In shock

Morningsun1

movie, do you need to spend some time with your "Otto Von Wienerschnitzel" or do you need to borrow my tennis racquet? Like nihahi said, do tell and we will try to help anyway we can, or just listen...

nihahi

Sharing this from one of the ladies on the Diep thread....I hope EVERYONE WATCHES THIS VIDEO...we ALL are represented in it!!!!!

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8VoUYtx0kw&feature=player_embedded

carlads

Jennifer, I'm sending you a huge hug and I know it isn't enough!  Know that we will all be here for you.  You can do this! (Again)

Thinking of everyone!  Reading just not posting much.

Love you all,

Carla

Morwenna

Jennifer,

So sorry to hear your news. It's a bummer, and I'm not surprised you are angry, but you did all the right things to put you in the best state to deal with this new assault. You are a strong lady, for sure. Hugs to you.



Nihahi, I watched your video and it made me cry. Thanks for that! I was having a nice day apart from the rain, and then my friend cancelled on me for our walk tomorrow.



Oh well, Namaste everyone.



Rose xxx

nihahi

morwenna....hopefully not sad tears???? I thought the video was uplifting??? Sorry if it upset you.

Morwenna

Nah, it moved me rather than upset me.



I have an urge to hike to the Johnston Canyon inkpots tomorrow. Any takers?

nihahi

I'm golfing, sorry!

websister

Ridley - agree, you do sound so much more focused and positive, I like the steps you are taking in caring for and advocating for yourself



Jennifer - sending hugs ((())) Nothing about any of this is fair, is it? It does sound like you are well prepared, we will be in your pockets for biopsy on 24th and for whatever transpires after that.



Movie - I also noticed that you referred to yesterday as very difficult. Hoping today is a better one for you



Edi - I have visions of you attempting an emigration in that not so sea worthy ship you posted a pic of. Hope you are safe, sound and warm at home



Liefie - I am also waiting anxiously to hear from you. Hope all is well



I am trying harder to work within my energy/fatigue levels. I am sticking very close to the work hours 'dictated' by my Dr. And trying to make sure I have energy/time for the other areas of my life. Going out this afternoon to visit with DIL and baby GD, looking forward to that. Want to visit Cabot Trail next fall.



Traii, Dakota, Benny, Maria and everyone else - hope it's a good day/week for you

liefie

Hi everybody,

Sun came out, and I was going to walk my dog, then quickly came here, and just have to comment first - lol. I appreciate your concern re: bone scan. Just heard that it is completely normal - yayy! The sore spot under my arm is also mysteriously gone, so everything's good. My life just got really busy lately, so not posting as regularly as before, but I'm reading and thinking of you all every day. You are all very dear to me!

Websister, those darn energy levels . . . I just complained to Nihahi that I still sometimes suddenly run out of steam, and have to rest before I can go on even though I am reasonably fit. Maybe this is what my new normal is? I think all those surgeries and treatments take a way bigger toll on our bodies than we imagine. So you just take it easy, and do what you can. You have one Herceptin left, right? So happy for you that the end of this ordeal is almost here. What a war you have fought, you brave warrior!

Welcome to the new ones here on the thread - you have found an amazing group of sisters who really care about each other without judgement or criticism, just unconditional love. So feel free to share, vent and cry. We understand only too well. . .

Jennifer, what a bummer! Hopefully the new primary was caught very early because you've been screened regularly, and that is a good thing. In my eyes that is better than a recurrence (or mets, heaven forbid) . We'll be in your pockets for the biopsy. Hang in there - you can do it!

Edi, are you packing yet? LOL!

Nihahi, will watch that video later. Have to walk now.

scouser47

Hi .

Quick post before you know who starts with the dirty looks.

Momof.... So sorry to hear what has happened to you. We are all here for you, anytime.

All new girls, welcome to the best place to be.

DH retired yesterday  golly gosh this morning had a panic attack in the kitchen !! Feel suffocated already. Cant't cough, sneeze or pass wind without someone there and passing comment. !!
Just been to get him a bike for exercise purposes, hope he likes it or he will be wearing it. Took almost two hours of getting lost as sat nav wouldnt work to find the address it was for sale at.
His beauiful bosses sent a huge bouquet for me, a litre of gin and pen for him.
Tomorrow we are getting to those dance lessons if only so I can stamp on his toes.
Next week going to that caravan on Anglesey just hope rain holds off.

Maria, hope conditions easing where you are ? Saw news reports ,really dreadful.

Websister, have lined my ship with garbage bags, desperation makes you do these things.Hope family time gave you a lift.

Liefie, lovely you are back after and eventful trip. Great about bone scan and pain going.

Nihahi, gorgeous pics as usual.

