Taxotere/Cytoxan starting February 2012.

silviazara

Hi everyone - hope you are having a nice Sunday.. at least as nice as possible.

I definitely started to feel like true chemo patient - my eyelashes and eyebrows are really thinning now. I fear I am going to lose them all. I feel so hideous and yucky. I don't feel like getting out of bed. Spent past two days lying around. Fever is gone, nausea as well, but I feel very down and depressed.

Bonnie - I am glad your mom is doing better. You are so lucky to have her only a ride away - my mom is thousands of miles away from me.

Shera I read through the topic here on forum Hair, Hair .. and most women say that hair starts to grow about 5-6 weeks after last treatment. An inch of hair could be grown not sooner than a half year later. Oh well.

JoanQuilts

Silvia - I am sorry you are feeling depressed.  I generally feel that way a couple of days after my chemo when I'm feeling at my most "yucky." 

Sometimes it helps to force yourself to get up and out - to get washed and dressed, just like any other normal day.  It looks like you are 75% done and then you're home free!  Hope you're feeling better soon!

Joan

woodburns

Bonnie - So sorry to read about your mom.  Hope she is doing much better.  I know how hard that must have been for you.  You and your mom are in my prayers.

AEM47 - My eylashes and eyebrows have always been thin.  So figure unless they fall out completely I will not notice it that much.

Coldenmom - My veins holding up is one of the things I fear the most.  How awful that must have been for you.  Praying your veins have a chance to heal before your next tx.  

NikkiEliz  - Cute blue wig.  You have style girl.  As far as the Claritan D. I got some and started taking it 2 days for my first treatment.  That is when I remembered why I take regular Calaritan.  The sudoephidrine (spelling) makes me ache all over, I feel like I have the flu. Never thought about the tylenol in it.

ImLola59 - Congrats on making it through the hair cut alcohol and tear free.  My DH cut mine yesterday, He was so worried about what my reaction would be.  God love him.  Made it through a lot easier than I thought I would.

Silviazara - So sorry you are feeling so depressed.  Sometimes I look at how far I  still have to go and I get down. 

Day 4 and 5 I laid around most of the day.  I ached and was so bored!!!!  I will be so glad to go back to work Monday.  Have just about decided to go to work with no wig, no scarf, no hat.  Just not sure how some will react.  Kind of got to take care of thier feelings too.  Jury still out on that one. Today, decided to drag my buns out of bed, showered and decided I was going to move around.  Watered plants, did dishes, and laundry. DH and I went for a walk this afternoon.  Seems to have helped the aches.  

Praying for all,

Suzanne

Likeachickadee

Hi All,

I'm having my first T/C tx tomorrow morning of 4 cycles, Neulasta shot on day 2, and started my steroids today x3 days, and have my wig, halo, hats and scarves and chemo caps all ready to go...I'm all stocked up with over-the-counter meds for just about anything I could come up with side effect-wise. (wow!  I guess I really sound like an OCD planner!)   

I'm 5 weeks out of BMX with DIEP Flap and have been ramping up my walking for the past 2 weeks doing anywhere from 2 - 7 miles most days. I'm hoping to at least get in a 2 mile walk most days after tx starts and build up again when I can.

I'm so ready to get this 12 weeks going and be on the other side finding my new normal. The BMX and DIEP weren't as bad as I would have imagined so I'm hoping and praying the chemo journey is manageable too.

Thanks for all the wonderful sharing of information.  I've read and re-read your posts and many of the other boards as well.  I know most of us don't like to hear how "brave" we are, but from what I've read on these boards we should all be proud of the way we are tackeling and handeling this horrible disease....here's to kicking BC to the curb and looking back at it as a distant memory that we grew from and learned to love life even more from.

Best wishes for uneventful treatments and minimal SE and speedy hair re-growth!

Valerie

Myleftboob

Silviazara

I had one of those days too, don't really know why just blah and kind of down in the dumps.  Its going to happen sometimes .  Could just be plain boredom too.  I feel like all I really do these days really is houswork.  On the plus side the house is clean I guess.  One thing is I was thinking back to the stupid stuff I used to get irked about before the BC diagnosis. 

