Denial or hopeful

Natejordlee

Hello all, I am a very positive person by nature and I have been feeling positive about everything going on despite the shock of it all but I am not sure if its positivity or denial?? Everything moved so quick since diagnosis after a LONGGGGGG fight to get answers that I was happy to just have answers and took a lot of information in fast and I have avoided too much online research as per the advice of my docs but what little I have seen is in direct opposition to what my docs have said or made me feel and sometimes I wonder if I should be more worried. I assume if all goes well after all my treatments are done my BC will be gone and I will move on because no one told me different but I am unsure they have given me realistic expectations and I cannot voice these concerns to my amazing support group because i spend a lot of time making sure everyone is positive. Anyway I just needed to get it out ... I meet with my CHEMO doc Friday before Cycle 2 and I figure I will ask again to make sure I am not missing anything. Aside from this nagging feeling I have been very lucky , feeling great and mostly staying positive .. you are all amazing woman , the reasons for being here suck but the amazing support I see makes it a little easier .