Fuzzy's Romp Room

kathindc

Crog, so sorry for your loss.  It is very hard to watch a loved one pass away.  Your mom is at peace now with our Lord.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.  ((((HUGS))))

Wren44

Cindy and Fuzzy, Someone said to me: No matter when you lose your mother, it's always too soon. Hugs and warm thoughts for you both.

Linda-n3

Cindy and Fuzzy, continued prayers for peace as you grieve your losses.

Ridergirl, am in your pocket today for chemo - hope all goes smoothly with no major surprises.

I am feeling particularly down today, maybe because of all the losses here, maybe still pain & fatigue. Called my own mother and she is coming for a visit soon. I think you have all made me remember just how precious those mother-daughter moments are.

Veggy, glad you get a little reprieve right now.  Do go do something y ou enjoy!

dogeyed

FUZZY, got behind today, but will put thsis first timorow, sohavn't read anything since my last post.  I'll be working on the visions, an dd I've aleady seen youa  few ways, i bleive I saved a litte note I began....

DUNES (I almost wrote Fumes), yes, lots wrong with me, but it is settlng down. They gave me a new antipsych med at my week-long overnight visit at psych lock-out simply because I was a smart alec because the girl yanked me so hard in my tore-up back part, IT STILL HURTS, and will be getting it all into everyone's mailbox at various legal and medical depts. But me, I ain't getting in it, it's up to the DA.  Love my sisters. ,')

thefuzzylemon

GG - oh thank you sweetie...I need you.

Crog...that was so touching.  Your mama and my mama...at peace, at rest, doing their thing in a much better place.  I am so sorry for your loss.  It's so very hard to watch...and wait...and feel so helpless for them.  Big big hugs.

Gma...thank you.  I need someone to watch me...

So, I am back from my appointments.  I went in for the mammo retake and she gave me a nice long discloure about how she may ask for the ultrasound pics but it's just to be sure...blah blah I'm totally freakin out, shitting my pants...just keep talkin' lady...blah blah...I let her know that there really isn't anything she can say or do to stop me from having a nervous breakdown so let's just get this party started...

She comes back after the mammo and says, "So, there's a concern...(don't really remember everything)...was there a biospy or something?"  I said yes...and they want more pictures in the mammo room...

Third set of mammo pics and she said they did not see anything outside of the scar tissue that is of any concern...you are free to go...and my meltdown started right there at that very moment.  The shitstorm is now a category 3...down from 5.  I don't know how to every repay each of you fo rhelping me through this....this cancer shit is wicked and it's just a step away from completely taking over right now, ya know???  Ugh.

My head is ready to explode from a headache so I have to get out of the daylight...but I had to come here and tell you all right away.  We watch out for each other...we play such huge roles in each others lives...we mean so much to each other. 

xoxoxoxoxoxox

Anonymous

Fuzzy - (((((HUGS)))))

chabba

Love ya Fuzzy.

GmaFoley

(((((((((FUZZY HUGS)))))))))

Lily55

Fuzzy - thinking of you x x

ptdreamers

Good news Fuzzy

Shellshine

Dear Fuzzy, so sorry for more trauma you had to go through, even though the news turned out to be ok, it is very, very hard.  Rest easy now and take good care of yourself.

GmaFoley

Sorry - was busy working this morning - this is last year's picture but those blossoms are coming back this year too - Guess what tree it is???

dunesleeper

What tree is it Esther? It sure is pretty.

I'm off to the plastic surgeon, probably for my last appointment. I know he wants to do a nipple, but I don't want any more done. It's tempting to do it just so I can see him again. He was the bright spot in the whole ordeal, at least as far as doctors go. He's just so darned cute, the way he enjoys his work so. LOL

Linda-n3

Fuzzy, thanks for letting us know so soon. I am so glad you can now check this off your list and get on with things until the next go-round. You can put your energies into your family, grieving, and healing. Grieving takes time, cannot be hurried, and now you are freed up to focus on the loss of your mom, remember the great things about her, spend time with your family. (((((hugs)))))

Lily55

Cherry?

GmaFoley

Nope - it is a fruit... made the best no added sugar applesauce I ever tasted - the grandsons love it..

Wren44

Gma, Do you know the variety? We have a gravenstein and a macoon. The latter makes a great pie.

GmaFoley

There are 5 grafts on that tree - i know one is a granny smith, braeburn and can't remember the rest - one looks like a fugi and maybe golden delicious.  I just through all of them together in the pot and used a sieve to strain it.. No added anything except some had a stick of cinamon in the jar - great applesauce!