My sister lives about a 2 hour drive from me coming down for a visit for the night.  She wants to hit the mall which I'm not really in the mood for.  Not alot of good shopping where she lives so I'll go for her sake.  It will get me out of the house anyway, will probably do me good.  Mabey I'll find a nice scarf or hat.

Bonnie

Glad to hear your Mom is doing better.  You must have been scared out of your mind though.

Likeachickadee

Good luck tomorrow and to an uneventful time of it at your first chemo TX. I hear you about the whole brave thing.  I get that on a daily basis and I know it's meant well.  I normally respond thanks but I'm just doing what I need to to keep me sane and that they would do the same if they had to.

shera

 

damn... an inch of hair can take up to 6 months?  On the positive side... hair grows faster in the summer and I think all of us here will be having our last treatment in April or May... right? Get your sunshine! (Without burning your heads)

 

There's got to be some type of miracle grow product for hair -- but it probably causes cancer. 

bad joke. 

 

Silvia -- if that is you in your profile picture, you are beautiful -- with or without hair! Too young for all this crap, of course. 

 

Imlola -- there are some mini-scarves on headcovers.com that are a good size for wrapping around a hat to tighten. I've also thought about going to JoAnn Fabric to get some strips of fabric. 

 

I just texted my boyfriend that tomorrow is it. My hair is thinning too much to go without a hat, and shedding everywhere. Time to buzz it. Bald looks better than bald spots. I think. Unless I have a weird shaped skull.... 

NikkEliz

Silvia: Wow. That picture is absolutely gorgeous! Hair/Eye lashes/Eye brows, they are all just such small pices of what up the way you look and as much as loosing them sucks, just look at how amazingly beautiful you are even without them at their normal! I had a few of those depressy days last cycle, I found that just forcing myself to actual go do something, even just walk to Starbucks and grab a latte or something small just for me really helped cheer me up. *hugs* Tomorrow will be a better day.

Shera: Hahaha oh bad jokes. Nice. Made me giggle a bit, not gonna lie

I had a pretty decent day today, still no pain! No fever (got close, but it went back down. Then again, I was doing a bunch of vaccuming and steam cleaning a little before taking it so it might have been that...) The guy I'm sorta seeing came over, we made dinner, watched some movies, had a really nice time in just chatting and chilling on the couch. It's been a while since I've had a day that felt so......normal? I didn't even put on make up today OR wear a wig/scarf/hat anything while he was over which I normally would pretty much everyday, and still felt super comfortable and not self concious about it. Yay! 

Hope everyone has a good rest of their night and day tomorrow! 

Gayle56

Bonnie  - Sorry to hear about your mom.  Hope she continues to improve.  Mine has been in and out of the hospital the last 3 weeks and my poor sister has had to do everything since my mom had two bacterial infections and I wasn't allowed anywhere near her.  I finally got to see her yesterday.

 Gayle

silviazara

Thank you for all your encouragement and understanding. I know it's mostly these days after chemo when I feel so yucky and in pain that everything just seems like there won't be any better days. And I know I should not have a pitty party for myself..  so I got dressed after all and got out to Hennesys for some appetizers. I feel much better now.

Joan yes 75% done! I have to remind myself all the time.

Shera I was thinking the same with the hair growing products. ;-)))))  Yes its me in the picture thanks you are sweet.

Nikki I love how positive and confident you are!  And I love it that you don't try to hide yourself under scarves and make up in front of your new boyfriend. Way to go!

Valerie - good luck tomorrow! Sounds like you are well prepared!

A_FIGHTER

Morning Ladies,

likeachickadee: Good luck today! I'm wishing you the best! You sound very prepared 

diamondslayer: I believe you are going today. I'm thinking of you! 

mkgutierrez: So sorry to hear about your Father! What a very difficult time for you, having your surgery and then the passin gof your Father. Hopefully, the time will come when you are able to grieve.