OOps hear the clank of big feet. Beam me up Scotty LOL

Laters xx

liefie

Oh Edi, you are just hilarious! DH will realize that he has to find things to do other than clucking around you all day, and I hope for you it happens sooner rather than later. He will get into a routine - must be hard to have nothing to do all of a sudden. Just keep encouraging the dance lessons, guitar playing, golf and cycling. Also just keep going about your own business and interests, and it will dawn on him that he must do the same. Good luck to you! 

nihahi

anybody up for a sidesplitting laugh!!!!

MAN LEAVES BEST VOICEMAIL EVER AFTER WITNESSING CAR ACCIDENT

 

http://thefw.com/best-voicemail-ever-after-car-accident/

scouser47

Liefie, thanks and hope you are right,  x

Nihahi, that voicemail is hysterical. Thank you for starting my day with a good laugh. x

Forgot to say last night Dear Benny is ok ( pm her on facebook ) just really weary and busy. Says she will never catch up on here but told her not to worry and that were all concerned about her.Her family is expanding and she is looking after them.Sure she will pop back when she feels up to it. x

Wet and windy this morning here but seems we have the tail end of a hurricane sweeping over the country. Then starting tomorrow supposedly an indian summer ha ha.
We don't trust our weathermen since they denied severe gales on the way years ago and then half of the country blew away !!
DH still snoring  so Edi mug in hand chillin out.
Think he might play out on his bike if wind dies down. It is a lovely bike and folds down so we can take it with us on holiday. He can also pop to shops for bits and bobs and go and see shedman while getting excercise too.
Need to ask a question girls, WHEN do we get to retire ????  Must admit pulling back on the cooking somewhat anything quick and easy now the norm.

So hope you all well and our new ladies not too apprehensive about the journey ahead. We are there for you, don't forget that, and even though we may have finished treatments or be near the finish line we will NEVER forget how you are feeling right now. Come on here and share your fears and also have a bit of fun and a giggle now and again. Before you know it you will be looking back and thinking WOW I did it !! x

Second mug of tea calling me and two cakes to be iced. My dear friend is 85 and we have a party on Saturday. Her ED and GD's have come home from South Africa for a weeks visit and she is thrilled to bits.
My Darling son and his girls coming to visit Sunday so some nice things coming up.

Laters Gorgeous Warriors xx

momof2doxies

My surgeon's office called yesterday to say there was a cancellation and I have an appt today at 1pm. The person that called said that he would not be doing a biopsy, just look at the US scans and talk. WTH I want a plan of action. This surgeon is suppose to be so good...good as compared to what in the small town of Athens, GA. I have to get my nerve up to demand better communication from him without piss^&( him off. That is not one of my strong points. I feel weak and sick to my stomach. I am still dazed by what has transpired in the last 48 hrs. Hopefully, I will have some new information or a plan of action by the end of this day.

All of my fellow warriors, have a wonderful day. Have some fun!!

Jenifer

nihahi

momof2.....I understand the emotions of "get on with this...I'VE GOT CANCER". At this point, an appointment to review things and "talk" might be the better course, for you, even if it doesn't feel so. Write down every question that you have, and take them, and someone else if you can, with you to the appt. Ask every question, even if it means reading them off the list. You NEED info, and someone with info and the opportunity to sit and talk with you at this point. The time for action will come.....the waiting is the hardest part. If you are finding the stress too much, ask for something to help with that, and to help you sleep. This phase isn't forever, but it does FEEL like it. Hugs going out to you.

edi....the time to figure out your own daily routine is before hubby gets up!!!!! Everymorning, if it's not already planned, the first thing I do with my first cup of coffee, is to decide what I'm going to do that day for exercise, then what am I making for supper, then, what else will I do with my day. Those are my priorities...every single day. If it's a "big" day for me activitywise...supper is quick and easy. If it's a different kind of day, it's a different kind of supper. Make sure you keep those walks up, even if you need to get raingear and some funky boots to survive your British weather!!!! Women don't get to retire....but we DO get to be more incharge of ourselves!!! IMHO!

Thanks for the update on Benny....I fear the theory of "pace yourself" is lost on her.

liefie....another jaunt with hubby!!! Too fun! How's the knitting coming??

movie...hope things have gotten sorted for you...what's next, eh???

hugs to everyone not mentioned.....gotta dash.

scouser47

Momof2, Nihahi very wise lady.  do as she says, special notebook and pen just for this journey great idea. I have one and flicking back through it reminds me how far I have come.
Hope your appointment went well ?

