For Younger People with Less Sense

BlueCowgirl

Obviously inspired by the title of the older women thread, but seriously...I am having a case missing the things I did before my BC diagnosis that I'm not sure I will ever do again...

Going out and having too much to drink? Out. Hopping into the mosh pit at a concert? The thought of doing so with radiation burns makes me shudder. My job working with horses - my reflexes are SO SLOW, I hope this changes, or I certainly won't be able to ride like I used to.

I know there are plenty of young women who lead normal, productive lives after BC and even those who are inspired to try new things. It's just hard to imagine while in the treatment doldrums. Anyone else? 

misswim

Oh honey, I am right there with you. I was a work-a-holic, wonder mom, girls night out kind of woman before diagnosis. After BMX, and 8 rounds of chemo, I barely left my house but to go to work, treatment and bring my kid to school. I didn't even go to the grocery store. Today I went to Walmart to hit the beauty isle as we are going to our first adult party in 6 months and I have half an eyebrow and about 6 lashes left so I needed to get some fakies....... I found myself wandering around the store just looking at everything because it had been so long since I had done so! And guess who the DD is tonight, that's right, me, the hotty in the wig with the fake lashes and brows!!! No drinking, watching every bit of food I consume, looking like an alien while my hair grows in........ will I ever feel like me again? I get you.

I used to wake up every day at 5 and workout and go to bed at midnight. Now I am lucky if i get my ass out of bed in time to get the kid to school and me to work without being embarassingly late and I go to bed at 8:00 every night.

It's got to get better for us............here's hoping, anyway!

undercoverebel

I can't even think,see or hear about some things right now. Just makes me miss them more. Also leaves me wondering how things will turn out,will life be less fun than it was before? Is this going to ruin everything?

BlueCowgirl

Oh, and I MISS SMOKING!!! Wish I could drink a few beers, smoke a few cigs. I didn't really appreciate how nice it was doing this without guilt a year ago. Crap.