It's that time again...

jwilco

Time for the follow up appts with the BS, then the Onc in a few months followed by the mamo/ultrasound.  Gyno too.  I had my UMX in Oct 2011.  Why do I still get worried about these appts?  I see the BS tomorrow.  I imagine she will feel around, check under my arms, etc., and hopefully say see you next time.  I'm still feeling a little anxious.  How many years will it take before it's better?

fredntan

this is why they made xanax!



at my last appt the nurse couldnt figure out why my bp wassohigh.

jwilco

Ha ha!  Really.  Unfortunately I don't take xanax so I'm on my own.  I guess I will the relaxation techniques I've been learning with mindful meditation before the appt.  But I have a feeling my BP will be high as well. 

Moderators

jwilco, we're sorry you're dealing with this worry! Wonder if it would help to schedule all the follow-ups during the same week, rather than spreading the anxiety over a few months?

Hoping for a "See you next time" for you too - please post again to let everyone know.

jwilco

An update.  My BS appt went well.  She felt nothing out of the ordinary and thought my recon had turned out well.  So far so good. 

I thought about what you, Moderators, said about scheduling the appts closer together.  But my gyno had a point when she said to try to space them out so I'm seeing her and the BS a little apart to I'm actually getting some sort of exam twice a year rather than two times in one month.  Hope that makes sense.  It made sense to me when she mentioned it.  I really like her.  She was diagnosed with BC around the same time as me and I admire her ability to move forward.  Of course being a dr probably has something to do with that. 

So now today I made my appt for my annual mamo/ultrasound and also my regular check in with the onc.  All  did was make the mamo/us appt and it's been hovering in the back of my mind all day.  I guess I'm just wondering....am I normal?  Is it normal to worry and ponder these appts so much after over a year? 

jwilco

This Friday is my yearly mammo/ultra sound appointment.  I'm already feeling very anxious with worry.  I'm trying to keep myself occupied and not think about it.  I just wish eventually I will feel normal and these things will not bother me so much.  I guess writing this here sort of helps.  I'm sure I'm not the only one that get's scared each time. 

jwilco

My appt was fine.  The dr did point out that due to fat grafting on the UMX side, I have three little specs of oil cysts.  She can see them on the ultrasound.  She said not to panic, they are normal.  However, over time, my body may try to build a wall around them and I may feel them.  So if that happens I'm not to panic but to come in so they can check it.

Good to know to avoid a future meltdown.

I am greatful.