Nihahi, had a pretty good day in the end . DH gets up and asks " what are WE doing today ? " You do what you like, I have two cakes to finish says Edi. He actually left me in peace except to pass lovely comments at how amazing cake for my friend is.
Shedman popped in with some cake from his GD's christening. They chatted then neighbour came and helped DH to fix new light in kitchen, I have been waiting weeks and it is like cooking in the black hole of Calcutta.
Then he showered and got all dressed up to pick up GD from school.
She helped him clean patio door glass and did a brilliant job.
Her Daddy came to collect her,  thinks DH bike is fantastic and gave him lots of hints and tips re pump and tools for changing tyres etc.
We were going dancing, but he has a nasty cold and a cold sore so now starting week after we come back from hols.
I am pretty knackered actually so bit of a relief.
One cake finished and one half done so will model figures for that tonight then out for a walk tomorrow.
Checked my calendar and have my first check up with surgeon 7th October, fingers crossed.

Take care everyone xx

momof2doxies

Went to the surgeon today and he repeated the ultrasound. Yes, I have a mass that is deep up against the pectoral muscle wall. He was unwilling to risk doing the biopsy today because I had taken motrin as early as Monday. So here is the plan

 

1. Monday 9/23 I will have a biopsy.

2. The results of the biopsy should be back by Thursday. He said something about a repeat mammogram, but do not remember why.

3. If the mass is malignant, I will proceed with a bilateral MX. I will also have to be tested for a genetic mutation called BRCA1 and BRCA2. Those genetic tests take about a month to get the results back. 

4. If I should have a positive genetic mutation I will then have to have my ovaries removed and start having colonoscopies every 5 years. Fun ..just shoot me

 

So as of today I have renamed this month as SuXtember followed by Fucktober. I turn 60 on September 30. So again this year, looks like I will be worrying about my cancer. I will snap out of this soon...I hope. Not a dang thing I can do about it. Bless my Heart..LOL

 

Jenifer

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

liefie

Nihahi, I sent that video to many people - soooo funny! Decided not to go to Vancouver - hubs will be going alone just for the day, and I can have peace and quiet at home - lol. No desire to wander aimlessly around Van. on my own. Can be a bit of a hermit sometimes - love it. Not knitting, but sewed a baby blanket for that expensive shower 2 weeks ago. The mom-to-be was very pleased with it, so will be sewing more.

Jenifer, I like your attitude! Sounds like the plan is coming together now, and you know more what to expect. Like you say, not a dang thing you can do about it except just forging ahead, keeping busy, and living your life. You are in my thoughts and prayers - this can't be easy, and this is a scenario we are all only too aware of. Best wishes, and BIG HUGS to you!

Edi, good to hear your immigration plans are on hold for the moment - lol. See? It is not always what we expect, eh? Nihahi has good practical advice to actually plan for the day so that you know what you will be doing.

Was at gym this morning, now off to church for music practise with other people. Busy busy.

nihahi

Edi.....sounds like a WONDERFUL day for you....so happy to hear how it went! Can't wait to see photos from Wales, they'll think royalty has returned once you get there! Get that walk in today...promise!?! fyi....Oct 7 is Thanksgiving day here in Canada....I just know you will have lots to be thankful for on that day.

momof 2....how did the appt go yesterday?

Off for a hike today....temperature is 2 friggin degrees at the moment...sure hope it warms up, because where we're going had snow on Thursday!!!!! Traii.....don't even want to hear about how warm and balmy its getting in Aus.!

Have good days, ladies.....love to all.

Dakota212

Hi ladies !!

Sorry it's been so long the kidos have me running like a crazy women and still trying to get in kickboxing and running in. I signed up to run a 5k should be interesting. Cockroach behaving staying away which we all know is good except for the kids I feel badly for them but the three of us are so close. Still getting into the 70's here during the day it's beautiful, leaves are chAnging truly fall. Hope all is well with everyone hugs to all!!! Muah !!!

momof2doxies

Hi All,

The surgeon repeated the ultrasound but could not do a biopsy because I had taken Motrin as early as Monday. So the biopsy is scheduled for Monday, 9/23. The tumor appears to be deep and close to the pectoral muscle; that is the reason no one was able to feel it. I am doing better today. Getting back to my therapy...sewing...I have a bonus room upstairs that is devoted to what sooths my nerves. As long as I do not make a major mistake in measurement! I call it my Fiji Island. I have tons of fabric that I play around with. Recently my dachshund, Oskar accidentally got closed up in my bedroom and he panicked and shredded my custom bed skirt. So today I hope to have that project finished. Then I have material to make window treatments, bedspread, and table coverings for our getaway home in Oregon. Oh, then there are the table overlays I am making for my daughter's wedding in May. I feel like if I do not get all this fabric put to use soon, someone may have a major task on their hands. Meaning what in the world was she planning to do with all this fabric!

Dakota...you go girl on that 5K!!! I will be glad when the weather cools down in GA, but rain is expected for Saturday. Too bad for the UGA football fans.

Thank you, nihahi, for your wisdom! It means so much.

