Surgery

RoseH

I was diagnosed in September with invasive lobular bc. Had lumpectomy and sentinnel node removal showing no node involvement, stage 1. However, multi focal in one breast.

Advised to have mastectomy, and surgery and reconstruction is scheduled for next Thursday. I cant seem to focus on any one activity at this time, feel more scattered than I ever remember feeling.  

mdg

I felt the same way.  You are really at a hard place in this.  The anticipation of each step was agonizing.  I am sorry.....hang in there.  It will get better once you get surgery over with.  Hugs!

RoseH

Thank you! I'm so glad I found this forum. Its hard to try to explain this to someone who hasn't been there.  My husband and family are very supportive, but its not the same. I think I'm doing really well and then suddenly I want to just cry and I dont want them to see me fall apart. I want to be strong for them.  They are all so worried. Deep down I know I will be fine but I am feeling a loss I can't explain. Friends and family are telling me I am handling this well and am strong. Truthfully, I dont feel so strong right now.  

Anyway, thanks, just having a crummy day. Tomorrow's thanksgiving and being with everyone will be great.