2 Years Ago Today

LW0919

I received my initial diagnosis 2 years ago today. I guess it's my "Cancerversary". In one way, I can't believe 2 years have already gone by but in another, I almost can't believe it all really happened. My life is all back to normal now, with the exception of the constant thought of recurrence. I'm going for my follow up diagnostic mammogram on January 5th (a little over a week from now) and always get really anxiousjust before going in. Anyone else still get anxious every time?

slv58

LW, it's my cancerversary today as well! I believe we did chemo about the same time. I agree it's hard to believe 2 years has past, but I have lots of physical reminders.

I've only been in once in June for my mammogram (go in next June) but I honestly wasn't nervous of the outcome. I think this is because I found the lump 8 months after a clear mammogram, so I don't associate mammos with finding anything. I was nervous of the anticipated pain because my breast was still very sore ( just found out I have Lymphedema in my breast ).

Is that a recent pic? You look great and happy to hear your life has returned! I think nervousness over check ups is very normal, we've been through a lot and check ups are a physical reminder of all the things we want to put behind us. I'll be thinking of you on the 5 th, let us know how it goes. Shari

LW0919

Hi Slv58! Thanks! We did go through chemo together and we made it through! I hope you're doing well!

What you're saying makes sense because I associate breast cancer with a mammogram. I went in for my very first mammogram thinking I would breeze through it and be on my way but it set off an unimaginable sequence of events. I guess that's why I have to take a Xanax now just to go have a mammogram every 6 months. If this one goes well, I will go back to having them yearly.

I stay focused every day on everything else, but at night and in moments that should be used for relaxing, that's when the thoughts of "what if" come creeping in. Hopefully over time those will go away or at least happen less often!