Happy Hump Day

FightLikeAGirl72

Good morning ladies.  Today starts my second day of "Oh Crap!  I have breast cancer!"  I can't say yesterday was fun, as my mind was all consumed with the worst case scenarios.  I asked my nurse practicioner to explain to me the findings on the pathology report that stated I have DCIS with a positive lymph node.  She explained to me that it could be they undersampled my tumor during my biopsy or that there can be something else going on that they could not find.  Whatever the case, she told me they need to find what is feeding the lymph node.  I know, that sounds encouraging, right?  I am beyond exhausted today, my arm still hurts from my biopsy and now both my calves ache.  I am convinced that cancer plays some serious tricks on you mentally.  I have my "team" meeting tomorrow, I meet the oncologist, surgeon, plastic surgeon, psychologist (that should be a fun meeting), nutritionist, physical therapist and social worker.  What's sad, is that I am so detached from this right now, I told my husband, I am not sure I can make it through the meeting tomorrow.  The shock of it has just set in, now I am going to be inundated with information on top of it.  A girl needs to time to think. Not sure I am going to get that!  I also have an MRI on Monday to get a better picture of my breast and single enlarged lymph node.  It's sad.  I wanted things to move quickly, but now I want them to slow down to give me a chance to wrap my head around everything.  

I hope everybody has a wonderful day and finds a silver lining in everything!  Hang tough my friends, we are in this battle together and we will all win it together!