NikkEliz: Thank you! Good for you in being so confident/comfortable in just being you!

woodburns: Thank you! I'm wondering what you did today for work? Did you go in withh nothing on your head?

lmlola59: Thank you! Glad you feel so much better now with your hair buzzed. Too funny about being curious about shape of your head!

Shera: Sorry to hear about your headache you've had for awhile. This is true...LOL...product probably causes Cancer. Let us know how the buzz goes.

silviazara: Hang in there my friend! You will get through this! I agree with Joan - Sometimes it helps to force ourselves to get upi and out. Yeah, as I read the rest of the blog I see you did and you felt much better! Yippee! You look absolutely stunning in your picture!

Gayle56: Sorry to hear about your mom as well. Is she all better now? She must be doing better as you were able to see here, YEAH!!

Myleftboob: How did it go at the mall with your sister? Did you find anything?

I had a wonderful time at the Women of Faith One Day Conference. Some really great stories from the speakers.

I am still dealing with allergy issues - runny nose, then sometimes dry, itchy eyes, and now sneezing. I have no fever though. I plan on taking DayQuil today. I saw the infusion nurse this morning at TRX and she said it was not a problem to take.

I was at the hospital yesterday. I was falling asleep...LOL...I left in the late afternoon as I wanted to be careful driving home. I have noticed this time around I definitey have more fatigue.

I didn't run the 5K yesterday since I haven't been sleeping well, fatigued. I actually got a good night's sleep Saturday night and was able to sleep until 7:15, which is a miracle for me!

It's back to the hospital each day this week. My mother's surgery will be towards the end of the week, still not a definite day as of yet.

Hugs,

Bonnie 

No matter what age you are, or what your circumstances might be, you are special, and you still have something unique to offer. Your life, because of who you are, has meaning. ~ Barbara de Angelis 

 

lmlola59

Valerie Hope all goes well today in TX please let us know when you are ready how you are feeling.Sounds like you are well prepared.I was the same way and thankfully didn't need much for the limited SE,s I had .Wishing you the same

silviazara What a beautiful girl you are ,and you can really rock the scarf.You are so close to the finish line and then everything will be back soon just hang in there.

Depressing that hair doesn't begin to grow for 5 to 6 weeks,but Shera you have a point it is will be summer and things grow faster I am going with that.

Shera good tip on the mine scarves i forgot about those and may look into them.Good luck with the hair buzz I found it wasn't as traumatic as I expected and my DH and I had a few good laughs during it.I guess I had enough time to Physiologically prepare myself for it after all

Yesterday was a beautiful day here so spent some time out in the yard with DH and did some yard work It felt so good but of course I was wearing the halo and hat .I am not yet ready for anyone to see me otherwise except the DH even the kids.Will take some time to adjust to my own reflection first.

NikkiEliza glad you have been doing so good and fantastic you can be yourself and comfortable with the new boyfriend.Sounds like he is a pretty good guy also good luck with that.

Bonnie hope your mom is still doing well.

Good day to all need to exercise and start pumping the water for tomorrows outing #2

Myleftboob

Shera

LOL at the hair growth products causing cancer, probably true too!

NikkiEliz

Good on your for being yourself with the new BF.  Hey if he's not daunted by this, this guy is gold.  Mind you your georgeous regardless but some guys can't deal.  I was beside a lady at my last TX who was about 60 ish I would guess and we were chatting about the hair loss thing. She popped of her knitted cap to show me hers and her hubby kind of cringed.  She said he didn't like it when she walked around bald, made him uncomfortable.  Meanwhile they've been together like 25 years AND he was friggin bald himself LOL!  Weird.  Yesterday it was warm here and I was wearing a bandana most of the day.  DH was calling me Aunt Jemimah LOL!!

A_FIGHTER

You amaze me with your training schedule!  Big Sis is coming this morning so we'll hit the mall later today.

