Quick update

SarahsMom

Other than a few things here and there, I haven't really posted much in the last few months. I am working on a really big project - a manuscript for a book!  The contract fell out of the sky and I was given just 6 months to deliver!  The project is due in early September, so between that and finishing up classes for my doctoral degree, it's been crazy. And my teenaged daughter and military husband, chaos!  But it's all good! 

I should have gone for my 6 month check up in June, but I will be honest and say that I skipped it. This is not like me at all, I've been fastidious about going in every 6 months since 2005.  But this time, even with some weird twinges, lumps that I think are cysts, etc, I skipped it. I just can't do it right now, I've got to get this book done!! I don't want any distractions or stress.  This is what I wanted for the next chapter of my life, to write from my little beach shack.  The contract literally fell in my lap.  I do publically promise here that as soon as I hit "send" and get my daughter settled into high school, I will go see my doc for my check up. 

You know how sometimes you just have to roll the dice? I know it sounds crazy. What could be wrong, anyhow? Every visit, there is a slew of films and I am Birads 3 and sent on my way. I guess I am sick of how it paralyzes me. I try to press through it, carpe diem and all. :-) But it still sidetracks me.  I don't know, this is the book I always wanted to write. Of course I have a million follow on ideas, but if I get this out, and something goes bad from a health perspective, it will just be my legacy, I guess! 

Thanks for listening, ladies, you all know how it feels as the high risk group. Hugs to all! 

Leah_S

Congratulations on the book contract, Carpediem! Let us know when it comes out.

Leah

SarahsMom

Thanks, Leah! :-)

lisag46

Congratulations!

Cindy-Rose

I just know that it's gonna be a great book. I know what you mean about waiting and worrying, so I get it...I totally get it.

cin

Sommer43

Hi Carpe,

 Congratualtions and six months you should do it!  Our high risk group is fairly quiet and that's because we are "between" appointments and nothing to report! 

I am back in September, three months and I hope to be moved to six months from thereonin. 

Thinking of you, lady, get that book chucked out and let us know when it is out! 

Hugs

Sommer

oregongal

I have been dealing with all my issues for 16 years (papillomas, lumps, ADH, complex cysts), tons of biopsies, lumpectomies and a partial mastectomy.  In 2005, I found another lump but I had just lost my health insurance after my company shut down.  I was trying to sell on ebay, loved it (sadly made no money) and was so busy working day and night.  I decided that I had enough of dealing with this breast stuff, didn't go see the BS and to everyones surprise, my lump didn't grow any bigger (still have it) and my breast went through the calmest period in those 16 years.  Literally no issues for 3 years.  I go back to a regular stressfull job and the issues start up again.  It makes me wonder, I don't think it was stress, I was always stressed selling on ebay because I had no money.  Was it lack of control (working for myself versus someone else) or just the fact that I got more sleep every night. But even with all my issues, my BS didn't have me on anything but a annual schedule.  Annual was always, mammogram, US and excisional biopsies.  My BS felt that if I got cancer it wouldn't be aggressive, but on the other hand felt no lump belonged in a breast and so completely removed them.  This constant dealing with the issues is distracting, I totally agree.  I knew it was bad when a stray kitten started hanging around my house and I adopted him and called him Birads Four. 

Congratulations of your book deal! Now, that is exciting news!

Sommer43

Goes to show that stress is a factor in breast issues and since I have taken a step back from it all, things seem to have calmed down, although I still have pain in my underarm and arm, the lump has gone down, after surgery. I now have the issues that are associated with my cycle, which I have always had. 

SarahsMom

Thanks, ladies, you're the best!! Cindy, I follow your blog and always sending you loads of hugs and positive energy! 

Well, It's just a boring textbook but I am trying to bring it alive! :-)

Thanks to Lisa and Oregon, as well. And Sommer, I think we're on to something here....the every 6 month scans just add to the stress level, then make our problems worse? Hmm.  My last year in the military, juggling a hubby who was getting ready to deploy and our little sensitive girl put me over the top. I had more health ailments pop up than I'd had my whole life! Eye infections, migraines, weird pains. Also accidents with injuries, like falling down the stairs and needing staples in my head!  It was a clear sign that my life was out of control, so I took control back and retired. I still work (from home) but I've carved out a different life that is not as stressful, but still productive. It's not the glamorous, high powered stuff, but it works for me. I feel like this book was some good karma coming back to me for making a decision with my heart for my family instead of listening to all of my bosses and mentors!

Thanks again ladies, it is nice sharing my happy news with you.  I will be going to see my docs in Sept, but for now, at peace with everything and moving forward.  

Sommer43

Hi Carpe

I am there on September 8th, with the radiologist for another ultra sound on the multiple reactive lymph nodes, which will be interesting what he comes up with.  I can feel them and it goes all the way down my inner arm.  Still the same feeling I have had for well over a year! 

 Sounds like we are there around the same time, I hope you post your appointment details, I know I will be. 

oregongal

I am right after you both in October to check what is probably my 6 papallomas.  Too bad we are not all living in the same area, we could have a 6 month party to relief the stress.  I can see it now, party streamers, a boob shaped cake, maybe even a pin the nipple on the breast game to relief the stress. 

Carpe, glad to know your life is heading in a new direction!

Cindy-Rose

Carpe, I could try for the rest of my life to repay the kindness and support that you've shown me and wouldn't even be able to come close. I don't think you realize that you are one of the people who really kept me going when I was confused and had no idea what was happening to my body. I want to thank you for following me for all this time and being such a good friend to me. I'm so happy to hear that you've made some changes to your life that are making you happier and probably healthier too. Thank you so very much for everything you've done for me and who knows how many other people. You are an inspiration to me and many others. I hope that your book turns out just exactally how you want it to. I do miss our morning chats though.

All my love, cin

SarahsMom

Hi ladies, I am back after a long weekend out of town....now doing the shopping, laundry, et al to keep the world spinning here! 

Oh Cindy, you know how to make a lady cry!!! There are tears rolling down my face right now. Bless your heart.  Thank you for the kind words, I love you back, as you already know!! You are such a great lady and it's an honor to be one of your wingmen on this journey.  We need to get those morning chats going again for sure :-) 

Hugs to you and all of my friends out here on BCO. 

Cindy-Rose

Carpe,

I'm home from the hospice again so I'll try to check in every morning even if it's just to say hello. I didn't mean to make you cry but I know I've felt the same way after reading some of the posts that you've sent to me. I'm always happy to send you good vibes.

ALL MY LOVE, cin

CameoBarbie

Carpediem that is such good news.

I finally go for my MRI on Sept 1 for a scan of the pancreas. I have had time to figure out this pain cycle and I don't quite know what to expect but I did just as much reading. I can't handle all this stress either.

Cindy-Rose

I won't be on bco very much because I'm not not feeling very well today. I plan to spend a lot of time resting so that I can try to get myself going again, I didn't want you to think that I was ignoring you. I'll try again later or tomorrow. Today I rest.

cin