Strugging

bernall

Getting ready to start radiation and I've was fine until my first consult with Rad Onc. Ever since that day, I am really sad and cry easily. It's usually after kids are alseep or when by myself. I prided myself on being "totally ok" with my diagnosis and being really strong. I am thankful that it was detected early and know that I'll get through radiation hopefully without too much discomfort. Just can't get out of this sadness funk. It is getting harder and harder to keep this mask on.

trailrose

bernall- I'm sorry you're going through this emotional roller coaster. But you are so normal. You don't have to keep that "mask" on. Let yourself break down and cry real hard. It's part of the healing process. When I was first diagnosed with DCIS I was so strong then 1 week into after receiving my diagnosis I literally came down onto my knees and cried so hard! Just sobbed. I had moments after that where I would just cry out of nowhere but came to accept these were the cards I was dealt in life. I still will have my moments but not as bad as before. And look I'm cancer free after my BMX! I'm very lucky and am so ready to be back to normal but understand this is a long process. You will get through this. The women on breastcancer.org are so inspirational.

Beachbum1023

Hi bernall, maybe you just need some time to really be you, without the mask! I'm sure that you are being the strong one for the kids, and you probably smile for everyone else. Take some quiet time for yourself, you know what you need. Everyone here has great days, good days, and the dark days. Sometimes I have all of them in one day. But you will find all of the love and support you need here. We have all been there, done that. I finished rads #11 today. Join in some of the threads, and you will feel the love! Get your game on !

LAstar

You've got to let it out some time, so don't beat yourself up. After my BMX, I couldn't get my friends and family to leave me alone long enough to have a good cry -- they started to get on my nerves! Try to balance those cry sessions with some good laughs. You will get through this, and all the simple things will have a sweet new meaning. {{{Hugs}}}

have2laugh

Bernall- There are times when a few tears are a normal and often healthy response to life events and this is one of them. Give yourself permission to feel what your feel. You are reaching out for support by coming here so that is great but if you ever feel concerned or overwhelmed by these feelings do not hesitate to let any of your healthcare providers know. You want to keep as much of your energy for healing and coping with the busy weeks ahead of you completing radiation. I actually missed my partners in crime at radiation after completing treatment. It wasn't always easy but my techs were great and I met some really nice ladies over those seven weeks. It can be a scary, uncomfortable time getting started with treatment so I will think of you. Hug those kids and allow yourself to take a few deep breaths!

shapnz

Hi Bernall - it has been 11 months since I was diagnosed with DCIS and I have done the surgery, chemo, radiotherapy and still doing herceptin with tablets. During my journey all I did was cry, even in front of my husband and children (11/13) and still I have those days now. My husband and children saw every emotion that I had which made them realise this is real. How I got through it all was the support of my family, friends (the one's I wanted to include in my journey) by creating a support group in facebook. Every thought good or bad I wrote it down and read it and re-read it before sending it out, it was the best thing ever. Didn't matter how big or small, that is how I released all that emotion. They didn't have to reply if they didn't want to, it was I knew they were there... We all know we are not alone on this journey and yet we feel that we are sometimes. Include your family in everything, I did.... Thinking of you Bernall and just breathe!! Positive thinking, and having positive people around you is power.....

Moderators

Having a god cry can be a release and is better than bottling it all up and becoming bitter and resentful. As suggested above, balance that with having a good laugh at a comedy, some YouTube vids, or even better with friends and/or family is helpful.

Alone, at nights is always a hard time as the mind goes to the darker side often. Keeping as active as possible so that you are ready to sleep often helps. This collection of people are here to support you too.

We wish you all the best.

The Mods