Odd reaction to LCIS & possible mastectomy!?

shabby6485

hi all

diagnosed two weeks ago with lcis. this after 10 biopsies over 4 years. i have adh and alh. my mother also had bc young.  

so, while i waiting on this latest pathology, i felt like i was literally having some sort of breakdown. you would think after 10 biopsies, it would be old hat.  it just got harder each time, like i was pushing my luck each time. i thought i cannot do this again.  as a matter of fact, as i was being wheeled into the OR, i told my surgeon that if this was anything but totally b9 that i wanted a mastectomy.  (be careful what you wish for)

so, i am told it is lcis.  my immediate reaction was relief that it wasn't "cancer".  But i knew that lcis is tricky and I knew a mastectomy was in my near future. No high risk suvellience for me...there was no way that i would subject myself and my family to this testing every 6 months.  for me, this is no way to live...

So, no tears, no trauma, no drama.  relief?  denial?  what?  is this normal??? am i oblivious to how hard this is going to be?  should i see a therapist? have my consults next month........

what do you think? 

J9W

The not knowing is so hard. I had a mastectomy and reconstruction on my right side - I had been dxd with DCIS, grade 3. I still get tested every six months...used to be mammo followed by mri but in February I graduated to mri every six months. I agree with you the testing every six months is no way to live, and I honestly thought that the mx would take care of everything and I'd get back to life as I knew it. NOPE, doesn't happen. I don't think you are oblivious as to how hard this will be - you already have lived the 'waiting game' for a long time and even with the mx, you'll still be playing that game. I send best wishes and hugs to you while you make decisions.  J9

iammommy

We all react differently. I was very anxious about not having a pbmx and decided immediately to have the surgery. I never relly worried about the surgery. I just wanted it done asap. No tears. No drama. And i don't regret it . My surgery was last May and i had no problems. I am healthier and less anxious in general. So. , i don't think your reaction was weird at all ! Nan