Birad 5

inkster

My biopsy isn't until Tuesday, but I did see the ultrasound report and the mass the 3D mammomgram found has a Birad of 5. Kinda wish I hadn't seen that. I know there is still a slim chance it's benign and it is a little mass (7 x 6 x 5 mm), but, well, ick. I have zero symptoms (except for the ones my mind is making up now; I've never been more aware of my breast in my life) and this couldn't be felt, so I'm lucky we found it. Just don't feel so lucky at the moment. And the waiting does truly suck.

My family knows about the mass, but not about the Birad. I don't think I'm going to tell them about it so they don't worry ahead of time too. Instead, I'm just dumping it all on you guys.

Thanks for letting me vent a bit!

agritty

Best of luck to you for your biopsy - The waiting is so hard.

bellajenn

Inkster - Sorry you're dealing with the fear and anxiety that comes with knowing what your BI-RADS rating is. You've come to the right place for support. There are several ladies in here who have been right where you are. And here's the thing - you won't know what your outcome is in terms of b9 or malignant until they have it biopsied. Only then will you have a definitive answer. It's up to you how much you want to share with your family. My only advice (which I have to remind myself of every day) is not to dwell in the "what if's". Spending too much time thinking about what that rating could really mean can be toxic to you during this hard period of waiting. In the meantime, try as much as possible to stay off of Google (another thing I have to remind myself to do every day), and search through hear to find other threads with other people who have lived through exactly what you have. In the meantime, breathe deep. You can do this!

cookiegal

inkster, with Birads 5 you know what you might be facing,

I think back to that time and it was sort of my chance to "practice" dealing with the diagnosis before it was 100 percent certain.

This may sound crazy but you will have moments of dealing with what it might mean to have cancer but also moments of hope for b-9.

If this makes any sense I guess I am saying it was a vital period of adjustment.

inkster

Thanks, guys! (or gals, rather)

Like bellajenn said, staying off Google is a smart thing, just not one I was good at. :P So, I made sure I looked at reputable sources like NIH, ACS, Mayo Clinic, and the like. I've been kind of practicing what cookiegal said too. I'm a problem solver by nature, so while I'm still holding out hope it's just a weird b-9 thing, I've mentally made contingencies in case it's not. That helped a bit with the anxiety as it gave my brain something to do. I figure the upside of a positive diagnosis is that I could end up with new hair, new boobs, and a reasonable excuse to hire people to do the things I hate, like mowing and cleaning. I've got good insurance and a great job that will give me all the time I need, so all will be well no matter what. (that last bit's my been my mantra)

Agritty - you  called it. This part is the pits, but it's almost over. Then I can start moving on.

10Mojo

I know how you feel. I did not ask my Birad score on purpose. I know- what a mature attitude. Had the core biopsy yesterday and they will be in touch. Great.

Mammogram found mine and I was so confident leaving that appt. then I get the call back. I was surprised how little the core biopsy hurt. I couldn't look at the ultra sound either as I don't want to see anything bad. I want to put my fingers in my ears when they finally call me-

Wishing you only good things.

inkster

10Mojo, I just did my biopsy this morning and same thing. I totally expected it to hurt at least a bit, and it really didn't. Of course, I've got a big old icepack stuffed in my bra now (good thing I took the day off - that would've been tough to explain).

Hang tight, everyone. We've got this.

Lolis197138

One of my life's motto has been "hope for the best but prepare for the worse" that has kept me grounded. It sure came handy as I was waiting the results of the biopsy. I told my sister and her hubby of the situation before I went for the biopsy. Although there was a 5% chance of it being benign, I knew deep down that I wasn't part of that 5% lucky people. However, not too long ago there was a lady that had benign results after a birad 5.

Fingers crossed you get benign results as well!!! 

inkster

And even though the radiologist told me that the pathologist would take at least until the end of the week to file a biopsy report, I got a message from my doctor asking me to call her right away (which will have to be first thing in the morning). Guess I didn't make that 5%. Crap.

Long night ahead.

 

bellajenn

inkster - Well, deep breaths are needed again. I know that waiting until tomorrow to talk to your doctor doesn't make the time fly at all. Sending positive thoughts your way!!

inkster

I called my fabulous doctor this morning and the mass is indeed cancer. Time to go kick cancer's butt.

Best of luck to everyone! Everything will be okay.

10Mojo

Inkster,

I am sorry to hear this news. But you're right- from waiting around to action!! I know you will be ok, it's just another hill in life to climb. Go get em, girl. Sending only good thoughts to you. Please keep in touch if you feel like it.

ml143333

Inkster - I am sorry that your diagnosis was positive for breast cancer, but rest assured that you are among friends here!  Please keep in touch, join in!

bellajenn

Inkster - So sorry for your diagnosis. But you've really impressed me with your attitude! Stay positive!!

Fakeboobs123

inkster keep your head up, we are hear for you if you want to talk/vent/whatever