Just sad.....

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 I am 25 years old facing what could be my 3rd surgery on my left breast. After the first surgery I could feel myself becoming more and more depressed. I was smaller with nice volumptious breasts and after that  my sizes changed dramatically and I had constant pain. About 3 months after I got on meds and tried a couple different ones but the side effects sucked so I quit and just went through day by day. My second surgery cam around in July and since than I got married and it seemed like everything was falling together and the same thing. about 3 months out I got very depressed and verbal with my husband which I never was before. I am back on meds zoloft 50mg daily and I feel tired but my mind is not so depressed at all times. Now I'm facing surgery again and I dont know how I'm gonna take it. I cry very easily now. Its hard because it has not been cancer the first 2 times but I'm 25 and I feel like these breast keep taking things away from me. I cant work out, I constantly cover up and wear baggy shirts. I have put on alot of weight. I just feel sad alot about everything.

 This is my full story.....

I was 22 when I started having leakage of both of my breasts, dark bloody discharge. I notified my OB GYN and they did a blood test to check some breast milk levels and they were fine. The nurse said it would clear up over time and it was caused by being on depo- provera for a few years. At 23 when I went back in to my OB GYN I mentioned it to her and that it was still going on. Another round of blood tests all came back fine. The next day I was refered to an onocologist. By this time my right breast had stopped bleeding. They scanned both breasts and they came back clear but the left one was still bleeding. They did a ductogram and found the blockage and cut it out from the underside of my areola.

I was fine everything was good and 10 months later I take my bra off at home and there is a good size spot of blood in my bra from my left breast. I called my onocologist again and was in there the next day. This time I had a papilomma in my left breast. They did a needle loc and thencut the outside of my areola and got it out. Everything has been beign also. Dec 10 will be 5 months since I had my last surgery. I went back in multiple times for a follow up since than. Still bleeding.

I have a lot of aches and pains in that breast. I cannot exercise much because bouncing hurts. She explained it as my fibers getting used to the parts of me that are missing.

 Last week I went back again and my left breast had bloody discharge and my right has yellow discharge. They ultrasounded me and the right breast was clear and the left breast (my troubled girl) had a cyst, so while I was there they drained it. They are sending me for an MRI this week.