Scared!

teeballmom

Freaking out a little bit. I have some minor pains in the ribs, under my right armpit, and bones in the upper chest area where the tumor was. My ONC has ordered a bone scan for Monday morning so she has the results for my appt with her on Weds and before my next Taxol/herceptin. They also are not confirming any of my treatments until the results are in in case changes have to be made. What???? My ONC did say she didn't think it is anything serious because when she looked at my CAT scan results from a few months ago it didn't reflect anything in the bones. I am glad she is being proactive but I am so tired of BC being the gift that keeps giving. First the BC, then the thyroid nodules and now this. Crap!!! I want to believe her that it is nothing but I think back a year ago when I first knew something was wrong and I couldn't get any of the doctors I went to to get it right and by the time I found a doctor 6 months later who said I had BC my tumor had doubled in size. Everything has been going pretty good so far and I've been feeling that things have been maybe going a little too good. Oh well. Thanks for listening and have a great weekend.



Take care.

clariceak

It sounds like your onc is being extra cautious with you, which I can understand after the docs missing your tumor the first time. 

I think most of us have had mysterious aches and pains after a masectomy.  Your body is out of whack after surgery.  You had the clear scan, so try and go with what your onc says - probably nothing, but needs to be checked. 

Hang in there and keep us posted.

MaxineO

I'm sorry you are experiencing this. Claricek is right, your body goes through a LOT during treatment, and things don't feel the same afterward.  Surgery, rads, chemo, hormone treatment...all can cause lots of odd pains.  Good that your onc is being proactive after your experience with getting the diagnosis.  I look forward to hearing the good results next week.

Hang in there. We are thinking of you.

teeballmom

Thank you.  I will definitely post the results.

Take care.

PinkWarrior28

I am couple of months out of a mastectomy, and a month and 12 days from recon and its difficult to lay on d left side where I had d surgeries, I wake up wit a lot of stiffness and pain, but my doctor says that's expected your body will never be the same after all......just go with an open mind, everything will be ok. Xoxoxo.

Outfield

Tball,

Hang in there.  My most recent oncologist had also had cancer, and totally got it, the fear that comes with every new pain. I just had an MRI of my thoracic spine.  I've had apain that I could not shake from my head.   I was sure that if I knew it wasn't cancer, I could let it go.  I think we all have that, and honestly, one of these pains could be a recurrence.  I hate to compare myself to veterans (I work with veterans) because I so much resptect that they served our country, but it's kind of like the ones who have PTSD and are afraid anything they see in the road is an explosive.  We've got the same mental crap of reliving the original fear every time there's a reminder, but we've got the additional crappiness that not everything is going to be just in our head.  We could meet another explosion again at any time.  

This is super, super hard to deal with.  I wish I knew some way to live with my body's aches and pains without panicking when they are new or different, but I don't.  I just pursue the ones that I know I have to get scanned for peace of mind. So far, so good.  I am glad the oncs have not protetested or wanted to "wait and see" about any of these things

I'm really sorry you were diagnosed so long after you knew something was wrong.  That's going to color how you see any new symptom.  I hope you have a good onc who understands that.  And I hope you are able to let it go as best you can.  I also had a big Stage III tumor with a lot of nodes.  I skipped self BE's for maybe 6 months before I found it.  I'm sure I could have caught it sooner if I'd been more regular.  But I no longer kick my self about that.  You have to let it go because it simply can't be changed.  In your case, it's not yourself you have to forgive, but whoever didn't get the picture into focus for you.

Good luck with the scan results.

teeballmom

Thank you everyone. I am trying to stay positive that if it is something, at least it will have been found early. Still pretty scared but trying to think of something to do this weekend to keep my mind off of it. My little ones definitely help out in that area so hopefully the weekend will go quickly and I can get this test behind me.



Take cae everyone and thank you again.