Monday club lol

juneping

red,

i've been thinking about you...glad that you're done with the surgery. when is your pink concert? hope you'll have a good time. its thanksgiving here and i am alone. had a huge fight with my ex....

pipers_dream

(((Jodi))) So much emotional stuff now and worrying about small children--it's almost worse than the dx. Sending prayers your way.

(((Juneping))) Fights with the ex are the worst b/c you know it will never resolve. I have a few choice things I'd like to say to mine.

And Red is going to the Pink concert! I'll send positive thoughts your way for that.

Update on MRI--when the scheduler called to tell me when my appt is she said that it has to be 10-15 days after the start of my last period. At that time I was dealing with 20 teenagers and needed to get back to them so didn't do the math. I got to doing that yesterday and realized that today is day 15 and called the radiology group and they said that Monday is too late and that it will need to be re-scheduled in another month--the scheduler had given the wrong date! Problem with that--no way to predict my next period as I'm finally getting irregular and I've just found out that my form of ILC is particularly rare and aggressive. To say that I am beyond angry would be an understatement but all I can do right now is cry. At least my kids are grown-up, but not by much--both are in college and one will graduate this year and the other is a freshman. They haven't been all that close to their dad or his family since he left and I don't have much family left. I didn't keep the girls away from them --they just didn't show a whole lot of interest b/c they've never liked me all that well and I was the one who finished raising the girls. TG they are close to each other though. Oh God, I"ll stop.

juneping

piper,

Never heard the MRI has to be done 10-15 days after period. Did you ask why?

This is so frustrating....I just hope they'll fit you in ASAP. Pls double check with your insurance, mine has an expiration date that I needed to have MRI within a month after my approval.

(((Hug)))

pipers_dream

OK, in a better place now. I got to making a lot of phone calls including my cousin's husband, a doc. Turns out we only need the MRI to determine whether I'm a good candidate for a lumpectomy and I was sort of leaning towards a double mastectomy anyway and esp with the pleomorphic features of this--I do not want to have to keep going in and having my breasts chipped away at for the rest of my life. It pisses me off exceptionally that I won't have sensation in my breasts again after this but I've got enough belly fat to make them as big as I want during reconstruction, lol. It also pisses me off that the doctor did not spell all this out better, but I'm going to StL for the surgery anyway so will arrange that ASAP and skip the MRI--the folks at the radiology center said that it won't be a good image b/c I guess your fibrous tissue starts to take over in the days leading up to your period and with dense breast tissue esp, it will obstruct the image.

RedReading

Hi piper. Well it sounds like you finally have some good advice going. Thank heavens. Really happy about you talking to your hubby's cousin. If you were already leaning toward a bMX then as you say, the mri won't matter. Are they going to use tummy tissue to rebuild your boobs? I haven't heard of that. TE yes, even artificial like silicone but not tummy tissue. That's cool. No saline injections or anything. Neat. Zero chance of rejection either. It's amazing what they can do now isn't it?

My mom came down. Today to see me and she said the same. She had a mastectomy 10 years ago and she is astounded that I was up and around today. She should have seen me yesterday when I was doing a really good impression of a rock.

Glad you're in a better place now. Hope things march along and they get this done asap. I know it would ease your mind to know it was done. Chin up though. Today is better than yesterday. Hopefully tomorrow is even better. Hugs

juneping

piper,

i am glad you are feeling much better and keep us posted when you will be having the surgery.

thanks for explaining the MRI and the timing issue. no one ever told me that...learn something new everyday.

red,

i am glad you are doing much better...and hope you have a good quality time with your mom. times like this always good to have your loved ones around.

Jodi040812

Sorry been gone! Meds make me type crazy! So, if I start having typos- forgive me!

I will check in a lot this Next week! So! Path report back from surgery. ER + pr + Her2 equivocal? The the other Her2 said negative. Then I read the Ki 67 reported 68% unfavorable. Ok so google...

This means I have a fast growing cancer. I opted for double mastectomy and these reports come after. Cancer only in right side but heck take left too. Relieved I did since it was aggressive. However, looking on the boards here has got me freaked. Most high ki 67!opted for immediate chemo and did surgery months after. I just have to have faith that I was right that everything happens for a reason!

