Round 2

round2alma

     Well, here it is almost exactly 2 years to the day and I get yet another breast cancer diagnosis. From Nov, 2010 to May 2012 felt like the longest nightmare ever. Then in May, not only did I get the green light but I got a great new job. Babygirl had her groove back and no one could tell me anything. Afterall, after countless surgies and all of the Chemo, Radiation, and a bilateral mastectomy, I thought I deserved to live a normal life again. Who wouldn't? So, this past January I had breasts reconstruction and even though my back is still feeling the effects of the tissue grafting, it was well worth it. Fast forward to last Friday, November 11th. I went in to see my plastic surgeon about getting my aeriolas tattoo'd on as my finishing touch. Plus, I had these little round and sore, itchy patches on my right breast that I wanted to get checked out. So now, one week and another biopsy later....the cancer has returned. I'm so livid I could spit. I know they say God doesn't put more on you than you can bare but, my goodness! I'm meeting with my Oncologist tomorrow (he's squeezing me in on his lunch break) and even though I tried to reschedule for Monday due to my work schedule conflicts, I was strongly advised not to delay this visit. That, alone sounded so ominous that I'm just exhausted from trying to guess the outcome of the appointment! So, there you have it and now I'm sitting here praying and promising all sorts of things to God if he'll just let me make it through this again. I know I should be counting my blessings but, dammit I'm angry and I want to know why I have to go through this again. Afterall, aren't the odds of this happening again slim to none?

liefie

round2alma, this is just so unbelievable! Your outrage is completely understandable. I pray it is not that serious, and that there will be a way to handle this which will not upset your life too much. It is good that the appointment is so soon, then you have less time to worry. Try not to read too much into that. Slow, deep breaths, Alma! My heart goes out to you! Keep us posted. ((((BIG HUGS!!!))))

Pessa

So sorry this is happening to you. 

fifthyear

I don't think words can describe how you feel, going through this. I am hoping that your medical team provide you the best treatment available. Sending you positive thoughts and please keep us informed.

dimidani

I can relate to you very well as I had the same news just 1.5 months ago. My initial diagnoses was 2.5 years ago. I can also give you the confidence that there is hope for brighter days and after your appointment with the oncologist you will feel much much better.

I was crying a lot and felt absolutley sick to my stomach.  I had surgery 3 weeks ago. 1 lymph node positive. Pet scan CT scan clear.  I started chemo 4 cycels of TC last week and I am not feeling too badly.

Hang in there,

HUGS

Andrea5

i am understanding how you feel. I was just given the "wonderful" news, on Nov 15, that my breast cancer has returned, in the same spot.  My last radition treatment was on Dec 16, 2010, after four months of chemo. I am very angry and upset, not understanding "why me again"! Having people tell me that it will be okay, just makes me more angry.  I go see my oncologist tomorrow, plastic surgeon on 11/26 and my surgeon on 11/29. Everything is happening so fast. Sometimes it seems like you can't catch your breath.  I did everything I was told to do and then some and here I go again. I just want to know WHY???  And no matter what anybody said, unless they been though it, they do not understand what I am going though.  I been breaking down and crying it seems like everyday. it doesn't help but it does let some hurt out. Hang in there and always remember you are not alone!