Wren44

We got a pear tree with multiple kinds grafted on. The dog dismantled it. We stuck the branches back into the graft sites and they grew, but we have no idea what kind of pears we have.

dogeyed

FUZZ, I have been in a hailstorm of confusion, finally came out five days ago, butfind myself sleeipign too much.  I'm working and almos finish wih my post to you, stole some time from husband since I slept unil noon, and tried so hard to finish it.  But it will include stuff about this pic I posted before, and your meds, and a command, and how I see you and where.. or I shoul \d say s\ome of your choices (sorry my hands are all screwed up)... but HATS are in the fture for you, lady, love the fun and confidence of a fine hat, don' t you?  And this pic, which I'll talk about tomorrow, has to do with no only how beautiful you are, but turnds out about the basic confusion in your head that you cannot come up for air from!!!  I LOVE YOU AN CAN'TWAIT until I have more time.  Here's the pic, Steampunk Fuzzy EYes, just for her:  Love, Sisgter Gail

dunesleeper

I get to see my plastic surgeon again in 6 months. Yay! LOL My god he is such a sweet man. He came in the room, sat down next to me, and said "I understand you were hospitalized" with such caring in his eyes, tears came to my eyes. Then, the way he asked about what caused it, was so sweet and gentle, I had to tell him not to make me cry. I don't get a lot of that. Even mom, as supportive as she was to take me to the hospital and to pick me up with all she has going on, does not think of anxiety and depression as a real thing. It's an annoyance to her, whereas she was so totally there for me during the mastectomy. Anyway, all is well with the implant. He said the scar is starting to pucker a little and that I should get Scar Guard. He sooooooo loves his work. It's nice to have a man admire my boobs. LOL

Lily55

Great so glad you have a compassionate Doctor.......you deserve one............

Linda-n3

Dunes, I am SO GLAD you have a caring and compassionate PS! They are few and far between!!!! At least you got lucky on that one!

My mom is also one of those who think you should just pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get on with things, doesn't tolerate what she considers self-pity, doesn't understand anxiety. I have talked with her a few times about this when we were both in a positive frame of mind, and she had such different life experiences than I have had, and I think that has made a tremendous difference in how we handle stress and anxiety. So now I understand this, I can actually cut her a little slack, shrugging it off as "that's just how Mom is" and not let her add to my distress. And the truth is, sometimes I actually DO need someone to figuratively "smack me up the side of the head" and tell me to get on with things when I start getting too caught up in the mental issues, but other times I really need someone to be understanding, empathetic, and sympathetic, and so I come here. So lots of hugs to you tonight, and I am so glad to see you here.

kathindc

Dunes, I'm glad you have such a caring doctor.  It makes such a difference when they show concern and understanding.  Keep well.  ((((HUGS))))

Anonymous

Fuzzy - we are here.  So touched by your strength and your love.  Hugs dear one.  I have been gone several days and just found the post.

Edited to add, after reading other pages, Cindy,your om too.  Hugs for you.  It is so hard.  And your dad is stil there, living with you and not doing well, right?  Remember my DH parents were still in their home when she dies last month.  So tremendou of a gift that you helped them stay together like that.

Wren - can you arrange a godparent for your cat?  That is what we are doing for our pets.  The what if is always lurking, bc or car accident, so planning ahead is a good thing.

Esther - loved the quilt, you quilt the way I would, fleece backing.  But I never did get it together enough to quilt the pieces I have.  Too small to think about.  A large piece would work.  With pictures like your mountaintop.

Have 30 more episodes of Brothers and Sisters to watch.  Then I might try readng a fiction book again.

Dunes - yes, it s so good to see you here, you are very much needed.  When you left another thread some months back I missed you so mch from there that I followed you to here.  Where we both remain, quite content in Fuzzy's Room.  I am glad you have aPS who understands the torture of this disease.  I was with endocrinologist and dentist yesterday, both kind men who are helping me so much.  Sadly, my #1 oncologist is moving in a week, to Alaska.  Dang.

Veggy, I keep forgetting to take the Arimidex.  No matter where i put it, but I do rememer several hours later when, for instance, someone like you saysthey forgot thei meds, hen I go omg, darn it again, and I take it.  So thank you - that is one sunray in the forgetting.  Hope you are feeling stable again, not weird.

Wren44

All the people who don't understand depression should read "Darkness Visible" -- maybe then they'll realize that they're not even talking about the same thing.

crog234

Essa - We are glad that we have been able to keep their wish of keeping them in their own home.. Yes my father is not doing well either...



Cindy

GmaFoley

GmaFoley

This has been my mornings all week - very foggy/cloudy, just like my brain.. Can't keep it together girls.. need help... I'm going to put out a question that has been bugging me and my BS isn't around to ask - If I were to have a mastectomy - would that get rid of all my nerve pain in my breast??? I'm tired of gaba, pain creams, chest spasms... I'm going crazy.. OR am I just a wimp?

Lily55

I had MX but I have pain around my ribs, shoulder and underarm, not on the chest area as much but it is there sometimes.........if it was a simple MX and not a MRM one like mine then you might be fine. You do need to speak to your BS as they normally cut the nerves in a mastectomy so maybe you could ask them to ensure they do this?