Frankenboobie meets Robocop

meanmomto3

It took me years -years!- to get to the point where the scars from my breast reduction/lift of years ago had faded and I felt "normal" again. The once red anchor shaped scars had faded. Then, along came breast cancer, lumpectomy and ongoing radiation, Not only is the anchor-shaped scar no longer faded, it is a dark purple-black color against the splotchy, ruddy red my breast has become. Add to that the tattoos and circuit-board-like robotsharpie markings with their round protective stickers, and I am feeling distinctly undesirable in the breast department. I, myself, don't like looking at this new boob reality. I wish I could say I look sexy in the wife-beater style soft tanks I found at the Gap, but I don't. I look raw and sore and distinctly unsexy. My husband is way more okay with it all than I am. He's amazing. The problem is with me, I know. I desperately want to bring "my" sexy back, but I'm not holding my breath....

Melanie-C

Wow, you are the only other person I have encountered so far who had a breast reduction before finding cancer!

I had a reduction done in November. I was so happy with my new, smaller, more comfortable and perkier breasts. For the first time since childhood I felt comfortable in my own skin! Then in January I received the news that the excess breast tissue that was routinely sent away for pathology contained breast cancer. A double mastectomy later I am trying once again to learn to live with my body. I am having saline implant reconstruction. Will I ever feel beautiful again