Is anyone considering Lattice after chemo for eyelash growth?  Do you think it would work on eyebrows too??? 

silviazara

Beautiful morning everybody!

I watched Life In A Day yesterday - and those everyday life stories really touched me.. of course the woman with cancer  was one of them. The response of her husband what does he fear the most? - when he said "Well I guess I am fearless now. My fear was that you get cancer again ..  and you did. It's over with.. so I am fearless now."  I love my DH, he has been with me through so much. Just wanted to share.

http://www.youtube.com/user/lifeinaday

AEM47

Shera - My white count went over 30,000 on the 2nd week after treatment 1 and then before treatment the count was at 18,000.  On week one, at the lowest point after treatment 2, I was at 2,200 and the neutrophils were at 800.  I simply stayed home for a few days to avoid any risk. The doctor said she would only get concerned if the neutrophils dropped to 500 and then she would put me on antibiotics..just in case.  She also sent me for a blood test over the weekend to see if it was coming up or going lower.  I had that done yesterday at the local hospital and that would have been on day 11.  I know the doc got the results within an hour and since no call either yesterday or today, I'm assuming the count is going up again.  Thurs. I'll go in and see what it's at - It should be coming up again at that point.  Luckily my kids are older 14 & 18 and are good about wiping things down here in the house with antibacterial wipes and washing hands, etc right when coming in the house.  I am out of work on a leave of absence so I can control the environment I'm exposed to..not everyone can so that was a selling point with the doctor to forego the shot.

RuthieG

Wanted to share with you all a funny story... I was feeling really good this weekend, so hubby and I went to a St. Pat's "block party" hosted by a pub near us.  It was quite a scene... lots of drunk "cougar" types and douche-y looking guys.  Fun people-watching.  I was wearing my buff instead of my wig or a scarf because it fits tighter and it was really windy out.  Apparently the sight of me with that on caused all sorts of sentimental feelings on complete (drunk) strangers...

I had a drink bought for me once (I was waiting for a bottle of water at the bar), a number of fist bumps and high fives, a couple of hugs from strangers, and one "Hallelujah that you can be out here with us!"... all from complete strangers.  Very sweet of all, but funny to me as well!

I've been feeling good... next Tx on Thursday.  Definitely been enjoying my good days!

ColdenMom

Hello All!



Bonnie - sorry to hear about your mother!!!



Silvazara- the picture is stunning to say the least!!!



Thursday was treatment and today fatigue has so set in!!! I hate this feeling. Last night I was feeling blah, and a little down. Today is actually how I felt day 3 of my first treatment.... I had planned on going to work tomorrow but we'll see how that goes. Saturday I was determined to walk in the St. Patrick's Day Parade and in deed we did! My kids were so excited! No other festivities than that though... Next year! Loved your green ginger ale Nikki!



Nothing tastes good again either... These are the days that I so appreciate the "good days!"



RuthieG - hysterical story!!! That's the best!



Has anyone heard from Neli???





Good nights rest all!

A_FIGHTER

Ladies,

lmlola59: Just think today you'll be half-way done! Wishing you the best & thinking about you!

Gayle56: Today will be a celebration! Remember Kool & the Gang & the song Celebration Good luck today! 

ColdenMom: No, no word from Neli  

I'm heading out for a run this morning. I am so looking forward to listening to my iPod and in my own little World for this bit of time today. 

I will then be heading back to the hospital. It is looking like Mom's surgery will be Thursday at 7:30 am for a 2-3 by-pass.

I wanted to share the names of the two speakers from Saturday's Women of Faith Event. They were amazing...Shiela Walsh &  Ken Davis

I hope SE's  are getting better & just remember we will get through this

Hugs,

Bonnie 

 I need neither future nor past, but to learn to take today not too fast ~ Jeb Dickerson

lmlola59

Thanks Bonnie yup 2 down 2 to go Yeah. Will be keeping your mom in my thoughts.Enjoy your run!

