Many glasses of wine, here i go again!! LOL

faithfulheart

Hey girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Happy New Year!!!!!  So I don't post much anymore,  not to say I don't lurk to see how everyone is doing..............So many newbie's, strong beautiful women,  but to many of us!

However,   I am writing to confess that once again,  I have over indulged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I just could not keep track of the wonderful tasting wine that just kept on comin last night!!!!!!!!!!!!  Now for you gals that know me this is usually a plea for help,  like is the cancer coming back now because I went out and yes, had a rip roaring great time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  All the gals that know me here know this is my MO....................... I have a few to many and feel so guilty, I confess and everyone makes me feel so much better!!!!!!!!   This time I just wanted to tell alll my sister's  old and new,  I went out and had such a great time with my DH,  brother and sis, did not count nor measure my wine intake, and yes even had a bit of a hangover, but it was all worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am here going on 3 years of dancing with NED, and I celebrated!!  Mabey to much but, I have no regrets and I just think thats progress........... I know it's not something I can do all the time, but for the first time, I really was not going to let the fear keep me from totally enjoying myself!!!!!!!!!!!  I am not pushing drinking on anyone, it's more the lack of guilt I finally had.... I and so many of us,  feel our live's came to a complete halt when we got bc. Well it did, and everything we put into our mouth we worry might bring  the big C back. I think I have entered such total acceptance, which is a long process by the way, that I know we are so not in control of this!!!!!  you know what I mean, yes we should eat right and I do, most of the time. We should excersise, and I do most of the time............. We should limit our wine, and I do, he he, most of the time................ BUT, WE HAVE TO KEEP ON MOVING , LAUGHING, AND SOMETIMES BE UNAWARE OF OUR EVERY MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! So thats what I did,  I brought in 2o12, doing all those things, with FINALLY, no regrets!!!!!  Progress, thats what I call it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 This will be a year of continued strength, staying strong , even when we think there is no way, WE,  THROUGH GODS STRENGTH WILL FIND ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!  A year of treatment for many, and you will stay strong and get through to the other side!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  A year of forgetting just a little more of the hell we have all had to go through, and as each year passes, and it will,  this journey will be but a distant memory!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  This is my prayer for all of us,  I hope you all celebrated in your own festive way, and if you are in treatment, it will be over soon, thank God we have it.................

Happy New year to the strongest women in the WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxoxox

steph

pupfoster1

Hi Steph,

I too oveindulge from time to time and then regret it later.  Worrying that I am fueling the fire.  But damn it, isn't there some sort of balance to all this shit?  Do we REALLY have to give up EVERYTHING that's tastes good or makes us feel good?  All not knowing whether it ultimately matters or not?  Truly mind boggling and frustrating.

I am just glad to you hear you had a wonderful time.  There should be more of those days, for all of us!

Love,
Sharon

NeedtobeSTRONG

WOW! thank you for posting this!!  You made me cry ood tears reading this!  I soent my new years eve sitting alone in my room while my family celebrated downstairs I could not be happy all I did was cry. Thinking about last year and how happy I was thinkning that 2011 was going to be the best year of my life.  And it was for a few months then this.  I hope to feel like you do down the road it is just so scary.  I think the thing that scares me the most is letting myself be happy again like it could be ripped away from me again. 

Thanks again for posting Have a happy and healthy year and maybe even some more wine nights haha

SharonMH

Hi  Glad that you had a wonderful time, I also think that it is good that we can  just enjoy life and not woorry about every little thing. No regrets for me on my end.  That wine sure did  taste good,  Wishing all of you a happy and healthy 2012 

kathleen1966

You crack me up.....why should we feel guilty?  You are LIVING!! There will probably be a study six months from now that says there is no link with drinking and breast cancer...we have to live our lives and be happy!!!  IT'S NOT OUR FAULT we got breast cancer!  I wish "they'd" stop making us feel it is!!! My father-in-law is an alcoholic who has been "chewing" since he was 12.  He's still around...never got ANY kind of cancer...still kicking....in his seventies...Everyone drank in the 40's and 50's (and a lot of the times when they were pregnant)...have you seen all the elders walking around everywhere?  Getting all crabby because they deserve to not have to wait in line at the farmers market cause their...uh...old?  Well have another drink for me and have a wonderful, happy and healthy New Year! 

