Who's Here?

SullivanSF

hi Gals, thought Id start a fresh thread ...who's here? We need each other! 

Im 49, partnered for the last 27 with my angel Nancy, live in SF. Im a self employed photographer. I snowboard for fun. 

Im dying to connect with other lesbians to support each other while we navigate this road of hideously pink ribbons. 

For my butches/tomboys/bois - did anyone have any gender issues pop up ? Ive been having an internal convo about how I wanted to be a boy as a child- I was really upset when I began developing wee breasts, and actually thought I had breast cancer. I grew up to be your basic B cup butch, sports bra and be there. Im reconstructing the breast I lost for my mental health, but there is a part of me that is just plain angry at my female-ness. Uterine issues plagued my 20s-30s, now the breasts are gunning for me. I dont want to change my gender physically, at the same time I feel the parts of me that are distinctly female have brought me such grief medically. Anyone else have a similar experience? 

Im 30 days out from my Mx, 15 days out from my heart breaking "scar revision" - Dr term for removing my nipple / areola that didnt survive. Having post op depression/crying. Feeling isolated. 

1jessie

Hi SullivanSF.

Such a crazy journey... I'm in the midst of treatment and working on staying in touch with the beauty around me. My surgeon had said something to me about how unfair it was for women to have all these additional challenges in life - agreed.  I think the gender issues coming up makes sense. 

It's all so damn confusing, a certain degree of torture. These little human bodies are powerful and yet so fragile at the same time. I wish you full healing and comfort in your body and mind. I've been told it just takes time. May this be the last of the medical grief in your life!