CANCER CRAZIES (Title by Sewingnut)

barbiecorn

I thought I would start a topic about the cancer crazies.  On days when one of us feel it coming on, we can post here and get support from our sisters.  Mine started yesterday...mother's day - woke up and felt it coming - on Saturday I was fine...out to dinner with relatives, had a nice day and then yesterday - mother's day - I missed my mom - this was my first mother's day without her since my breast cancer diagnosis ad boy did I miss her...she passed in 2008 at the age of 98 - I was so lucky to have her for so long...she was a joy to me and would have made me feel so much better if she were here through this journey...so the Cancer Crazies started on mother's day and I took my xanax and feel a bit better and knowing it is normal through my sisters here has made me feel not so alone...thank you...(((hugs))) - P.S. If anyone needs to vent about these episodes, we will meet here and vent.

truebff

Yeah, I know. One day we are fine, actually doing okay, and then whammo. I woke up this morning in a panic, no reason, lots of reasons.I know this will pass. And I have been doing better and better this last month recovering some newfound energy rebound. So maybe not the same as you, but I was missing my daughter, who was unable to be with me yesterday and it didn't hit me until today. So much for brave. Why does it seem, since cancer, that it always seems to come right out of the blue? (Maybe because our systems -going through all that- learned to hold off processing shock and grief and worry until they can???)

barbiecorn: Big hugs and love your way. You are NOT alone. No way. 

barbiecorn

truebff - (((hugs)))) and thank you.

barbiecorn

DOES ANYONE HAVE THE CANCER CRAZIES TODAY???  MINE HAVE BEEN LINGERING A BIT...BUT HOPE TO MOVE PAST THEM BY TOMORROW...I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!

Kelloggs

I have the cancer crazies / life crazies right now.  My mom passed away quite unexpectedly at the age of 68 on Tuesday last week.  I spoke to her at 3pm like I do every day and at 10pm she was gone.  The funeral was Saturday and needless to say, my Mother's Day sucked.

truebff

Oh Kelloggs!!!!!! Hugs!!!!

Blessings2011

Oh, Kelly - I am so sorry to hear about your mom. Praying for peace and comfort for you in the days to come...

truebff - big hugs to you!

barbiecorn -  my Mother's Day was much like yours....my mom was dx'd with BC when she was 61 - my age! She had a radical mastectomy with a huge scar, and no treatment. She remained NED until she passed in 2009 of Parkinson's-related issues. She was 87.

When I was dx'd last September, the first thing I wanted to do was call my mom. It made me so sad that I couldn't do it! But then I remembered, that like the Lord, she is with me always.

So many times on this journey I have felt her presence and heard her voice  - loving me, reassuring me, guiding me.

My first Mother's Day after her passing in 2009 was nowhere near as hard as this past one. I missed her all day. I think it was the  cancer crazies.

Hugs to you, too!!!

SpecialK

kelloggs - I am so sorry about your mom, so difficult when this happens unexpectedly, I will be sending you strength and hugs.

barbiecorn

So sorry Kelloggs about your mom....I missed mine so much this year and just can imagine what you are going through...we've had enough already....

Blessings20 - Yes, sounds like your mother's day was like mine...that's when the crazies started this week....funny how you just never know when they are going to surface.....I am sending you big hugs and hoping that these crazies ease up a bit this week....we all need a break from them....again Kelloggs - I am so very sorry about your mom!!!!

truebff

((((((Our Moms))))))

barbiecorn

Yes, big big hugs to our Moms!!! 

So ladies how are we today?  Any cancer crazies to report?  I went to see my therapist yesterday.  I am better with my anxiety about all of this but I must say that I seem to be in a constant state of blah...oh well, we spoke about it and I guess blah is better than crawling out of my skin with anxiety!!! Gotta look at the positive.  Keep busy, it helps.  If you had to put a time frame on this, how long before you start feeling like yourself or is that just a dream? 

barbiecorn

Great when the mind stops racing!!!!  Today the cancer crazies is a distant memory. Peace to all of us!!!

barbiecorn

Off to my therapist today to vent about having BC.  She has been a big help in keeping the cancer crazies at bay.