Claire_in_Seattle

You had a GREAT TIME!!!  Congrats.

You and the rest of the world.  I met them on my rooftop at midnight.  We were watching the fireworks and the champagne was flowing.   I suspect there were tons of us dragging this AM.  I was certainly one of them.  (I also am recovering from the creeping crud.)

Imperfection is just fine.  In fact, it makes you a better person.

I am saving "sainthood" for the next life.  Meanwhile, I believe in (no particular order) chocolate, wine, sex, wine, chocolate, brioche, sex, pate, wine, sex, chestnut cream, heavy cream, champagne, petits fours, wine, sex, coffee, cycling, champagne, cheese, bread with butter, steak, roasted vegetables, tea, potatoes, sex, red wine, sunshine, love, and tears.

Congrats on a holiday well celebrated.  May there be many more. - Claire

faithfulheart

Claire,

you are my kinda girl!!!!  I love it!!!!!

bak94

So glad you had a great time with no guilt! Way to go! I have been stuck in the hospital, I did have a pain pill though:)

SharonMH

Hi Claire,   Love your lise,    SharonH

ali68

Hi everyone happy new year, I did have a few glasses of wine as well. I will have to stop during chemo as my doc says I drink far too much. I don't mind not drinking because I do need to detox.



Alison

CherylinOhio

Happy New Years Ladies!!  Though I did not indulge on new years eve, I did indulge on Christmas. Started with shots of expensive Irish whiskey then on to my beloved Molson Candian.  I drank too much but hey, it's the holiday season. Now I am back to green tea, water, carrot juice, etc....

Live large ladies!!  My onc says all in moderation.

Kay_G

Good for you! It's hardly worth having a good time if you have to live with regrets later IMO. I think the good endorphins that come out from having a good time more than make up from the alcohol floating around. Not saying you can do it all the time, but even excess is good in moderation. LOL. That's my story and I am sticking to it.

geewhiz

Claire...you are hilarious. I often wonder why I log onto this site...but times like this make me SO remember.



Thought of you yesterday! Santa brought my youngest a gear shifting diamondback, the rest of us have treks. We live in the Blue Ridge Mountain area...about 5 minutes from killer bike trails. We did the loop 3 times...laughing and loving every minute of it. Before bc, I would have been a bit timid, kept my eyes shut on 3 foot jumps. Now I speed up, keep my eyes wide open, take it all in and yesterday even caught myself giving a rebel yell after clearing!!

geewhiz

And Steph!!! Woohoo!! How wonderful to feel "normal". Your great mood probably did wonders for your immune system!!

kim40

Hi Steph!

Don't feel guilty!  We all have to over indulge in something at one time or another and it was New Years!!  You had a great time and that is what matters the most!!  For one night, you were living and loving life - and I did too!  So don't feel guilty, because if you feel guilty then I will too!!  LOL!! 

karen1956

I enjoy a glass or two (or 3) of red wine most every night...I refuse to feel guilty...this is more than I drank before BC (and what did that get me!!!)....I figure life is too short to deny myself....I eat healthy, try to walk daily and my weight is in a decent range.....So I indulge in the wine.....good for me and everyone else...To a great 2012!!!

Claire_in_Seattle

Geewhiz....how is your butt doing today???  That is another activitiy that interferes with enjoying part of my list.  You know the s*****x which doesn't go well with hammered pubes.

I am sure you will do just fine, and fortunately, there are other indulgences   I notice I left off hot steamy baths in heavenly-scented potions. 

I haven't even gone skiing this season yet.

A major lesson here to make sure you put FUN into your life.  My former business partner has that one on the top of her resolutions list.

One of mine is to cycle (finally) the Columbia River Gorge. I did the area near Richland, but not the Gorge proper. This is one to combine with wine tasting. Oops, that's a different trip altogether, which is the 30 mile wineries loop near Yakima.

Then I could go for a ski in the Cowiche Canyon if they get enough snow. That would be something to remember as well. Again that combines with a winery tour. (They recommend doing the tasting FOLLOWING the summer activity of rock climbing.)

Anyway, Happy New Year!!!  I just got my email fixed so off to a good start.  Hackers are having a field day.

One final thought is to forget this "moderation" stuff. We need to think big and then execute. We get one shot at something terrific. So find it, and then do it.

This is the year to start. - Claire