I have had enough!

Patibcc

Ok now I know everyone has problems in their life but the news I got today has pushed me over the edge. It's not bad enough that I have BC to begin with. The MRI they did showed a enlarged lymph node and that node was biopsied turned out to be cancer too!



Now what brings me to this state? This year alone I have had a knee scope. Four weeks after that my back went completely out and ended up having a spinal fusion. Two weeks after that my husband had surgery on the nerve in his neck due to severe pain from a near fatal accident he had six years ago. Then I got diagnosed with BC. The same day I see the BS he looses his balance at the shed and has to be life flighted to the hospital because he cut a gash in his neck as wide as my finger and almost as long. Blood everywhere. What saved his life is the scar tissue from the re routed veins for his left arm from that accident six years ago. Less than a quarter of an inch and he would have never made it. And we had to put my dog down on Monday. She was 14,



Now I get the results back from that lymph node and I think I am about ready to have a nervous break down. Really, REALLY!? I NEED A BREAK!

dlb823

Oh, Patibcc, I can see why you would be at your wits end with so many things happening in such a short time!

I'm so sorry about your bc dx -- and I'm not in any way going to minimize what you've been through.  But I also see some blessings -- starting with your husband surviving that horrible accident.  And even though the bc is in your node (as mine was), hopefully that means the node really did its job and stopped the bc from going any further.

But, yes, you have had more than your share of stuff, and I know how devastating it must have been to say goodbye to your fur baby.  I'm so sorry.   (((Hugs))) to you, and I'm going to add you to my prayer list starting tonight for much brighter days ahead!   Deanna 

Patibcc

Thank you so much.
Just seems like everything crashing down all at one time. I'm not working due to two previous surgeries, hubby not working from his surgery and bills are beginning to pile up.

Insurance has been really good so far but it doesn't cover everything. I don't know how we are going to make it if I am off too much longer. I'm the major bread winner at my house and carry the insurance.

Hubby's been great. Lots of extra snuggles, very understanding. He would do anything for me. We have been married for Twenty years this year. We were going to go on a cruise to celebrate. Damn would have been my first cruise.


Think it would be ok if I just settle for a cruise on our twenty first anniversary?

edwards750

Dang Patibcc I know you feel like you must have been given someone else's troubles by mistake but as hard as it is try and focus on the positive things like your hubby is still around. BTW you can take your cruise anytime...by the time you get on your love boat hopefully you will have even more to celebrate. BC is a curse we have all had to deal with. We can compare hard luck stories but suffice to say I dealt with and am still dealing with a lot of stress too...husband then and now youngest son and daughter. Daughter is old enough to deal with her issues with her loser husbands but youngest son is still young and his brain hasnt fully engaged yet. With all the stress we have all dealt with and are still dealing with there doesnt seem to be enough hours in the day to handle more but somehow we manage. I am amazed at how we all find courage, stamina and strength in the wake of being dx with BC. Whether you are early stage or late stage you still are branded with the C word and we will always be looking over our shoulders. The fear factor is tough to handle but again we can and will do it. I had cancer in my SN and although it was a micromet it was still there. I dodged chemo because of my Oncotype score but I can certainly relate to the frustration and anxiety when you are told it has travelled to the nodes. I think it could very well be a backstop to the cancer travelling elsewhere. Doctors dont seem to freak out about the nodes like they used to. So just a bump in the road...there is a light at the end of the proverbial tunnel.