Likeachickadee

I'm happy to report T/C #1 was uneventful yesterday....yay!  Came home and walked 2.5 miles, drank lots of water and went to a Look Good Feel Better class.  Took a Benadryl before bed since the pre-med steroids left me with only 2 hours sleep the night before.  Had a little acid reflux at 4:30 am that Zantac took care of and walked another 2.5 miles today before going in for my Neulasta shot.  I took the Claratin yesterday and today and will continue for another 5 days or so.  The infusion nurse said next time to start the Claratin 6 days before the Neulasta.

I guess this is the calm before the storm....hoping for a mild storm though.

lmlola59

Hi,

Likeachikadee congrats on your first treatment and so glad to hear it went so well. And good for you with the walk after,they do want you to get exercise right after.Since I did a good workout before I went I did not go for a walk but did some vacuuming and house work instead Wow start the Clarrtin 6 days before? I started the day before so hope it will help.

Halfway done Yeah.Went well no hurdles used a vein in my hand with no problem so that was good.Asked about the 1/2 Neulasta shot she had never heard of this but checked with the pharmacist and they do not do this,I would have to get the full shot and just use half.She doesn't want to do this because it is so expensive and who knows maybe it will cause some problems with my insurance as i think maybe they would be worried if they don't report the actuals.Also suggested the option of doing the other type that you get for 3 days,can't remember the name but I don't feel like going there for 3 more days so I am going to try the Nealasta.I don't know if I will have any problems or not so try it this time and rethink if problems next time.My counts where actually higher than they were before I got my first TX,but they were so low on my1/2 way checkup she is worried.

Also notice that the hair under my arm seems to have stopped growing as I shaved Sat and still smooth I can live with this.But I did find one hair about 2 inches long growing on the underside of my forearm WTH.

Hope I don't get heartburn tonight I just can't seem to listen to them aabout eating really light on the night of TX.

Great night to all 

ColdenMom

Hello Ladies!



Likeachickadee- congrats on your first treatment! Wishing you well!



Imola- one more down!!! Yea!



Shera and Gayle56 - how are you both doing with SE these days?



I'm getting better but still kind of fatigued. Tomorrow I have to go for a medi-port. I don't have any good veins left for the next two treatments. I am now wishing I did this from the beginning...



Kelly

silviazara

Shera - good luck tomorrow!

Gayle and Imlola  - another one down, I wish for minimal SEs.

Kelly - you couldn't predict the problems with chemo and your veins. I think most of us with 4 treatments tried to do it without a port. It is just a bad luck nothing else. BUT, the port will help and make it so much easier for you! Let the procedure be without any problems!

I am feeling almost back to normal. Tried to play tennis today but tired so easily. Anyhow, it gave me energy for the day and I even made a nice big dinner (which I enjoyed eating - I guess the taste is almost back). Now I am about to book a trip to Vegas and a summer vacation. :-) Yay!!

lmlola59

Bonnie good news that your mom is scheduled for a 2-3 bypass on Thursday.I am not sure of her health or age but it seems this a pretty routine and they have tons of experience with it so I am sure she is in good hands and will do well.My father in law had one a few years ago and he was in his late 70s and had other health issues and his worst problem he  was the hallucinations on the meds in the hospital.I am sure she is glad you are able to be with her now just keep your chin up.

Shera are you still on schedule for today?If so good luck to you and hope everything goes better than last time for SE.s 

Kelly with the problems you had i am sure the med port will be a relief and it will be in for a short time now with 2 under your belt.Hope the fatigue goes away soon

Silveraza wonderful you are starting to feel yourself,and that you got out there and did play tennis is a lot.Everything we do is helpful even if we don't do it up to what use to be our normal ability.I found that I am still forcing my self to do some exercise daily even if it is not up to my usual stamina and feel good about that.I think in the long run it makes me feel better.

About the hair growth My MO said it is more ike begins to grow after 3 months UGGGGG.She also said it depends how healthy your hair was and our age also plays apart in this.As we age it grows slower again UGGGG.

