Back to TE's after exchange?

Camillia

Hello ladies!

Ok, so this may seem really odd.I am almost embarrassed to post this question, but I just have to know and I cant find anything anywhere about this. Which makes me feel like I have to be the only person mad enough to consider this! lol!

 Some of you might remember my reconstruction journey. It has been a long one! You might have seen my pictures on the picture board and I know.... I KNOW!  My results after exchange surgery are NICE. IT HAS ONLY BEEN ONE AND A HALF MONTH, BUT THESE ARE SHAPED IMPLANTS AND THEY WILL NOT CHANGE MUCH AT ALL. Let alone become bigger or have more upper pole fullness

But... BUT! They are not what I wanted! God bless my surgeon... she is willing to do what it takes to make me happy. My original PS put very small expanders in me and my new PS (I fired the other one) was able to give me 375cc shaped implants. I feel embarrassed, but I don't like them  I feel like I was cheated, like I did not get to choose and I wonder why I could not get what I wanted like all of the other ladies did. I wanted bigger! It is partly my fault because I asked for the shaped one; partly because I am afraid od ripples and because I thought I wanted a natural look. BUT I DONT! I want bigger and Barbie looking breast. Is that bad? I tried to get used to these but I feel like I will forever have boob envy and will always wonder why did I not end up with what I wanted. I had BC, dang it! I can at least get my dream boobs out od this... right?! And these girls are like GLUED in place, nothing moves, cant wear a push up bra to help either.

Back to my story. So I saw my PS and I explained to he how I felt. I thought she'd say we can simply exchange the implants. And she did suggest that, but said that we could go to rounds and that she would be able to give me an extra 50cc that way. She added that she really does not feel like this would give me the look that I wanted. So her other suggestion is to go ... BACK To TE'S!!!  I just spent 10 months with those stinkin TE's in!!!! But I do want my Barbie breast... she said that my skin is just fine (I did not have rads) and could handle it. She talked about it like it was nothing. Surgery to remove implants and TE placement.... 3 fills... and exchange again to 500cc implants with more fat grafting! I got very excited... but at the same time, I feel like this is turning into the longest breast reconstruction EVER! 2 more surgeries? Can I do this? I know I can. But I feel silly for considering it... all over size and a desire for more upper pole? But I want the breast...

Am I being completely unrealistic? Anyone ever do anything similar? I hope someone can help me with this!