1.11-11 Day one was only suppose to be ultrasound on lump and ended up being mammogram the a biopsy cancelled and Dr. Said let's do this now! Alone and clueless did a triple core needle biopsy with no one with me. 16 shots later I drove to a sonic had a route 44, put an ice pack on my Tara and cried.

2. 3 days later 11-14 the news

3. 11/18 surgeon and plastic surgeon meetings WHAT! Both that fast - prayers I swear y'all

4. 11/20 day after my bday bilateral masetotomy and reconstruction with expanders. I call the ziplock bags lol! Ok! So how in the world did my surgeon and plastic surgeon both had openings two days later?? They are the BEST IN TOWN! Both men said if not then it would have. Even like this week or mid to late December. 9 days after biopsy I am having surgery and he removed all lymph nodes.

Heading to MD Anderson Wednesday the 11th exactly a month from the biopsy! Praying for clear scans and great team to line up a kick ass killing cancer chemo. I will have chemo even if it is all gone with surgery bc those tiny cells could be hiding somewhere! I hope we did the right course but it seemed to fall into place so easy it must be a plan!

Drains will come out Monday! And maybe stitches. Dr did a great job! I was surprised! Itbhas been painful. Right arm where nodes are gone has limited movement . Get better but feels like imam doing leg splits when I reach for something with that arm. Kids are adjusting but leaving them this week will be rough. MD says you can be there for five to seven days. Great!! Kind of vague she you have kids. But this is a first visit thing since they don't know what test they will run and all! I hope y'all are doing well! I have gotten better and probably only cry 2-3 Times a day quietly and then return to my day.

I do fear I am still in denial and it won't hit me that I have Cancer until we get to MD on Wednesday. Anyone else like that? Sure take mt tatas I have drains and stitches but not cancer! Not until I am in that hospital and they say you are Stage 3a(at least that is what I am no:( if no mets) and you need chemo and yada yada! Until then, my brain says I just had the worse boob job that hurts like a :;$(&@!! And I didn't get new boobs but ziplocks lol!!

Stay in good spirits! Cry when you need too, but get pissed! Who is this cancer and who does she think she is coming all in my life and take my health, time away from my family and MY HAIR! What a bitch! We gotta take her down girls!! No matter what...Just Keep Swimming!!

Jodi

RedReading

JODI!!!!!!! You're back. Yay. Tons of news you have for us! Wow. Ziplocs, you are too funny. All the best on Wednesday, and I am so glad that everything fell into place for you. 2 specialists available on the same day at the same time, unreal! 

You've been through a whirlwind month that's for sure. It's no wonder that you're on an emotional seesaw,   with tears and anger and numbness. I totally get it.

Looks like you made a good choice with the bmx. Glad you seen to be in good spirits. I think a positive outlook can only help.

Sorry you'll have to be away from the family for a bit, but I'm quite sure they want their mom with them for a long time. So a bit of missing them will give them a gift they can celebrate for years.

Keep in touch and let us know what's going on. Hey, you ever hear of the Urban Dictionary? In it you vote for the word and definitions. One of the girls on one of these sites coined the term FURB. It means F U Rat Ba$tard meaning breast cancer (or really any kind. It's #2 right now. I figure if twerk and selfie can get in, so can we, so I'm spreading the word to vote. Lol.

Keep smiling girl. {{{{hugs}}}}

pipers_dream

Wow Jodi, you got thru there so fast? I don't think you will regret it and you are very lucky you got BS and PS together and best in town too. It sounds like you have a lot of gratitude and that will surely help you heal.

I got dx'ed the same day you did and have a CT and bone scan on Wed this week and then chemo will come first, but that's because it's quite a lot larger tumor than they first thought (barely showed up on mammo and not at all on U/S. ) Also, it will take a bit to get BS and PS together.

Juneping, how are you holding up there? Things weren't so great at T-giving.

Red I'm glad you had your mom. Mine died less than 2 years ago with some kind of unspecified cancer that never did get identified b/c she died 2 wks after dx so we decided not to put her thru it but now I wish we'd done it postmortem.

juneping

jodi - glad you are back and recovering nicely.

pipers - i am okay, very busy at work, have a deadline the coming friday. been working overtime a lot. having the pre op check up next tuesday. can't wait to get this over with.

how's everyone doing?

RedReading

Oh my gosh! All four of us on one day, that hasn't happened in forever. 

Jodi, again, welcome back and if you need us lots this week that's okay, I'll check in every day.

