Completely freaked myself out

momand2kids

I have been freaking myself out about my thyroid biopsy next week--I read the U/S report and it reported on the nodules, said one had microcalcifications-- suspicious mass-- 

Honestly, I know I know better-- U/S is not a biopsy- and I know,as you all do, that the cells are what matters.... but still, even in the face of 95% are benign, I have gone to worst case scenario..... rationally I know there are lots of suspcious masses and many calcifications floating around in our bodies--- why do I do this to myself???? 

have a week until the biopsy and probably a few days for results... oldest is graduating high school on the 6th-I really want to enjoy that....

SpecialK

Sorry you are dealing with this - just remember that radiology reports always state the worst case scenario, and that is both to cover their butts if it does turn out to be that, but also the reports serve as the spur to investigate more - i.e., the planned biopsy.  I had a 3cm mass in my calf in 2008 - the radiology report indicated a potential diagnosis that meant the best plan of action was to have my leg amputated at the hip and that would only buy me a 20% chance at 5-year survival.  If the mass was benign but tangled in the nerve I would keep the leg, but lose motor control of it, so would have to wear a brace and swing it to walk.  Eeeks!  Going into surgery was very frightening (more so than with BC) but this turned out to be a benign tumor that normally occurs in the torso (what!!!) - it was not wrapped in the nerve, so all was well.  The mass was removed and all the following MRI annually were clear.  All of this came just months after losing my brother unexpectedly and rapidly to a rare biliary duct cancer, so I was very on edge about the whole thing.  The unknown is scary, especially after experiencing a cancer diagnosis already, so I can imagine that you are totally freaked out!  I hope that you receive news that this is a benign condition and have a blast at the graduation with a clear mind - congrats to you and your oldest!  Wishing you the best!

edited to add - I hope I didn't freak you out more by posting this! I meant it as a "sometimes things are not as bad as you think they might be" story.

momand2kids

K

Thanks so much-- I know how you meant it and that is how I took it..... Logically I know this-- that these reports have every tiny thing in them.  I remember all this from bc.  the good news is that I am less freaked out.  I know that the data is completely on my side with 95% benign rate-- but you know how the mind works.  Someone has to be in the 5%.  I did have another bc scare about 2 years in---- turned out to be nothing.  The irony is that I would never have had this lung CT if I hadn't gotten this nasty cold this winter..... sigh. 

I am not terrorized the way I was during the bc thing.  But I really am pissed that I am right at the 5 year mark and I have to think about this at all....... I just have to assume that it is benign unless I hear something else after the 5th......

thanks again-I need all the reassurance I can get!

SpecialK

I'm glad you are doing ok - and yes, it sucks that it all gets dredged up again - so not fair! Please keep me posted!