at my annual meeting with the BS herself whether I might want to do anything for symmetry. (No, I don’t want it enlarged to match the L one--if anything, they both need reduction but I don’t need the risks of purely discretionary surgery). Then I got the report in my inbox: L breast BIRADS 1, “Normal--no findings not present in previous screening mammograms;” R breast BIRADS 3--“Probably benign, but follow up in 6 months regarding seroma.” Then that stupid CYA letter, saying I needed to be followed up in 6 months for a “finding" in R breast. But the NP had warned me I would get that letter, and said to ignore everything in it except the “followup" part.

Lucy55

I am so sad to hear about Blondie 😞

Anonymous

Love you all very much. I'm sorry I'm so behind.

Thank you Ducky for the news about Blondie. I'm really at a loss for words.

Thinking of all of the crazies...quiet crazies too.

Molly50

((((Beppy))))

rainnyc

{{{Beppy, Tomboy, Ducky}}} (and anyone else who was close to Blondie). Echoing what Sandy said, may her lovely memory be a blessing....

duckyb1

Thanks everyone....I am keeping my eye out for the funeral arrangements.......hugs all

Tomboy

Thank you Ducky, for letting us know, and thanks to everybody for being here.. Love to all

proudtospin

so my sister and a team are doing the Avon breast cancer walk today in Boston

For me and all my pals

Proud of her for training for the walk and raising the money

shorfi

Ducky...what were you thinking about here? Hoping you are feeling ok today and enjoying your family

Molly50

Iris, say thanks to your sister!!

proudtospin

I will let her know, cause I just teased her that she is very color coordinated down to shoes and includes pink hair

PoppyK

Sandy, Those letters and their "findings"! Maybe the Crazy Town post office should just automatically return them to sender! My recent BIRADS 3 finding was a cyst that wasn't there before treatment.... and scar tissue. But, the mammo that led to my diagnosis was also BIRADS 3, so I go straight to CT!

Iris, Fantastic that your sister and her team are doing the walk!

Shorfi, It's our Ducky! You all were making memories!

I miss our Blondie. When I look back at all the horrible things I was going through with my diagnosis and my oldest son's concurrent deep, dark depression... Blondie (and Ducky, Slow and Tomboy) were there for me. They let me know I wasn't alone, was a good mother and that they understood and would listen to me, support me. Blondie shared her knowledge, her experiences and her love with me. She loved to hear the fun, happy things, but was always concerned and ready to help me with life's darkness as well. And she always, always said "I love you".

Cubbie2015

((((Blondie's friends))))

Tomboy

I am reading two books. One is a sort of mystery novel, a story about a family who's oldest young son was missing, and what happened to their family. At one point, the young mother started working in a marine lab, with sick dolphins, returning them to health. The author wrote about this thing dolphins do and have done many times out in the open ocean. If they find a land animal, be it human, or a dog, or a goat, whatever, they recognize us as belonging on land, and they will support our bodies with their own bodies, taking turns escorting someone to shore, until they are able to make it out of the water. It's called 'echelon', and I thought what a beautiful thing it was, and wanted to share with you, because it reminds me of what we all do here, for each other.

In another part of the book, the part that prompted me to come here and tell you about it, the lady is talking about suffering. and this is what she has one of the characters who work at the marine lab with the mom debating going in and saying good morning: "paul couldn't decide if he should go into the warehouse. He didn't know if he would be welcome. It was what happened when you spent time near someone who'd suffered the way Laura had: You felt the stranger. You saw the void surrounding her, stranding and diminishing her, and you saw her seeing it, too. Undoubtedly, what everyone experienced around Laura was what she experienced around her poor, ruined son. You saw only the wounds. You couldn't ignore how their bodies betrayed the pain they suffered."

And of course, it made me think again of cancer. About, the automatic tiptoe. I have done it myself. When I find someone else struck by this strangely galloping and lurching filthy beast of a dis- ease, what do you say? What can you say that will help? Do they want to talk about it, or not? How do you know?

Cancer divides, in more ways than one.

I am so incredibly fucking grateful about us, about C-town, where we all are the echelon.

JAN69

Oh Tomboy, I'm searching for words to respond to your extremely real analysis of our common experience. Thank you. I now go and soak in your post. It has hit me where I live. Thank you again. Jan

duckyb1

Kathy.......(tomboy)...........perfectly said........and only we understand that.............hug

duckyb1

Ladies....I have searched every newspaper in the vicinity to try to find out when. Blondie will be put to rest...........I can find nothing.........I am so sorry.....I have truly tried......I wanted to go, but I have no clue where the service is being held.......wish I could help more...............

Smurfette26

Thanks for sharing Tomboy. Hugs all.

Tomboy

Jan

Ducky, aw, thank you for trying dear. Maybe they really just believed Blondie really wasn't going to die, and in that case may it hit them even harder than normally hard. They may be in shock, or just getting all those things done now. Maybe monday. I still just can't believe it either. And I am so very happy tho that Beppy got to see her. Her amazing cross country drive straight to the heart.

duckyb1

Thanks Kath.....I will keep trying.......

Molly50

Tomboy, how absolutely beautiful! I love the comparison with echelon and the way we hold each other up here.

PoppyK

Slow, In your pocket for tomorrow's procedure.

Tomboy, Wonderful. Thanks for sharing. This is a fine example of what I meant when I said you are insightful

Molly50

In your pocket for tomorrow, Beppy.

duckyb1

Love you Girlie......I am there with you .......hugs....it's gonna be ok........

octogirl

Beppy,hugs from me too, and hugs to all the crazies

Xox; Octo

Italychick

Slow, xoxoxo, and much love coming your way today.

rainnyc

Adding to the good wishes, Beppy!!!

Tomboy

me too!