Pipers, it'll all come together just fine. How long will you be doing chemo? Then op - still leaning towards a bmx? I can understand what you mean with not wanting them chipping away. If it comes back or they tell me the margins weren't clear, I'll probably go that way too. Appt on the 19th.

JunePing, it's been over a week girl! I was worried about you. Sorry you are so bogged down with work right now. Hopefully it will ease up soon. Your op is the 16th? I think? So one more week and you're in a totally different mode. Trust me on this, I was amazed. I didn't realize until it was done just how much back and forthing and second guessing myself and my docs I was doing. Until I didn't have to do it anymore. Now I have a plan and it feels better.

I am also glad I have my mom because lots don't. I remind myself of that every time she drives me crazy. Lol no, I love her very much.

Yes, I got to see Pink 4 days after my op. What an incredible performer. She had me with tears dripping down my cheeks thru 3 songs that I knew and had never considered crying over. It was worth every cent!

Have a great week ladies. Talk again soon.

Ariom

Hi RedReading, I have been stopping by to see if there was a post from you. I was wondering if you made it to the Pink concert. I am so thrilled to see you not only made it, but you had a great experience. Don't be concerned about the tears, I have noticed that where I would never cry before, I can be moved to tears now. I call it the "shift" to the "New Normal". I am not surprised that such a great performer could set you off!

I used to work with her Manager, here in Australia, many years ago.

You are so lucky to have your Mother, even if she does drive you a little nuts! I looked after my Mother when she had a radical Mx in '94. I didn't realize it at the time, but her attitude and her grace must have made an impression on me. Even though she wasn't here for my Dx or Surgery, she passed in 2003 from an unrelated illness. I believe she paved the way for me, and my experience was much easier because of that.

I wish you and all the others here, all the very best. You've got a great little group going here:)

RedReading

Hi Ariom, I agree about this group!

I know I said my mom sometimes 'drives me crazy' but it's just been a challenging year for us. She decided to move after dad's death 2 years ago, sold her house, arranged to move into a retirement community, then broke her back 5 weeks before moving day. 4 weeks in hospital. I ended up doing all her packing and moving, in the evenings after work after I had visited her in the hospital for an hour (hospital is an hour away too). Then the challenge of getting her settled in. It's better now, but was very difficult at the time. 

You worked with Pink's manager. I'm now star struck. You're a celebrity. Wow!! Lol. By association. No really, that is so cool. She was fabulous! I'm sure every tear was well warranted. Probably would have cried even without all that's going on. She was that good. 

Please keep popping in. We enjoy your posts. {{{{Hugs}}}}

Ariom

ThanksRedReading, I enjoy seeing what your group is up to!

That has been quite a year for you! I understand just how you feel, my Mother could drive me crazy, but she was a fantastic woman and there isn't a day I don't think of her and miss her. We had our challenges too, after my Dad passed.

I can''t even imagine how devastating it must have been for you when your Mother broke her back. I hope she is doing well from that injury. My Husband is a quadriplegic from a hang gliding accident, so I know the challenges of severe spinal cord injury.

I did work with Roger Davies, and always knew he would do great things! He also revived Tina Turner's career, and Joe Cocker, he Managed Olivia Newton John, and many, many more. He shuns the limelight for himself, so there isn't a lot of information out there on him.

I was very fortunate to have had 3 different careers, in the Beauty Industry, in Entertainment, and finally with an International Airline. I loved it all, and have kept lifelong friends from all these jobs.

Thank you for the invitation to return here, I'd love to!

Take care, and if there is anything I can contribute here, please just ask. Nothing is off limits on these boards. I am almost a year out from surgery, and doing well.

juneping

hi ladies,

just finished the deadline...a bigger one is coming around end of jan..

my surgery is next thursday. just got done with the pre operation testing and the injection for the lymph nodes will be next wed. work is so intense and interesting. i am so torn.

you know what one day i thought about my BC....i thought to myself, the only bright side about it is i don't have to worry my retirement anymore. (i am 41...)