I did again ice my nails and also my toes this time,not sure if it helps and i would even have a problem but it keeps me preoccupied and my DH busy getting it for me.I want him there but don't want him to get bored .My place supplies ice but the  ice maker was broken and we didn't know this till they started the Toxerteen so DH ran out to the store and came back with two big bags should have seen the MOs face when he walked in with them as she didn't know the machine was down.I think she thought we were going to be making margaritas or something. OH if only

Good day to all going to try and get some exercise 

Gayle56

Silvia glad you are feeling better. 

 I had my 4th and last Chemo yesterday.  They had a little problem with the veins.  My regular nurse wasn't there so the one that was had trouble and had to call over the Nurse Practitioner.  They ended up doing it on the side of my hand by my thumb.  A bit uncomfortable but doable.  Had some trouble sleeping last night.  Today I am just a slug and a bit queasy.  I took a pill and will hope for the best.  I took today off and will see how it goes for the rest of the week.  WBC was normal so I got away with no Neulasta again.  I saw my MO after the treatment.  He examined me and was pleased.  He was less than happy that I am around  so many sick children (elementary school) but so far it hasn't been an issue.  I am lucky that my immune system is good.

Now I will get a break for 3-4 weeks and then I will start 5 weeks of Rads.

A-Fighter  All the best for your moms surgery tomorrow. Be careful in the hospital - those germs!

Gayle

A_FIGHTER

Morning,

kat2nich &  shera: Thinking of you today! I hope all goes very well! You are going to be half-way done, YIPPEE!!!

lmlola59: Thank you! Yeah, it went well yesterday for you. I too love the no shaving under the arms I've also noticed my legs don't need to be shaved. Unfortunately, my mother has high blood pressure & diabetes as well. She is 62. I hope your exercising went well today!

likeachickadee: So glad to here TC #1 was unevetful! Fantastic you walked 2.5 miles, WAHOO!

ColdenMom: Sorry to hear about your veins. When I'm at the hospital with mom and see her arms all bruised and veins collapsing I think about those of you who have issues with your veins. I truly feel for you ladies!

silviazara: Lots of fun in booking/planning trips, good for you!

Yesterday I had a GREAT workout. I ran 4.75 miles and ran 4 flights of stairs seven times! 

I am feeling relief today from allergy symptoms! We were poured on during TRX this morning. It was cold! I was going to go run, but as I thought about getting ready and really deciding if I was going to it down poured again! Needless to say, I didn't go run. 

I didn't have the breakout on the face (chin) this time. However, I did breakout on the back of the head/neck. Out of sight out of mind...LOL...I'm just using SeaBreeze to dry it up and it's working.

Hugs,

Bonnie 

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenly and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson 

 

Kim48

Hi all,

Gayle - YEAH!!!!  You had your last treatment.  Mine is next Wed.  I am not excited about the SE, but happy to think this will soon be behind me!  For those early on . . . I have to say that it is going faster than I expected.  : )

Bonnie . . my prayers are with you and your mom.  I know this would be overwhelming at any time, but in the middle of chemo it is lots to handle.  I still hear your amazing positive attitude. Keep the faith.

Silva - Glad you are beginning to feel better.  I agree with the lack of energy.  I am so tired all of the time it seems.  It does help to move around, though.  I try to walk each day.

Kelly - Hope the port is uneventful.  I had one at the beginning because I had problems with veins in the ER before I started chemo.  It does make chemo very easy and your arms are free to work on computer, etc.  It was a bit sore the first night, but got better very quickly.  

Imlola, I'm sorry they can't do the half shot.  That's so interesting.  I got the half shot and the last two times and they used the whole thing.  I wonder why things are different from one place to the other.  However, I will tell you this.  My WBC was very high after the first one so they did a half shot on the second and they were normal.  They did half again on the third and now I have low WBC.  I'm sure I'll get the full shot next week.  I guess it might have been better to get a full shot after all.

Likeachickadee - Glad your first treatment went well.  I wish you an easy time ahead!

Ruthie . . Love your St. Patrick's Day story!  People do seem to be very caring.  I am amazed by the many people on my oncologist office.   They are all very kind.