SO I take a deep breath and go forward.

Jenifer

liefie

Jenifer, so glad you are doing better, it comes through in our post. Now remember what they say about woodwork - measure twice, cut once? Guess it applies to sewing too, eh? You have a lot of projects on the go, and doing what you love is the best way to stave off 'those' feelings. Enjoy, and make sure Oskar is out before you close the door - lol. Years ago I once accidentally shut my cat in the dining-room with a newly decorated birthday cake on the table. Half an hour before the guests arrived, I opened the door, cat shot out, and I discovered to my dismay that he had licked some of the cream letters off the top . . . pandemonium. Quickly whipped up some new cream to put on top, and cut cake carefully avoiding those letters - LOL. Best wishes for the biopsy on Monday - will be thinking of you! Let us know what's going on, okay?

Dakota, good to hear from you. It is sad for your children that cockroach behaves the way he does, but they will be so much better off with you in a loving, stable home without the turmoil. Big hugs to you all!

Nhahi, hope you are not frozen rock hard by now - careful in those conditions, eh? It is raining hard here, so I'm trapped in the house. Hopefully it will clear a little so I can walk the dog. Otherwise will put on some 60's rock later, and dance around the kitchen island. Tummy muscles are sore from those leg lifts in the gym yesterday. Yep, no excuse of recent surgery anymore. It actually feels good to be sore -  a sign that I worked hard.

Movie, where are you? How are you doing? Miss you!

Jo6202

Dakota, I was in your position 36 years ago.



Found a wonderful man and we blended our brood of five. Our kids are all grown now and my kids survived their jerk of a father. My two boys are just the best fathers ever... Very involved with their children and just the opposite of their father. They learned what a good father and a terrible father are like and chose to be like my hubby. Sorry you have to deal with a cockroach when you have so much to deal with now. What doesn't kill us will just make us stronger!

liefie

Jo6202, just love your post to Dakota. It brought tears to my eyes. Wonderful positive story, so encouraging and uplifting, and giving so much hope. Thanks!

Dakota212

Jo - thank you so much ! As we speak I am getting a guilt trip from cockroach cuz the kids don't want to see him. I told him he's the adult he needs to make himself part of their lives his response and I quote "whatever".

liefie

Awww, Dakota, cockroach clearly just does not get it - unbelievable. Children are sooo not stupid. You told him straight exactly what he needed to hear, and don't you feel guilty about a thing. He brought it on himself, and now has to deal with the unpleasant consequences of his bad actions and choices. What goes around comes around.

nihahi

Today's hike.....ps for Movie....Ade says "hi"!

fyi.....the fossils are NOT a pic of me!!!

ffyi....the chick on the rockpile is my friend, Ade.

momof2....you sound sooooooo much better. So good to hear the "move forward vibe" in your words. Still not an easy path, but you just need to deal with 1 day at a time.

jo62....perfect words!!!!!!

Dakota...I know where there is a nice pile of rocks, if you need to throw something at cockroach!!!!!

Moviemaniac

Just got home....long day......will type more tomorrow, but , Nihahi...your pics make me cry! I want to be active again........wah!!!!!! I hope I can start doing a little after see PS on Monday......I will pop in tomorrow......love to all you lovely Bellies!

MariaNL

Hello all,



Dakota, I want to kick cockroach, he needs to grow the heck up and be an adult. Jo6202 is right you will be stronger and so will your bond with your kids. My 21 year old daughter asked the other day what she needs to do to change her last name to my maiden name. They grow up and realize what you did by yourself for them and the bond is unbreakable, I used to say my ex would be sorry one day for not being there but that doesn't mean anything anymore because I know I have something with my kids he will never get to know.



The last couple of days have not been fun.

First my husband was told they will be closing down his dept at work and moving it to Tennessee, and there is no way we would move there. So stressed about insurance, can't be without it right now.



Went to my RO today, thought I was just having a consultation but they did my simulation as well. I was very emotional all day, so tired of being poked, prodded and scanned. I will be having 33 sessions starting October 29th. He was pretty sure that he does not want me to have any surgery before rads, I asked him to get with my PS to see exactly why he feels the need to start before.



Nihahi, love your beautiful pictures.



Hope everyone has a great weekend

nihahi

Maria....wise words for Dakota. So very sorry about hubby's job...We went through a couple traumatic job loss situations with my hubby when kids were younger...stress doesn't begin to describe what it does to the family. I can say...with each "unwanted" job change, hubby ended up in a position he enjoyed more, and benefitted him in the long run. Rotten timing though with the insurance issues you have in the states. Rads can be tough on your skin, which likely is why surgery soon before starting rads is usually not the plan. But, I never had rads, so maybe others can offer more info. Hang in there...things will have a way of getting sorted out...you just might not see the "path" at the moment.