RedReading

Hi juneping, nice to here from you. You are sooo young. Way to early for thoughts like that sweetie. Although I admit to some of the same thoughts myself. My DH and I are planning to take 3 vacations next year, Cuba in Feb, Italy in June and Scotland in Sept. We've been saving for retirement forever, I'm 56, and we said what are we doing? We have money saved up, and I get bc. We may not be here in 5 years so we're going to live like we're retired. Lol

In the meantime, what pre-op tests and what needle for lymph nodes the day before? My surgery was pretty quick and there was no pre anything. Went in, got freezing in my poor boob, had the locator hook put in, had the radioactive stuff put in the nipple area, got a really cool radioactive xray, had a guy write X's on me, then op room and sleepy time. Woke up with lots of bandages, red iodine stains and a blue nipple. Bye bye go home. See you in three weeks. Rads in January.

So are they splitting yours surgery into bits? Or do you have to have stuff I didn't have? You don't have to answer if you don't want to. I will understand.

And if it makes you feel any better about work, we just got bought by a multinational, so are going through a name change, culture change etc. Everyone stays on but all the jobs are changing. O and we are going live with SAP April first, so I do understand deadlines and the pressures. And the exhilaration too. :-)

juneping

red - oh, i didn't know it's that different about the surgeries. don't worry, it's standard procedure, nothing private.

the pre op testing was more like a body check up to see if my body is strong enough to go through the surgery, and if i'll be able to wake up from the anesthesia. and the injection has a term (i just can't recall), it's a dye that color the lymph nodes so the doc can see the lymph nodes while cutting me open and remove them to see if there's any cancer cells in them. they said the pathologist will be next door waiting for the sentinel lymph node to diagnose asap and the doc will wait before the next procedure.

if it's positive, they'll remove axilary (sp??) nodes and then the mastectomy.

i rather have yours...much more efficient. had to take off work doing all those things. so time consuming. the pre-op testing day, it's so cold, and snowing...

RedReading

Looks like it's almost the same stuff right up to the op room, then we diverge. I had my nodes checked and the lumpy done, while it appears you will have an SNB, then depending on results, a dissection and the mx? Hmm, hey at least you will be able to have some kind of result right away! I wait for all my results at once 24 days after surgery - next Thursday. However, my family find the fact that I now have a blue nipple to be hilarious. We're calling her Smurfette!

Boy do I get the whole work thing too, I'm really busy at work trying to show my worth, yet things aren't getting done as fast as they used to. I've made a couple of errors that my boss is being really good about. I had to bring work home this weekend, just to catch up. My mind wanders off, or I can't find something I know I had just 5 minutes ago. It sucks. I don't want them to lose faith in me, so...

Anyway, yesterday was cold and snowy, while today is cold and sunny. So the weather is marginally better at least. lol

Jodi, you said you'd be leaning on us a lot this week, yet, not one post. What's up with you girl? You okay? What did they say on Wednesday? I hope your good - my prayers are with you.

Hey Pipers, how's it going. You had your bone scan and CT this week - Wednesday? Like Jodi? Any results yet? I truly am thankful I have my mom still. I can't visit right now, but we call each other every day. Next Sunday, all the kids, grandkids, my DH and myself will be heading to the golf course to meet my mom for our annual Christmas brunch. It's a nice tradition, reasonable in price (about $10/person) and we get the room to ourselves (I book early) so the kids can run around a bit if they want and the adults talk about all kinds of stuff.

Anyway, better get my butt off the chair and get some work done. Hugs'n'kisses to all. Oh, hi Ariom. Talk to you all this weekend I hope.

juneping

oh jodi....we are here for you....

red - wow wait 24 days is a long time...i was also surprised by some posters they found out they had BC and went into surgery only a week or two later. not gonna lie, wish mine was that fast as well.

my wallet was stolen on the subway, bc i went to the doc to sign the consent form. not gonna lie very pissed about it. more stress to endure and more work on my end to get things taken care of. calling credit card, getting new debit, new building passes...ugh. why can't i get a break....T_T

pipers_dream

Don't feel bad Juneping, my dx was a month ago and they're saying no surgery for another 4 mo. I'm actually kind of glad b/c I'm going to work it from the alternative end for now and hope I can make a diff before they can--they don't seem to be in much hurry so I'm not going to worry. I'm still going to follow doc's orders but they're thinking chemo first. Oh yes, and scans all clear! I was so relieved I cried b/c I had an aunt who died from BC that had metastasized to her bones.

Jodi040812

well- it has been such a yo yo that I haven't had time nor the emotional strength to post! We are on our way home now 6 hour road trip:(. I have to I back next week do bone scan, CT and another lymph node biopsy results .

