Not good at this waiting

greenae

Thank you all for the kind words and advice. My siblings and I decided I would tell my Mom after I see my breast surgeon. My mom has huge anxiety issues, and I'd rather tell her after there is somewhat of a plan in place. She doesn't do well with uncertainty. Aha...maybe that's where I get it from? I am getting things in place ...got an RX for Ativan from my primary, got a binder and plastic covers and dividers for my suddenly growing "chart." Told my husband (who's in Fla. golfing), the biopsy results. I know he hung up to cry. I will get my butt to the gym this weekend, and try to Not obsess my way thru the next 12 days before I see my breast surgeon. I feel better, already.

Lucy55

greenae.. Probably a good idea to wait until you have you plan is in place...You will save her the anxiety of the "waiting time ".. which is the worst part.. and save you the worry of worrying about her too.. You'll come through this fine, so will your Mum, and your hubby will too.. Going to the gym sounds a great idea !

greenae

thank you lucy

SugarCakes

Right there with you, Greenae.  I had a core biopsy on Friday and hope to get the results tomorrow (Tuesday).  The night of the mammogram and ultrasound results, I took an ambien.  I took another last night and got some really good sleep.  Saturday night (sunday morning) I was up reading and signing up for this site at 4am.  Hang in there.  You are not alone.

Mommyof3girlies

I'm not good at waiting either.  I have been so upset lately.  My husband had early stage prostate ca 2 years ago and he is doing great.  My mom was diagnosed at 62 with pancreatic ca, now spread to her liver and after some tricky times her numbers are down.  My aunt her sister (age 66 at diag.) had stage 2 breast ca a year ago, had a double mastectomy and had chemo and radiation and doing well.  My husbands mom (83) just got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and she is doing a low dose chemo and we are aren't sure on her course of action yet.  There is more to my story but I won't go on...I have so much anxiety and I am a worrier, I drive my hubby crazy.  So I've had mammos since I was 39, I'm 46.  All came back fine and no problems, last one was at the end of Nov. 2014.  I decided this year and a suggestion on my "mammo is fine" result form to do an ultrasound as precautionary because stage 3 density.  Well I went in for this dreaded appt. on Tue., I had already convinced myself that things wouldn't go smoothly.  I got thru the ultrasound with high anxiety and was chatting with the tech. and I asked her if everything looked ok.  She said everything looked fine and that she found to spots on my left breast which didn't look like anything cancerous.  She said the radiologist would take a look, but that she doubted she would do any further treatment and would either probably just see me back in 6 months or a year.  Well she took a look and said I see 2 areas and they look benign. I said how do you know and she talked about the edges being smooth and not characteristic of ca.  She said one might be a papilloma and maybe not the both could be fibrostic or something like that.  She said you might need surgery if its papilloma to just be gone with it.  She then said lets do a biopsy.  I nearly died, I thought I was ok.  So she asked if I wanted to get it over with or come back.  I said get it over with.  It wasn't that bad but my heart was pounding out of my chest.  She was smiling at her samples??  I asked again.  Do you think I'm going to be ok.  She said I think its going to be ok.  She said I look at this stuff every day and I'll just leave it at that.  Now I wait til the call on Fri. or Mon.  I'm dying inside and have three young daughters to contend with. I still feel the radiologist and tech were just trying to be nice to me (my husband (positive person) doesn't think that) and then I think what if it is ca...over and over in my head.  My mom took the brachy test today, but we are pretty optimistic that will be negative....hopefully, like I said I have three girls.  HELP, having trouble sleeping!!  I want B9!!!