frustrated

Mag1913

called the MO because today has been two weeks waiting for my oncotype score the breast care navigator called me back to let me know that they haven't even started the test because they need pre-approval from insurance. I asked if this will affect the radiation planning appointment set up for next Thursday, she said she would let me know what is going on next week. I have been informed by the MO and the breast navigator that they feel my score will come back low anyway because of BC being 8mm and grade 2...this is wonderful they feel that way but the waiting is still enough to drive a person bonkers!! I don't know if this makes any sense but "everything has come back good that could have been very bad" (quote from surgeon) which I am thankful for but that feeling of waiting for the hammer of badness to drop, which I know I shouldn't feel that way!! Ugh! Frustrating!

I'm at the point I just want to start radiation, start my tamoxifen, get back to crossfit- I miss lifting heavy weights, and have some sense of normmalcy. My family, all though very supportive, do not understand my fears.

Thank you for listening to my frustrations!