First met oncologist and found her to be hostile:( Questioned why we surgery already bc MD Anderson does surgery after chemo. Well- sorry thanks for making me feel better right? Then she asked why I did both. Um really then said it didn't help that still had a 40% chance cancer returning. She was just not a happy camper.

Later that Wed met surgeon who also questioned surgery. That I expected coming from a surgeon! Then the surgical nurse. Came in and she rocked! Agreed with getting them off said she had no idea where the oncologist got that 40% from and she made me feel better. Surgeon came back in and wanted to look at morelymph node and make sure they got them.

So- Wednesday was a bust, Emotional wreck came back to room and cried.

Jodi040812

Thursday-

Bone scan and CT scan:

bone scan was no biggy at all! Love the warm blankets:) Had a mini cat nap and praying all clear!

CT- was a Long process 3 ours total. I do well with that too. Just kept praying over during scan please be negative.

Back to room ok! Met several survivors of different kinds of cancers during CT so I was feeling good about MDA.

Jodi040812

Friday-

Scheduled for a mammogram at 11 which made no sense! But we called there times he day before trying to get the ultrasound scheduled for Tuesday moved to Friday so we could leave and come back the following Wednesday. Any way, we get there and they call me back . I said "don't pop my ziplock bags" and the nurse said what? I explained and she said i am going to my supervisor. Came back and said yup no mammogram but put robe on bc you at gonna go to ultrasound as a work in. I didn't care if was just happy!! I get to go home and se m girls. So , during u/s they Found a lymph node née collar bone the was enlarged. In a matter of 10 min I was signing two waivers and there was 6 people in the room watching the dr do a fine needle biospy. What? Again! That fast. Then she said ok, 10 minutes we will be back with results. 10 min came back said cells looked suspicious and they would need to run more tests. Results Wednesday with all the rest. So went back to hotel room packed up and said get me out of here and lost it. Luckily long ride home so time to fe over it. Baby in Baton Rouge went to dr at 4 and has RSV so I can't get here now! Just going home to other 2 daughters. Baby will come home Monday if feeling better so I can see her before leaving AGAIN:(. The person that said the diagnostic part I the worse I sire home right. Sorry so bummed but been a week!

RedReading

Oh sweetie, what a horrible time you've been through. What pissy doctors, jeez louise! I'm so glad you are out of there for a few days!!! You just wrap yourself up in your little girls for a little bit. So sorry about the baby (what is rsv?) not being there until Monday. 

Oh, Jodi I just don't know what to say. That was awful, and they want you to go back???? Well, guess you're going to have to strap on the big girl panties for that trip. Lol.

I will add an addendum to my 'jodi prayer' that says... and please let her doctors become civil, kind and considerate. I know you'll be busy when you get home but if you grab a minute late at night, send us a note please. Hugs'n'kisses .

Deb

juneping

pipers - i am also doing something similar. but it's something kind of regular, exercise, eat right (wholefood stuff, not those hormone injected meat) and eat less carbs.

jodi - i am so sorry. the onco was rude and unprofessional. sigh, sometimes those doctors just forgot about it's the patients they should care, not the cancer cells they want to get rid of.

Jodi040812

I have come to peace with my oncologist. I have looked at her credentials they are phenomenal and I had decided that she is basically a unsociable geek. If anyone watches big bang theory I am dealing with Shelton. Shelton is a pain but Shelton is brilliant so sometimes you have to listen to him. So that's basically my new nickname for my oncologist although she's a girl but I'm basically calling her Shelton and makes me understand that the geek in her wants to find out all the research answers and she is very robotic and doesn't know how to relate personally. As for my surgeon which I did not know this until I googled which maybe I shouldn't have but at least now I know. She is an advocate against surgery before chemo and even have an opinion on Angelina Jolie's double vasectomy she said that her case was genetic and she understood it however it would calls for an overkill in the community. Yeah that's just great because that was published in like the New York something newspaper and I was like great because that's my surgeon who was also mad that I had surgery before seen her now that makes sense. Again I just see them as geeks and they are brilliant at what they do and they just want the best and to be the best so I will ignore it I'm going back Wednesday and that will be the results of everything and I am terrified.

