We're you scared before your reconstruction?

SophiaMarie

I had both knees cleaned out arthroscopically a couple of weeks ago - I only got a bit nervous when I pulled into the parking lot.  Now tomorrow I will be having a lift on the good side and fat transfer to fix a large lumpectomy deformity on the bad side.  I have a top notch plastic surgeon as well.  I have been excited about  getting symmetry back - until today.  I'm really nervous!  I've been trying to figure out why... Obviously there will be more cutting than my knees, although the bad side won't be anything extensive.... I know I fear that it still will be ugly.  But I'm thinking the main reason is that my knees had nothing to do with cancer.  But this surgery has everything to do with it.  Maybe it's the association?

Just wondering if any of you dealt with this?

spendygirl

Hi there - I had mine a little over a year ago.  They took a flap from my back to fill a big deformity and since I had lost half my breast, I had a reduction on the other side.  YES I was nervous!  Fear of the unknown....how bad will it hurt, how long for recovery, how will they look - those were my basic fears.  The biggest fear I had was having the drains removed.  I have to let you know that I worked myself into a panic and the removal was absolutely painless!  Having both breasts operated on is more limiting than just one obviously.  Healing can take longer if you've had radiation.

A year later I can say I would do it again.  They're not perfect, but the symmetry is 90% better! really helps mentally.  All the best to you for tomorrow . If there are any questions I might be able to answer for you, just ask and I'll be happy to try.

SophiaMarie

thank you Spendygirl!  Yes - the fear of the unknown - I'm sure that has a lot to do with it.  It has to look better than it does now though.  Just to be level will be an improvement.  I know the boobs I'd like to have - just have to be happy with what he does.  Hope I can sleep tonight.

spendygirl

Good luck today!  Soon you'll be recovering!!

SophiaMarie

I figured that this would be easier for getting around than my knee surgery... Not yet!  I do have a high pain tolerance, but when you feel like your whole body is involved its more challenging.  My hips, abdomen, chest, throat, and head hurt (have a headache from the anesthesia).  Sitting up is hard - you don't realize how much your chest muscles are involved!  I know it will get better - but I am glad dh is home today!

spendygirl

Yeah, it's pretty tough that first week.  Each day will get a little better.  Healing wishes to you.