Why is moving forward so hard?

bookgirl

Why is it so hard to convince yourself "it's probably nothing" but so easy to slip right to planning for the worst? I am doing it WAY to often, every blood test, every pain or ache, every check up causes more anxiety than the last. I have good days, actually many, many of them but here comes the annual checks ups and testing for the ONC and BS and I slip right back into expecting to hear something negative. I guess I'm just having a bad day...yesterday was my BS appointment and next week is my  ONC appt. UGH