Pipers- stay the course bc according to MDA they like chemo first then surgery! I think it all depends on what stage in grade and all that you might be. For me I'm not comfortable with having to wait at this point before any scans come back I was already stage III A seven out of nine nodes and they found another one while ithere and I know it's cancer I'm not to be silly and pretend that it's not. Grade 3/3 as well and my Ki67 was 68% which means aggressive cancer. I just have faith that God made everything happened so fast because like June said it is crazy and everything happened so fast but it happen for reason and there is a reason it happened to have to faith!

So I leave you with my cancer saying it's been my motto and people have already given me a bracelet and necklace with my saying that motivates me! Maybe it will motivate you too!!

"just keep swimming"

Jodi040812

I talk my post so please excuse many typos especially

Angelina Jolie had a double Mastectomy lol! Or that would be national news what Siri heard me say!

RedReading

Omg lost my darned post.

That would be national news, Jodi. Lol. I know some doctors like you described. Of course, not mine, but I do know some. You have a good attitude tho. Like you said, just keep swimming. 

Pipers, I too am trying to eat better, possibly even exercise (although I think that's a swear word to me) and attempting to sleep. Not always successfully I must say. Oh well. I guess you just have to keep trying.

June I was one of those posters that found out I had bc and was operated on 10 days later, but I still have to wait until Thursday for the results. Did you get everything sorted out with your stolen wallet?

Still smiling over the posts about appreciating my mom. I truly do. I hope everyone's week goes well. Keep popping in with your updates please.

Hugs'n'kisses 

Deb 

pipers_dream

Hey guys, not much going on here until Dec 23 with MO and then will find out what the program is.

June, bad about the wallet--it surely does seem as if when something really bad happens in your life that other things decide to go wrong too.

Jodi, I'm glad you came to terms with your doc--it probably just seemed more upsetting at the time b/c you were so scared and then Shelton comes in and acts like you're not even human. I do like the "Just keep swimming" motto. I had a couple of other people say neat things too. One said that hers was an interesting journey--not always fun or comfortable but interesting. OK, I can do that. The other said that I will be meeting people that I never would have met otherwise. I like that too b/c it does seem as if you meet people in the darndest places. I think it's kind of amusing that you are grateful you were rushed thru the process and I'm just as grateful that I was given some time to think. LOL. But Jodi, how is the baby? And how did that collarbone node thing turn out?

Red, I have a couple of health suggestions if you want. The first one is exercise--I'm no fitness pro, but I have a dance group I attend every week and God has never invented a funner way to exercise. It's a blast and if you think you might like that, it's called contra dancing. If not, there are so many other ways that don't look like hopping on a treadmill and it feels better and better as you get stronger. I wouldn't exercise if it wasn't fun, that's for sure. The other is sleep--this works so well that I've lost very little sleep, even during this difficult period. I take my Ca and Mg pills at night before bed and then my vit C and melatonin also and I swear I sleep great and dream too--I barely wake up when I go to the bathroom even. No sleeping pills for me unless I'm desperate but I haven't been so far and I'm headed into menopause even.

Another thing I'm grateful for: all of this has halted a budding relationship that seemed like it had great possibilities. Oh we stumbled on for a few more weeks, but in fact the distance of 5 hours was our biggest hurdle--he was sweet as can be about the BC. I was cursing the skies and then I had an epiphany today--the distance was bothering him more than me and I figure if you really like someone you'll do what it takes to see them and I saw him as being kind of passive--he even said that--he just wants it to be easy. And then I realized today that I need a man in my life who is strong enough and cares enough to deal with someone like me and if not, I don't need him. And I stopped fighting with it, had a good cry, and then got really grateful that I figured this out before we got too far into it. I mean, I'm sure I won't be dating for awhile anyway but I'm not going to close myself off to the possibility b/c life has to lived even thru this.

juneping

red - most of it. still need the police report # for the new driver's license. that's about it.

piper - i am sorry it didn't work out for you with the new guy. may be it's for the best. i think times like this, you can really see how you click with people around you. most friends do care but only very few came out really touch your heart and you want to be with them, i meant this in both romance and friendship as well. i was able to block the unpleasant past about my ex behind me so we can start fresh as friends. part of me still want to lash out on him if he ever says the wrong thing and part of me finds his company comforting. my r/s with my sister has been deepened over the last month. she was driving me crazy and i yelled at her and she was gracious enough to listen to me and was able to understand what my frustration was. i am thankful for that. even tho BC sucks but i can kind of see the positive side of this road bump.

i think if we meant to meet someone for who we are...we will. (((hugs)))