A conversation with God...

keonghi

Hi all,  I would love to hear your conversations with God also!  Here's mine:

I heard an incredible speaker at a meeting yesterday and he was talking about a prayer that he says everyday (as do I).

"God, I offer myself to Thee--to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life. May I do Thy will always!"

This speaker broke it down in such a way that really brought it home for me.  It will no longer be something I just say, I feel it now.

So, it got me to thinking about having a conversation with God about my situation.

ME: "God, I offer my self to Thee-to build with me and to do as Thou wilt." 

GOD: "Thank you Kristi, because I have something I need you to do and you might not like it but trust me on this one, okay?"

ME: "Um, okay God. But, can you please relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will?  I mean I'll do anything you want but sometimes I get in my own way of seeing and trusting your plan."

GOD: "I will gladly take away some of the difficulties you have struggled with over the years and in doing so it will make you stronger and more apt to handle anything I throw at you."

ME: "So, what do you have in mind?  I hope I am as strong as you believe me to be."

GOD: "You are strong and always have been.  ALL of my children are stronger than they think because they are made in the likeness of Me so I KNOW what you are capable of...if you just trust me."

ME: "Oh but God, you see something in me that I don't.  But, I will trust you know better."

GOD: "Okay, good.  I am going to give you a little bit of cancer..."

ME: "WHAT? Whoa, whoa, whoa God, what do you mean a "little bit of cancer?"

GOD: "Well, it is cancer but you are going to catch it early.  You are going to struggle with fears, anxiety, sadness, anger, and pain but if you TRUST me, it will change your life like nothing before."

ME: "I ask you to take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.  How then God, does getting cancer take away me difficulties?  I don't mean to question you, you know better than I do, obviously.  I'm just confused."

GOD: "Well, as you go through the struggle that comes with cancer, and you beat it with faith, you will be more able to share this with others.  For example, you are going into a healing profession and what makes a more empathetic healer than someone who has lived the ailment itself?  Everyone of my children has something to bring to the table of healing through experiences they have had.  So, I thought of you when I was "handing out" cancer because I knew you could handle it."

ME: "You have far too much faith in me, God.  Or, maybe that is your point.  I need to have more faith in you and trust that in doing your will, my difficulties will be less in the long run.  If I can do anything to help another person on this earth than I will do my best with what you give me.  May I do Thy will always, not mine."

GOD: "I know you can handle it Kristi, and I will never leave your side throughout the experience. Trust Me, have faith that all is well.  You are never alone."

ME: "In Jesus' name I pray, Amen."

This ends with God and I in a "spiritual hug" and a pat on the back as he pushes me out into the world of cancer.  Me looking over my shoulder back at Him, feeling unsure.  He prodding me along saying, "go now my child, you will be fine...just remember to have faith."

The end. :-)