Taxol depression?

Pms2773

I just had my 3rd taxol treatment and the following day n day after I felt so emotionally awful. I felt ugly, hopeless, and just cried! This is the 2nd time it happened. I feel fine 4 days after. Is this normal? I know doctors will say yes but I wanted to hear real life experiences. I hate my wig n my eyebrows r thinning terribly. The effort to look human to walk outside is overwhelming.

I just joined this forum today. I haven't had any bad side effects except for hair loss. Everything else was manageable. This depression episode is scary n I have another 8 possible episodes to come. Any suggestions?

Snax

Wow, Pms, I can't believe you posted this today, just as I was feeling SO down and in your words "emotionally awful." I actually just googled Taxol depression and bam, there's your post. I have posted here a bit, and done plenty of researching and lurking. This site is a treasure trove of information.

I had my first weekly Taxol treatment on Friday and - well, I hear you. Hope it helps to know that someone else is feeling the same. It helps ME to know that I might feel better in a few more days. I finally forced myself to grab the spray cleaners and the vacuum and get moving. That's usually the answer when I'm truly miserable. The grey, cold January weather certainly isn't helping. Chin up.

Snax

Pms, you might also consider posting your question on the Weekly Taxol thread, where it's sure to be answered. 

Pms2773

Snax- i go for treatment on Thursdays weekly. The first time I was just tired out after the IV Benadryl. I didn't feel any different. The 2nd and 3rd treatment I went out right after and did shopping n cleaning as if nothing happened but then Friday came. I started to feel so terrible. I'm usually very quiet when I'm feeling down so my boyfriend just thought I was being miserable but I didn't have any reason to be miserable. The feeling of retreat just hung around my neck only to be held down by anchors. I was so secluded mentally that anything that was said was frustrating to try to comprehend. I've never had been so depressed. I stayed quiet n secluded until Sunday when I finally left the house. This last treatment I went to the car show n dinner after treatment. I was totally fine until Friday came. I didn't want any company except my boyfriend whose every move was overly irritating. Saturday I was supposed to go to dinner with my friends and couldn't even look at my face to put make up on. I just laid in the bed gazing tearfully at my bedroom ceiling. I even received a clothes order in the mail that day and didn't even bother to open it (usually an exciting time to see what ordered) until Sunday. I canceled dinner n just watched a movie. Sunday I was back to normal. This awful cold and dreary weather never brightens anyone's day! I know it could be the corticosteroid or the Benadryl they give me. I am retaining water and my liver enzymes are off. I go on Thursday so I will update you if I find out any information. Thank you for the response.