AEM47 - Hope your counts have gone up!

Myleftboob - I have wondered about what we can do for eyelashes, too.  I read on one of these boards that someone got eyelash extensions and liked them.  They're expensive, though.  Not sure what I'll do, but I do feel like no eyelashes does make you look sick.    Can't hide it like the hair!

Shera, Hope all is well with you and the hair.  Thinking of you.

Nikki . . Sounds like a nice guy : )  So nice to see that!  

I sure wish we would hear from Neli : (  I'm worried about her.

Thinking of you all.   Have a nice evening.

AnnTop

Hi, Ladies:

Bonnie, I'm thinking about your Mom too. My dad (by-pass) and my son (valve replacement) have both had open heart surgery, and the medical teams do things so well now. I'm sure she'll feel much better in a few weeks.

Marlene: Losing your dad at any time is bad, at this time horrible. My heart goes out to you.

Gayle 56: Congrats on no. 4!

I have my 4th and last TC tomorrow, 3/22. I'm worried most about whether they'll find a good vein, although so far they have with little problem. I did get a Tax. burn in one of my veins after TX 2, but they were able to switch to the other arm. (Thankfully, I'm at very low risk for lymphedema.) Round 3 has been a little tougher for me -- my taste/mouth was affected sooner and for more days, and for some reason my legs feel fatigued whether I've done strenuous execise or not. And my brows have thinned quite a bit and my eyelashes some. My BS says Latisse will help the lashes come back in about a month after chemo. I hope Round 4 proves no worse than 3.

Re hair loss, the boards here have a lot on that. Your hairdresser may be able to help you estimate how fast your hair will grow once it starts back about a month PFC (post final chemo). Mine grows about an inch a month, so I hope to sport an "Annie Lennox" cut by June.

Depression. For some reason, I feel most down right before the next treatment. Am I still having to do this? Oh yeah, I am fighting cancer... And now that I'm close to the end of the chemo phase, I'm fretting about the aromatase inhibitor (AI) I'll have to take for 5 years.Thanks for letting me vent -- when people tell me I'm almost done, it's hard to not to say "if you think 5 more years of this, with a new bunch of side affects like possible bone loss and vaginal atrophy, is almost done." BUT, I know I'll feel happy to get past the chemo soon. It helps to have you all, since you truly know what we're going through.

Hugs and best wishes to you all. Ann

kat2nich

Thanks A_Fighter.  Yes, I my second TX today, so I'm pretty sleepy.  50% done ! 

 My hands have already started hives (red, blotchy, swollen).  But I started Benedryl right away.  I had trouble with nuetropenia a week again so tomorrow I have to get a Neulasta shot.  Yuck

Take care, all my BC buddies !!!

onvacation

Hi guys!  I didn't see a thread for T/C for March, so I thought i would drop in here!  I have my first treatment tomorrow!  

Hope everyone is having a great evening with minimal side effects!

Kim 

A_FIGHTER

Good Evening Ladies,

Kim48: Thank you!

AnnTop: Thank you! Yippee 4th one! Party Like a Rockstar ...LOL...Wishing you the best tomorrow! You can vent ALL you want!!

onvacation: Welcome! You've come to the right place! We are a GREAT group of wonderful ladies! Wishing you the best tomorrow as well!

gobucks & RuthieG: Good luck tomorrow!  

I had a long day at the hospital and then deicded to meet a friend for dinner. I finally got home after 8. My girlfriend & I have decided I will be at her house at 3:45 am to start our workout at 4 and be done by 5. We will feel so much better having our workout completed! It will make for a long day again, but it's all good! I need to be at the hospital at 6. My husband understands completely...LOL...my insanity ...He will meet me at the hospital.

Hope SE's are getting better/subsiding,

Hugs,

Bonnie 

Waking up this morning, I smile,

Twenty four brand new hours are before me.

I vow to live fully in each moment

and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion

~ Thich Nhat Hanh