Lump in L/D reconstruction

kaza

Hi Ladies, sending you all healing thoughts...

In early November i found a lump under my arm in the area where the muscle from my back was threaded through, i was going to see my Onc the next week so i left it till then and i mentioed it to him.

I was given an ultrasound scan to the area, and yes there was a lump, appointment was made for me to have a biopsy.

Appointment came through a week later, the Doctor who performed the biopsy was a senior gentleman, he had to do it twice, and showed me in a test tube what he had taken, he had my blood all over his hands...i couldnt believe it , i should have mentioned this but i was so wanted to get out of that room and out of that hospital.

9 days later i had to go and get my results, they came back as inconclusive, i waited around for a few hours to have a biopsy taken again, this time was sp different, all okay, the waiting game again, 29th December got my results no abnormal cells found, i was so happy the lump will remain, i need to report any changes.

I worked through all of this, some people at work were supportive others not so.,

Anyway although i had a good result i feel so so low in myself, people really dont understand the emotional side of all this, good result, get back to normal now......which i cannot do at the moment i wish i could.

I know you ladies will understand where i am coming from.

Also a few months ago i booked a holiday for my mum and myself, coach holiday for 5 days at a hotel / seaside resort a little town not far away, my mum became ill so couldnt go, a women at work, said she would come, i changed the dates so it fitted in better with both of us, i felt uneasy about it at the time, should have gone with my gut,

She is now complaining about the length of time we will be spending on the coach, she paid her money very promptly to me , so she wanted to go....really dont think i can do this , need to tell her i am not up to going, BUT will she understand, i hope so . thankyou for reading this ...feel alone , blessings to you all xxxxxxxx